emilyalwaysblue
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I am 20 and diagnosed with PNI when my son was 10 months old
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Post by emilyalwaysblue on Jan 29, 2006 20:24:43 GMT
Hi all Today has been good. Spent the day clearing up our rooms and cupboards for the people coming to rewire the house on the friday coming. We have to clear the whole cupboards out grrr It was good having a laugh with my husband going through stuff and thinking back to old times and when we met each other. There was a down side to this though, sorting through some old papers I found a picture of my husbands ex girlfriend, I know Im his wife now and we have our son etc, but I still get pangs of jealousy, am I normal? My little boy was a joy today and he made me laugh so much. Playing on the floor with him and my hubby pinned me down and let my little boy slobber (or kiss) all over my face, I was laughing so much i realised aswell that I should do more kegal exercises ;D I made a really nice sausage casserole and mash potato and me and my husband sat at the table (which we havnt done for a long time) and chatted. It was luffly! Are new matress is being delivered 2moro and I cant wait, ours is awful and so uncomfy, we have springs sticking in our backs and its a pain, so 8am-10am tomoro it will be here. Are we nearly there yet...............? Prozac day 3
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Post by Veritee on Jan 30, 2006 13:37:09 GMT
Hi I am glad things looking up
I found the name and contact details of the birth crisis counselor/supporter who really helped me on the phone even though at times I was so angry at times about my experience it was unpleasant for her , but she was great
- she is still happy to talk to woman, not about complaining at all but about coming to terms and understanding what happened and your feelings and grief over the birth - so even if you do not feel you want to talk to her now - keep her details as maybe you might want to at some point - it took me nearly 15 years to be ready .
************************************** Kate McMaugh has a background in psychology and health education and also suffered a traumatic birth. She has worked in lots of areas including child sexual abuse and drug and alcohol services and has also been an advocate and consumer representative for improving childbirth services in Australia. She is also an experienced 'Birth Crisis' volunteer. Kate lives in Glocestershire and is happy to receive emails or phonecalls from women in need of support. Contact her at kmcmaugh01@hotmail.com or via telephone on 01454 299 449. Our congratulations go to our volunteer supporter Kate McMaugh on the birth of her baby girl, Amy Rose, on 1st March 2005, (weighing 4.6 kilos ).
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Veritee XX
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emilyalwaysblue
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I am 20 and diagnosed with PNI when my son was 10 months old
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Post by emilyalwaysblue on Jan 30, 2006 14:08:24 GMT
Hi all, Well my new matress has arrived and I cant wait to go to bed 2nite, it just looks so so comfy. Today I have been feeling down, Im not sure why but I think its like a come down from trying to be superwoman and show everybody that everything is ok. I have managed to do 2 loads of washing and tidyed a bit, I just feel "low". We live in RAF quarters and have done for a year. Our heating bangs loudly all the time and we cant have it on at night times, because we are an end terrace aswell our house is very cold. I had a guy come round to look at the heating today and he told me there was nothing he could do and I should by portable radiators That made me mad. We pay rent every month and we shouldnt have tp provide our own heating. He is very lucky that I had my son in my arms. So ill have to write another letter to the Defence housing association grrrrr Finlay is sleeping well, well better than usual. He has gotten into a routine of sleeping through till about 2am then waking for an hour and struggling to get bk to sleep and then not waking until 7am. This is a hell of alot better than being up with him every couple of hours. Getting more sleep makes me feel a hell of a lot better, and getting more sleep on my new matress 2nite Im sure will make me feel miles better Are we nearly there yet..................? Prozac day 4
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Post by cheshire on Feb 5, 2006 16:04:31 GMT
Hi Emily
I was wondering how you're getting on? Hope your sleep pattern is still ok
Hopefulx
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emilyalwaysblue
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I am 20 and diagnosed with PNI when my son was 10 months old
