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Post by littlelotty on May 23, 2009 14:35:01 GMT
take care hun, try and get some rest and some sleep later. Is there anyone around that could help or just look after LO for a few hours so you can sleep for a bit???
take care
LL XX
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Post by winegirl on May 23, 2009 17:03:52 GMT
Yeah sunny and warm here too.. def helps..
Can anyone take LO off your hands for a couple of hours this weekend? Just so you can have a break? (and i mean like sleep...not housework!)
WG xx
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Post by nicola1712 on May 28, 2009 12:01:20 GMT
It was a long weekend overall, but LO went to my mum's on the Monday so I got a break then which I thought would help. Monday evening DH came home from work and I completely ruined his evening by rowing with him over nothing and then crying for hours before disappearing upstairs to give him a break. Tuesday he worked day and night and had Wednesday off. I was out all day Wednesday and came back in the evening to launch into another huge row with him and upsetting LO. Then mid row the doorbell went and I realised I had forgotten to cancel some bloke coming round from National Statistics to ask us two hours of meaningless questions so I very rudely told him to go away (which I have never done to anyone before) and he wasn't impressed, but to be honest I didn't give a shit, I was so angry and wound up. Made dinner in a strop, still rowing with DH who was concerned I wasn't capable of making dinner (which I took to mean I was useless and nearly walked out), ate it and then went to bed in the spare room. Just didn't want to be near anyone. Cried for a couple of hours, lay there worrying about the baby and how I was scarring LO and then fell asleep. Did however, resolve to go to the doctors this morning cos this can't be all hormones, it is going on too long and I wasn't like this with LO. Went to docs this morning and she talked me through the symptoms of depression, looked at my notes and my antenatal notes (with consultant appt for PND due soon) and I explained I couldn't wait till I am seeing him it has got that bad and if I don't do something about this my husband won't be around to see this baby in October. I did the usual tick box tests and she said it was mild depression again and I could go back on the meds I was on before cos we know they work for me and are safe. She explained about how they might keep me in for a few days when baby is born to monitor him/her for withdrawal symptoms but that they are quite rare and I will be on a low dose anyway. She also said if it saves my marriage/family life then three days stay in hospital later is worth it. She said she just needs to see a psychiatric doctor to work out my dosage and will be in touch. Am pissed off that I need to take meds while pregnant but it has got to the stage where I think it is kinda necessary for all our sakes..... I know it will take a couple of weeks to kick in but fingers crossed I start feeling better soon.... xxx
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Post by cheshire on May 28, 2009 17:00:45 GMT
Hi Nicola,
Well done on going to the GP - don't beat yourself about having to take what's needed. Hope it all kicks in very soon.
Biggest hugs, Hopefulxx
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Post by sianyc on May 29, 2009 10:05:02 GMT
It was a good thing you did lovely!! Letting it get worse wouldn't have helped any of you.
Not wanting to be mushy but it was a brave thing to go back to the GP and admit how you're feeling. You're stronger than you think x
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Post by nicola1712 on May 29, 2009 13:18:28 GMT
Thanks all. GP rang today and they want to put me on Fluoxetine 20mg a day. I have taken that before and struggled to come off it with bad withdrawal symptoms but she said it is the safest one to take in pregnancy. I have STUPIDLY been on internet and looked up problems for baby associated with taking it, but doc said they will just monitor him/her for up to 72 hours for withdrawal symptoms when it is born. Just worries me that I have just read that sometimes they get breathing difficulties or are premature. Am hoping that being on such a low dosage will mean it isn't too bad. Anyone got any experience of this to help me with?! She also said it is not advisable to breastfeed while on it and they will change me over to a different one if I want to breastfeed. To be honest I only lasted three weeks with LO so I may decide not to do it with this one, esp given me being depressed and having LO to deal with too. Am now worrying about being in hospital (will they keep me in too, or just baby?) for a few days - yes I know that could happen naturally anyway with a c section or whatever...and it is a lovely hospital that I will be in....but I am worried about LO thinking I have gone away, or DH coping with her on his own for a few days (!) Again though my mum was in a week with my brother and I don't remember it so perhaps I am just stressing.... xx
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Post by cheshire on May 29, 2009 14:45:23 GMT
Hi Nicola, No googling!! Seriously tho', a relative of mine was on escitalopram during pregnancy and bubs was fine - no problem. I know I would worry, but I'm still going to say try not to Hopefulx
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Post by winegirl on May 30, 2009 7:46:43 GMT
Hi Nicola,
Yes you are just stressing, your LO will not notice or remeber that you have been away for three days, and it will do you and youw new baby the proper rest you guys will need before coming home!
DO NOT GOOGLE. The medical proffessionals know what they are doing when they prescribe these things, just try to have faith in that hun..
How are you doing this weekend??
WG xx
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Post by nicola1712 on May 30, 2009 11:06:58 GMT
Thanks WG - I am realising I need to have faith in my husband and parents that they can talk to each other and arrange babysitting between then without me there - allowing each other time to see me and baby as well! And that I need to remember doctors often do know what they are doing - my GP had even rung a consultant pshychiatrist (sp?) at the hospital so she was even getting a second opinion which is reassuring.
Am a bit weird this weekend - have started taking the pills, cos this morning was getting all wound up over nothing again and snapping at DH so have realised again I do kinda need to take something to keep us sane. Baby is still kicking so that's a start! Feel like I have been crying all night but haven't, like am drained and tired but that's prob the depression so hopefully it will go away soon.
Going to make the most of the sunshine today and tomorrow and relax a bit.
xxx
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Post by winegirl on May 31, 2009 20:19:51 GMT
Hey Hun x
How did the rest of yesterday go for you? Did you make the most of the sunshine??
How you doing today??
WG xx
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Post by cheshire on Jul 3, 2009 11:37:51 GMT
Hey Nicola,
How are you getting on?
x
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Post by nicola1712 on Jul 4, 2009 18:14:59 GMT
Hi
Not been on for few days, just don't seem to have the energy to do anything for long at the moment. Must be the heat.
Bit hormonal past couple of days I think, foul mood on Friday but bit better today. DH got bad hayfever so I spent most of the night on the sofa last night which meant not great sleep - told him he is going there tonight if he snores again cos I am the pregnant one.
Am hoping this is just a blip and what with the heat giving me no energy to fight it. Really not going to go down the route of upping my dosage so just have to get on with it I suppose.
xx
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Post by winegirl on Jul 5, 2009 18:52:42 GMT
Hey Nicola
The heat really doesnt help either does it?
Hope the hormones have settled enough for you to have a nice weekend?
WG xx
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Post by cheshire on Sept 2, 2009 22:16:26 GMT
Hi Nicola,
How long have you got to go now?
xxx
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Post by nickynoo77 on Feb 20, 2010 6:05:52 GMT
oh do i know where your coming from! at the tender age of 30 i had my first pregnancy which i was looking forward to the whole pregnancy glowing experience which i'm still waiting for! i have to say i hated every minute of my pregnancy and i too wondered how women sailed through this and can say they loved being pregnant! in my experience i felt like a freak for not enjoying it which only added to the pre natal depression i was suffering! i would get a coke from the fridge and would have to lie down for an hour then i was crying at nothing and i was so bad tempered i even shocked myself! hang in there your not alone x x just delighted to see your venting your feelings and not ashamed to admit how you really feel!
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