wkmmum's diary

[wkmmum]

God - what a day! It's been non-stop and pretty fraught.

I'm at hospital in London tomorrow and have to be there at 9am. I have to go every 4 weeks so on these days my husband takes DS to school and I get back in time to pick him up. Except last night my husband told me that he's arranged a meeting in London at 9am tomorrow. So I've spent the day trying to sort things out and now have to take DS round to his friend's house tomorrow at 7.30 am and his friend's mum will give him breakfast and take them both to school. Seriously unimpressed with my husband.

The physio phoned me today and has told me to go back to using my crutch, rather than my stick, for the time being and to use heat. So I went out and bought some of the heat patches which stick on and a wheat bag and the heat's definitely easing it. I'll also be doing less walking next week which should help. The physio said it sounds like I'm overusing that arm and will have a look when I see her after our holiday.

I'm knackered but I'm hoping to be awake enough to watch question time this evening. Will have to keep myself occupied on FB!!!!!! xx

[winegirl]

Yes I want to watch question time too!! I went to one of their shows many years ago.. Normally dont see past 9pm, but for obvious reasons really want to tonight!

Best of luck for a busy morning tomorrow morning. Perhaps treat yourself to a costa coffee or something on route as a bit of a treat??

Much love

WG xx

[wkmmum]

God, I'm knackered. Before my son, when the clocks went back it meant an extra hour in bed. Now it means an extra hour to entertain him!

Just wanted to pop in here wuickly and say goodbye. I'm off on holiday tomorrow and won't be back til Fri. Hope you all have a good week and speak soon xx

[winegirl]

Hope you have a lovely time hunni, speak when you get back.

Enjoy!

[bean]

Hey me too, have a great, relaxing time, and dont worry too much about the eating thing, it may be a good distraction for you being in different surroundings.
Catch you when you get back xxxxx

[wkmmum]

Hey all,

I'm back! Am absolutely shattered but in a good way!

Eating was a bit of a nightmare but I managed to keep taking the slimming tablets so hoepfully that helped. Will know once I weigh myself in the morning.

My social worker phoned me yesterday to say that she'd got hold of some info on the Personality Disorder service and did I want her to post it to me. Asked her to drop it through my door as there's no chance of getting it with the post strikes. It was here when we got home and now that I've read it I'm even more confused about what to do. I was leaning towards not asking to be referred but now I've read it I'm not sure that's the right decision.

She also asked me how things were with eating (we'd talked anout it before I went away). I said 'fine' as I was with my husband so there was no way I could say anything else. She seemed really pleased and obviously now thinks that it really was fine.

Ah well, I'm fed up of social workers and all the other 'professionals' anyway so I guess I shouldn't care xx

[winegirl]

Hi Hun

Glad you had a good break..

What does the info say of the service? Anything helpful in there??

[wkmmum]

I've put on 2lb. Really stressing now. Gonna have to work extra hard to get it off again (and some more). I know I need help with this but I'm too scared. Getting help means putting on weight and I can't face that - it freaks me out.

WG - The info was quite brief and and basically just gave an outline of what they do. It just sounds really helpful and like what I need. But everyone keeps saying that I pretty much get that sort of help anyway so I'm really confused xx

[monica]

Hi

Could you call someone involved in the PD service - perhaps over the phone they'll be able to give you a brief run down and advise you whether the service would be more useful than what you get currently?

Glad your hols were good. Did your son enjoy the whole boating experience? Would you go again?

Re: wieght, would you throw away your scales? Or is that too much? Sorry I must sound as if I'm always giving you advice - I know that it can be overwhelmingly hard to take those all important steps - just worried for you.

Love

Monica

[winegirl]

I think yo should go to the service hun, even if it is similar to what you are already receiving, at least it will be extra support??

[wkmmum]

Monica - yes I could phone someone but I'm not really sure if I've got the guts to do it.
Please don't be sorry - it helps to know there are people who care. There's no way I could throw the scales away. I need them.
The holiday was great and DS loved it. He was amazingly well behaved as well! We're thinking seriously about doing it again in the summer. I'll get the photos onto FB either tonight or tomorrow.

WG - I'm really not sure and from what I understand it won't be extra support as it's pretty much the same as what I'm getting now.

Have done well with eating today. Only eaten dinner so as long as I don't eat anything else this evening I'll be heading in the right direction xx

[wkmmum]

Feeling a bit calmer today as the weight's starting to come off xx

[wkmmum]

For anyone who knows me on FB - can anyone get on there between 7 & 9 this evening? Really need to talk xx

[winegirl]

I can get on there now - you are on my list arent you??

[wkmmum]

Yes - I'm on your list. Will be online for about another half hour or so.

Thank-you xx