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Post by emilyalwaysblue on Feb 17, 2006 9:29:12 GMT
Im back, I have been away in newcastle whilst my house has been rewired. Came back to an absolute mess and broken furniture!!! Had to put a complaint in and we will be getting some compensation grrr! Anyhows, I have stopped taking the Prozac, made me feel spacey and away with the fairys! I was having shakes for the 1st few days and feeling ill but now they are out of my system I feel lots better. I tried them and I didnt like it, so now I will try tthe herbal route I think? Though I have realised that I feel absolutley suicidal when I am due a period so I really need to watch out for that. We have started the "Put down" sleeping method with my son. Its a method recommended by tracy hogg (baby whisperer). When baby crys you wait till he sits or stands up they you lay him back down and say "just bed/naptime etc" you keep doing this and eventually they give up. It was hard and my little boy cried for bout and hour and a half but eventually he went down and woke at 6-30am. The 2nd night he went down at 7pm and woke at 2am, I went him and laid him back down and he went straight to sleep and woke at 6-30am again! It really was brilliant. the 3rd night 2nite so we will see how it goes! Anyhows catch uplater xxx
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Post by cheshire on Feb 17, 2006 18:32:26 GMT
Hi
Good luck tonight with the sleep pattern - I am really interested in getting the 'baby whisperer', I think I need it! Love, Hopefulxx
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emilyalwaysblue
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I am 20 and diagnosed with PNI when my son was 10 months old
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Post by emilyalwaysblue on Feb 18, 2006 20:06:18 GMT
Went to skegness with my friend and her family today. my husband is on a 24 hour shift so I like to get out of the house. It was good, looked round the shops and had an ice cream! Yum! It was a nice day and I enjoyed it. Last night was brilliant again. My son went to sleep at 6-30am and woke at 11pm, I went in and laid him down and I laid him down twice and he went back to sleep, took just 20 minutes! He then woke at 3am and I heard him stirr down the monitor but he setteled himself back to sleep and he didnt wake until 7am in the morning. Getting all this sleep is making me feel so much better! The baby whisperer is fab and I recommend it to anybody who has enuf patience to try it! Hope you all are feeling well xxxxxxx
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emilyalwaysblue
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I am 20 and diagnosed with PNI when my son was 10 months old
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Post by emilyalwaysblue on Feb 20, 2006 11:28:58 GMT
Started the prozac again ............Feel a failure. I thought after the 1st few days of stopping taking the pills that I felt better and I didnt need anything to make me feel good. Then 2 nights ago I was laid on the sofa and all the thoughts crept back into my head. I never really had thoughts of harming my son or anything, my thoughts were more analyzing my life, thinking of all the things that I have messed up all the things I should have done and whats wrong with my life. It was then that I realised that whilst I was taking the prozac I hadnt had any of these thoughts, infcat I had forgotten alot of this and I was just getting on with life. I started taking the pills 2 days ago again because the thoughts scared me, and even though i felt a bit spaced and away with the fairies it was better that thinking all the nasty thoughts. I didnt want to take the pills, i wanted to be that person that didnt need Anti d's that I was able to "cope". But it seems I cant. I feel like a failure but I know its for the best. Things have been going ok, me and the hubby have been getting on okay and my son has been sleeping so well during the night. All the sleep is making me feel lots better. I have also been spending time with friends in my area who have children f the same age of my son (10 months ish). A friend just had a baby aswell, I love holding him (makes me a bit broody) but that always makes me smile. Going to the town today with a friend as she has a dentist appointment and Im going to be watching her little gurl whislt she has her teeth drilled! Catch up later xx
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Post by cheshire on Feb 20, 2006 18:38:06 GMT
Hi Emilyalwaysblue
Sleep does help doesn't it? I don't have any personal experience of taking prozac - but don't think of yourself as a failure. I know I've said this in other places on the Board - but if I had known there was something to help with my symptoms early on and/ or if I ever got like that again, I would give medication a go, I really think I would.
