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Post by steph on Jun 10, 2013 11:32:04 GMT
Hi ladies Me again.... Spoke to the doctor today and he has agreed to put me back on 30mg of Citolapram which was the max dose I went upto last time in the hope that it will help me to feel better more quickly. I also asked if he could prescribe me some Diazepam to help me cope temporarily right now as I am such a wreck and cannot stop crying as I am so plagued with anxiety and fear. I also asked about counselling / CBT and he gave me a number to call. I called but they have closed the waiting list for CBT at the moment so I have asked for some general counselling instead. Do you think I would be best off looking for CBT elsewhere or do you think general counselling will still help? So, so hard at the moment but praying now I have the steps in place to get better things will improve soon! Hope you are all enjoying your Monday? xx
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Post by steph on Jun 10, 2013 11:32:03 GMT
Hi ladies Me again.... Spoke to the doctor today and he has agreed to put me back on 30mg of Citolapram which was the max dose I went upto last time in the hope that it will help me to feel better more quickly. I also asked if he could prescribe me some Diazepam to help me cope temporarily right now as I am such a wreck and cannot stop crying as I am so plagued with anxiety and fear. I also asked about counselling / CBT and he gave me a number to call. I called but they have closed the waiting list for CBT at the moment so I have asked for some general counselling instead. Do you think I would be best off looking for CBT elsewhere or do you think general counselling will still help? So, so hard at the moment but praying now I have the steps in place to get better things will improve soon! Hope you are all enjoying your Monday? xx
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Post by wanagetoverthis on Jun 13, 2013 13:42:06 GMT
Hi Steph
This was the main symptom of my PNI too. You'll get back up there again, you know the score and you're doing what you need to to get better, it's just time, patience and being kind to yourself now hunni.
Love Nat xxx
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Post by steph on Jun 13, 2013 21:24:11 GMT
Thank you so much Nat, I have been comforted by some of your previous posts and like you, know I can get better again, just so hard to live with it when your're in the thick of it.
I'm going to give myself some proper brain training tomorrow and say No! to these silly what if thoughts as that's all they are!! I am bigger than this!
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Post by monica on Jun 14, 2013 16:41:05 GMT
Go girl! You will beat this! Hope u have a good weekend! Got anything planned?
Monica
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Post by steph on Jun 14, 2013 17:36:35 GMT
Hi Monica Feeling stronger this evening than I thought I would. Hubby on nights so home alone with kids, so funny as was so anxious at work today worrying about worrying then read a recovery story to calm myself down a bit and it put my mind back in focus a little. I have just managed to keep myself distracted since I got home and tryed not to let thoughts get the better of me. If I do have a wobble, will just try and breathe through it! Not much planned really as hubby working nights and a lot of my friends have plans so just going to try and enjoy time with children where I can. I can do this!! Better think about getting a father's day gift for hubby for Sunday. The children have made some lovely things for him at school/childminders
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Post by Weeble on Jun 15, 2013 10:09:11 GMT
Well done your coping skills are great
Kat
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Post by 1990mummy on Nov 26, 2013 21:51:28 GMT
Hi everyone, just something I though might help a lot of people on here, i started with these horrible thoughts and convincing myself I was some horrible, sick person and it was the most horrendous thing iv ever had to go through. At first I thought it was pni but have been diagnosed with OCD. I found the OCD.ORG and the OCDFORUMS.ORG websites very helpful and the symptoms are just what I was going through and what you are all describing on here. If you go on OCD.ORG and look at the different types of OCD there is a pdf file on "pure O" which is what I have got and i really really reccomend you read it, its been very helpful to me and the forums website too. OCD can be made so much worse by depression (inc pni) which is why you could all be having these problems due to pni if that makes sense! Hope this helps xx
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Post by monica on Nov 28, 2013 16:14:08 GMT
Hi
Thank you for your post. I have come across pure o (mentioned on here by someone in the past). The links you mentioned are very useful to arises suffering from this ssymptom, which iss common in pni.
How are you doing? Iss your pni//OCD better?
