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Post by cokey on Mar 25, 2008 19:55:17 GMT
Hi JM
Oh don't worry about your thoughts, I have had those - did you see my post from a few weeks back when I thought I had puepural psychosis. It was awful.
My worst thought this week (last week I was convinced dh was gonna kill me in my sleep!) is that I am going to take my own life without even wanting to. I am so scared of suicide (I was last time) and I am scared I will get so ill and do it without knowing it because I have gone too far.
I am sure we all share the same thoughts and what others may think are weird, are all quite normal to us.
Maybe we ought to start a thread in here about our worse thoughts, like a list. I know in one book - is it imp of the mind? - he lists the common thoughts including the one about us thinking we may go mad.
Hope you are a bit better today. keep with it.
Cokey xxx
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Post by winegirl on Mar 25, 2008 21:30:22 GMT
How you doing this evening JM? I will be about tomorrow morning if you want to chat hun xx
WG x
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Post by justme 31 on Mar 26, 2008 8:16:24 GMT
i can relate to what u sayin cokey.. my thoughts seem to change as to what i am obssessin about.. its like i get over one thing and bang another weird thing comes along to worry about. ive had the thoughts about killin myself and the fear of doing something outa control. i went through a stage where i was scared to go out as i was convinced i was gunna lose control and walk in front of a car or jump off a bridge! also had the same thoughts about the kids that am gunna lose control and hurt them and do the worse imaginable things.. its very scarey. the thoughts r by far the worse symptom this time round and i remember they were last time too. we will get through this cokey... we have been here b4 and come through... the same will happen this time it just takes time xxx
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Post by just me31 on Mar 26, 2008 8:23:27 GMT
wg i will b on here mosta the mornin so would love to have a chat just let me know what time u around x only just noticed ya post from b4 scarlett and u have helped me so much as i know u have been through exactly the same as i am going through now. in answer to ya question about the physcotherapist i aint seein her this week as it was easter monday and i always see her on a monday... i dont think it has helped going 2 weeks without seein her as she always makes me feel better... if only for an hour lol.
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Post by winegirl on Mar 26, 2008 8:35:18 GMT
Hi JM
Glad you feel benefit from seeing the Psychotherapist hun. Just off to get LO dressed then i will be back for a chat hun xx
WG x
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Post by justme31 on Mar 26, 2008 9:18:36 GMT
am in chatrom if anyone fancies a chat !!
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Post by cheshire on Mar 26, 2008 9:58:43 GMT
Sorry to miss you - can't get into chat, hopeless - sorry.
How are you today? xx
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Post by winegirl on Mar 26, 2008 11:40:38 GMT
Sorry JM, busy morning, you about now?
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Post by justme31 on Mar 26, 2008 14:31:46 GMT
just got back had to try and distract myself from the thoughts so i went out.......erm it didnt work!!
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Post by justme31 on Mar 26, 2008 20:52:32 GMT
and my mad irrational thoughts for tonight r that i am now dyin got brain tumour, stroke etc... god this is so stupid i would laugh if it wasnt happenin to me!
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Post by cokey on Mar 26, 2008 21:01:26 GMT
I have had those too JM. I often check my face to make sure it isn't sagging (stroke) and I am convinced at the moment I have cancer because my periods are all over the place.
Actually I have always had intrusive thoughts, have you? I know when I was at University I went to docs convinced I was about to have a heart attack.
My crazy thought for the day was that my little boy's head is too big for his body and what if I start to reject him!!! Then I thought why did I think that, don't I love him, am I turning into a psychotic monster. I soon dismissed that one though (hopefully).
C xxx
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Post by justme31 on Mar 26, 2008 21:06:08 GMT
i think am prone to ocd cokey and having the depression triggers it really bad... that kinda what the docs and therapist have said. when am well am able to dismiss the thoughts and think dont b so silly. but with the pni its different the thoughs r just so real and constant
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Post by justme 31 on Mar 26, 2008 21:08:33 GMT
u know what my doc told me cokey and i always think of this when i think am going psychotic that he has never met anyone that says that they going mad that is mad.... he says when i start to tell him that am sane and the resta the world is mad thats when he will start to worry!!
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Post by justme31 on Mar 27, 2008 8:56:19 GMT
keep thinkin what if this never goes away what if i have really got a terrible mental illness that will never go away. know it went last time but what about if this time it doesnt?
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Post by cokey on Mar 27, 2008 11:04:46 GMT
Hi JM
Gosh we are so alike. last time my doc said same thing that mad people don't say they may be mad, they don't know it or worry about it.
Am ahving bad day too today, suicide thoughts really crazy today. Just looked at my posts from last time and I had the same fears/thoughts. That helps a bit.
Hope your housework is going well.
C xxx
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