Hope your day went well Hopefulxxx
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emilyalwaysblue
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I am 20 and diagnosed with PNI when my son was 10 months old
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Post by emilyalwaysblue on Feb 23, 2006 20:05:21 GMT
Its a miracle, my son is sleping thru the night 6-30 to 7am every night. Its just amazing! Feel so much better for having the sleep and gettin rest and quality time with my hubby, without worrying that we will be "interuppted" by a crying baby! Joined the station gym today, with my hubby in the RAF im able to use the gym on the camp. They do spinning classes and have aerobics etc, also lots of different complicated looking machines that are ment to beat the Flab, we will see eh, hopefully my jelly belly will soon dissapear! Have been like I said feeling better because of the sleep I have been getting. Been enjoying the time with my son so much. The prozac is defo working, I feel like the way I feel now with my son is the way I was ment to feel when he was born, happy! The only worry I have is that I feel great now whilst taking the prozac, but prozac is just masking the problem isnt it? Will it ever really go away?
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Post by cheshire on Feb 24, 2006 18:11:45 GMT
Hi Emilyalwaysblue
That is brilliant, glad you get the peace at night now. Makes sucha difference doesn't it? I'm still waiting for my son to go all night...lol!
By the way, any tips for jelly belly really appreciated!
Hope your weekend goes ok Love Hopefulx
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emilyalwaysblue
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I am 20 and diagnosed with PNI when my son was 10 months old
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Post by emilyalwaysblue on Mar 3, 2006 20:28:36 GMT
Im due a period and so feeling awful and depressed. Always feel a bit worse when I am due on Things have been going okay though. My son is sleeping most of the nights and I am getting on better with my husband, though he doesnt ever talk about the PNI, a bit like it doesnt exist. Im not sure if it bothers me or not? I mean I want him to acknowledge the fact that I am feeling low but then again I dont want a deal made of it? Not sure how I feel about it? Been spending time with friends alot this week, gossiping and having a laugh, always cheers me up. Also have arranged a night out with the girls tomoro. Just up the local pub but still out is out isnt it! Im looking forward to it relax a bit and feel like my oldself again. Going to do the race for life this year. Have arranged to do it with a few of my girlie mates, bit of a feel good thing I hope, its not for a few months yet so better get in training. Got all the gym thing sorted out. Havnt actually gone yet though lol ;D I am thinking of going to the spinning classes that they have. My hubby is really good about wanting me to do things and get out of the house. He wants me to be able to have my freedom and he is always encouraging me. Which is good! Brought myself a bunch of flowers at tesco the other day, sad or what my hubby has obviously forgot where the florist is!!! My son is becoming a little terror think he is going thru the terrible month! Having a birthday party for him and Im more excited than he is. Cant believe that it has been a year already, seems that it has gone so quick but so much has happend! Still taking the prozac, though I have been gettin sick feelings all day. Doc said its a bit unusual and asked if I was pregnant! NO BLOODY WAY!
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Post by cheshire on Mar 6, 2006 18:00:05 GMT
Hi Emily,
I think hubbys can find it almost impossibleto understand, but I found the next best thing was the 'space' or the practical help - and you say you can get some space..., lovely isn't it??
As for Tesco flowers, I buy a bunch every week. Flowers (along with trashy mags) is one of my treats in life. My hubby doesn't believe in florists, he has Never Ever sent flowers from a florist in his entire life, LOL!! On special occasions, I might get a bunch from M&S which usually last really well and I must adnit are massively cheaper than Interflora and look just as nice..
Oh dear, sorry about going on about flowers there.
Anyway, good luck with the Race for Life. I admire you, I can't even run up the stairs without feeling like I'll collapse..
Love HopefulXX
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hannah457
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i have 4 children. brandon,angel , peter, leland .
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Post by hannah457 on Mar 26, 2006 10:57:52 GMT
hi emily happy mothers day love hannah xx
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