Monica
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Post by ashxoxo on Dec 3, 2013 12:58:23 GMT
Hi ladies,
i was hoping someone could give me some advice please i am desperate, it sounds like i have all the same symptoms as what has been described here. however my youngest is 2 she is 3 in Feb. The problems started when I started applying for jobs ( i qualified as a social worker the yr she was born and decided to take time out to be with her) everytime i applied for a child protection role i would get anxious then look at her and my other 2 children and feel instantly sick that something is going to happen to them and i cant stop it. The thoughts have manifested into family abusing them and finally what if i did??? i should know better than this i keep telling myself but the thoughts are so overwhelming. i remember feeling unusually overprotective when my youngest was born but never felt these things. i am always wary of the public and strangers due to the nature of my job and studies before it. Is this undiagnosed pni or something else completely?
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Post by monica on Dec 3, 2013 19:47:46 GMT
Hello and welcome
I imagine in your job you really see society at its worst and it's saddest (although social workers do a great job trying to make the world a better place!) Having your own children coupled with the jobs you are appkying foryou must mmake you realize how fragile they are. It sounds to me as if your protective instinct has gone into overdrive where you start seeing danger from your closest family and yourself.
I have heard that you can get pni up to 5 years after your child is born. Did you have any other symptoms prior to applying for these jobs?. Perhaps anxiety,, depression? Mmaybe the jobs you're applying for a simply a trigger.
However, you can clearly see these are irrational thoughts, as distressing as they are and believe me that is a really important step. Have you been to see your dr or spoken to anyone else. This is very common and with support it will be easier to overcome your anxieties.
Monica
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Post by missness90 on Feb 22, 2014 6:56:05 GMT
I am new to this site and really struggling at the moment. I wouldn't say in scared ill abuse because I know I never will but the constant thoughts in my head are taking over and at times I truly feel like giveing up. I think these thoughts stem from me hearing about abuse within the family and me reading certain stories and hearing them. But then again maybe I'm just making excuses for having these thoughts and perhaps I am just a sick monster afterall. I just don't see a way past this if I could go back in time I would start over I just want to be normal again. I'm having nightmares I can't sleep these thoughts are torturing me.
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Post by juppster on Feb 22, 2014 18:29:23 GMT
Hi there. I can assure you you most certainly are not a sick monster, just the fact that you are here and worried about it shows how much the thoughts are distressing you. Have you thought about some form of counselling or cbt? This can really help you to change your thoughts and can help to give you really good distraction techniques too. Most of all remember, these thoughts are the illness talking, not you. Please keep talking to us here. Hopefully some of the other girls will be along soon whom have suffered these thoughts too to give you some helpful advice xx
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Post by monica on Feb 24, 2014 18:13:17 GMT
Hello missness 90 and welcome
This a common symptom of pni as in ur case triggered by news and discussions on sexual abuse at a time when ur vulnerable . Someone described tge obsessive thoughts as the protective instinct going into overdrive where you see danger from even yourself. My obsessive thoughts revolved around illnesses and dying. I was completely consumed by them.
On the positive front you can get past them. Cognitive behavioural therapy is very good at helping you to relearn thought patterns. Other things that can help are say 'stop' aloud when a thought pops into ur head to try and distract urself.
Pni is a cruel illness that often has weird symptoms that can be hard to connect to the condition. However you will recover and with help and support this will be quickerx
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Post by wanagetoverthis on Mar 14, 2014 14:12:24 GMT
Hi there
This was the same for me. I saw something in the news and it completely overcame me, I was so distraught about it and everytime I looked at my little boy I would think 'why, why, why would someone hurt an innocent, beautiful child in that way'? After awhile though, I couldn't stop thinking about it. It became obsessive, I started questioning myself and the thoughts slowly took over me; I started to believe I was thinking about it so much because I actually wanted to do those things.
This is a very common symptom and it is so distressing but, with help, it will get better. CBT worked wonders for me and I did end up taking medication too down the line as I'd spent so many months keeping it inside and torturing myself that in the end, I needed something extra just to give me that bit of strength to fight. But CBT was the heart of my recovery and also these amazing girls here too, who supported me through it every step of the way.
Have you seen your Doctor? Please don't be afraid to go, I know how hard it is (honest I do) but they really do see this everyday and can help you through it.
Lotsalove Natalie xxx
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