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Post by cheshire on Aug 14, 2008 19:52:30 GMT
Hi Jemima, This is exactly my feelings too - honestly, you really struck a chord with me when you said this: But do you know what?In some ways it has given me great strength and insight into my whole life so far!And there was me thinking I had had a tough time so far, this is the hardest thing I have ever had to deal with mentally and I consider myself a fairly strong person. And I agree about the dreadfulness of isolation - and I felt the same when I found this site - and actually was saddened & astounded that there were so many others feeling the same way ? As Winegirl says, we've made osme progress, but we've a way to go yet with awareness raising. Come back and talk any time. Thinking of you, Hopefulx
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Post by jemima on Aug 20, 2008 17:20:27 GMT
Thankyou.God this illness really sucks! I just hate it when you think you are making some sort of progress and you get a sudden blip for no reason.The ADs have definitely helped but I think I just expected them to wipe out the illness entirely! Am really trying to not overanalyse or obsess but you do it to try and get an answer as to why it happened to justify that you are normal and not turning into some sort of lunatic!
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Post by winegirl on Aug 20, 2008 20:15:38 GMT
Thats the thing with the meds, they are a slow process in recovery - but every time you notice things have been a bit better you know you are on the right track. It took me months for the meds to make me feel more normal again, and like you i had just sort of hoped they would be more like a miracle cure. Once you except that it is going to take a while it does make recovery easier.
WG xx
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Post by jemima on Aug 21, 2008 11:10:21 GMT
Feeling so much better today.Woke up that way and also comforted by the responses to my posts! Gosh this illness really is a huge learning curve as well isnt it? You have all the truly awful days of realisation and then the long road of living with it and managing it in any way which helps and then the slow upward hill of recovery.What an experience, didnt see that one coming.
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Post by winegirl on Aug 21, 2008 12:43:51 GMT
Neither did I hun! Its a shame we cant get more education about PNI pre birth for women. I know PND was only skimmed upon in my antenatal classes, and even then it was portrayed as the baby blues more than anything..
Glad you are feeling brighter today hun x
WG xx
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Post by jemima on Aug 23, 2008 9:50:25 GMT
Thankyou WG! Am afraid I was a bit too much of a winegirl myself at a friends birthday yesterday but we all had issues to talk about and a lot of stuff was aired and cleared.These wre some of my best girlfriends and it was nice to bond a bit again.I think I have realised actually that I am not going to drink anymore on the meds ,I just dont feel wholey comfortable with it so am going to give it up for a while and see how I get on.Still feeling a whole lot better and def on road to recovery X
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Post by winegirl on Aug 23, 2008 12:05:35 GMT
Hi Jemima
Its good not to drink on the meds as alcohol actually lessens the effect of them. Meds are anti depressants and alcohol is a depressant so it sort of takes away all the good things of the meds.
Glad you can see yourself on the road to recovery now hun. It will be up up up from here on in hopefully x
Take Care
WG x
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Post by jemima on Aug 25, 2008 18:52:12 GMT
Yes I realise that now.Thought it would be ok to have a couple at the weekend but actually before the meds think I was actually self medicating with alcohol really. Have felt worse since the weekend and realise now that I am not going to drink anymore until I am over this illness.A shame because the day or two prior to that I was feeling a lot better!You live and learn! Get back on track again X
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Post by winegirl on Aug 25, 2008 19:43:32 GMT
I had to stop myself drinking in the week, and it initially made my anxiety worse. I had been self medicating for so long that when I stopped it was a real struggle. But I am glad I did as I now feel better than evr as I am letting the meds do their job.
Hope you manage to stay clear of the booze hun and start bounding down that road of recovery x
Take Care
WG xx
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Post by jemima on Aug 26, 2008 10:22:44 GMT
I hope so too!Thankyou for your reply, the support is so needed because you are just on this wierd path of your own and you have to get used to it and face up to the fact that you actually are ill and just cant carry on in the same ways sometimes.Am definitely getting stronger and wont be beaten! Lots of love x
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Post by jessibella on Feb 5, 2013 17:57:47 GMT
Glad I read this post today. Have had a week of wobbly days now! Have to tell myself it's all part of recovery. I too hoped the meds would solve everything but I still have my off days.
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Post by sarajay28 on Feb 6, 2013 8:59:22 GMT
Hi Jess, I've basically just written the very same in JulesH's thread! lol I think acceptance that you will have off/down days is a massive part of getting through this illness (i hesitate in saying recovery because that means different things to different people) My youngest son will be 8 this year and i still have off days/down periods and i think this is a natural part of being a parent. I don't believe there is such a thing as a perfectly, happy, contented parent all of the time! despite what society wants us to believe!! and what the media portrays Glad you feel reading this helped though, keep talking xx
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