Lara's Pregnancy

[larsbars]

Well ladies...as the title says I am pregnant with baby number 3!

We discussed things about a month ago and decided we would try for a baby again and it happened first time! Not bad for someone who has polcystic ovary syndrome and suffers quite badly with the other symptoms. It's nice when something goes your way

I am only about 4 1/2 weeks so very early although I am peeing for England and my boobs have started to get sore which, as odd as it sounds, is encouraging. I guess until you have a scan or hear a heartbeat it's just a blue line on a stick so to be getting symptoms is kind of reassuring.

My PNI has calmed down a lot which is one of the main reasons I haven't visited the site for a while. My main problem is anxiety and I worry about 'why' 'why are we alive' , 'is there a god' etc etc...all the questions that can't be answered but sometimes reading about it all can start me off so I try to plod along as best I can. Anyway....I tend to have a few days where I am ok and then a couple of days of anxiety. Sometimes the anxiety passes but sometimes a diazepam is needed esp. if I wake during the night. I always wanted another baby and when I knew we were trying the thought of it gave me a little pang of excitement in my tummy which, I have to say, doesn't happen very often these days. I am not too worried about getting PNI again as I am still suffering. Obviously I don't want it badly again but I do know that they will be on the ball with and I can take pills till I am better. I am still on 60mg of Citalopram but took AD's in my last 2 pregnancies without any probs so that is not stressing me. The only thing that I do fear is that I take diazepam for severe panic and I know it is contra-indicated during pregnancy. Does anyone else know of anyone who has taken it while pregnant? I really would say that I only take 1 2mg tablet once every 2 to 3 months. The reason I am writing this now is because I dropped the kids home after dancing at about 5.30 and then shot off to do some shopping in Tesco. I started to feel really anxious and let it snowball until I felt horrendous and every cell in my body was screaming at me to turn around and go home. I didn't want to give in to it so soldiered on. I did calm down a bit going round Tescos but then I got in the car again and started driving in the dark ans rain I started feeling horrible again...like I didn't want to go home. It was like everything was caving in on me....the stress of getting organised for christmas, running a house, kids fighting etc. etc. I have clamed down a bit now but feel highly anxious and keep slipping back in to my anxious state of mind...I really want to take a diazepam but don't want to regret it tomorrow....not sure what to do.

Anyway.... just thought I would start my own pregnancy diary. I've been to the docs and have my booking app. with the midwife on 14/01 so I will be about 8 weeks and will hopefully hear a heartbeat. I can discuss things with her then.

[cheshire]

So exciting!!

[sianyc]

ooh Congratulations Lara.

Re the diazepam, can you give the GP a quick call and ask. They should be able to tell you ove rthe phone x

[monica]

Hi

Huge congratulations on your pregnancy!

Anxiety is pant esp round this time of year - I do liek Xmas but find all the organising etc too much - if you have pregnancy hormones racing around and maybe underlying worries about that it's easy for things to snowball - do try and take it easy. Often I find if I'm careful and can predict stressful situations I can take things piecemeal and try not let things get on top of me - sayign that sometimes things can go haywire esp with two little ones to look after.

I'm sorry I dont' know about diazepam in pregnancy - perhaps try asking pharmacist - they are ususally quite good.

Love

Monica

[bean]

Congratulations Lara
Sorry dont know either, funny enough i was a lot better when pregnant, my gp joked that although it was bit extreme, was the best thing i could have done lol!
take care hun
Luv bean x

[winegirl]

CONGRATULATIONS LARA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I am so pleased and excited for you!!!!!!!!!!!!

Please keep us updated with all the details (I like to go through pregnancy with you ladies - i must have issues). All my love for a happy and healthy pregnancy for a special lady xxxx

All my love

WG xx

[larsbars]

Thanks ladies for your kind words.

Not much to report on the pregnancy front. Am about 5 1/2 weeks now. No sickness (yet), slightly sore boobs, busting for the loo then hardly go but am getting really tired which I know is normal in early pregnancy but never really noticed it with the other two.

My anxiety, however, is through the roof which I know is probably compounded by the fact that Christmas is upon us. To be honest...it's christmas eve and I can't wait for it all to be over....I'm sick of it and so stressed with it all. As much as try not to be I just am. I can't wrap the kids present til night and daisy doesn't usually fall aslepp til 10 so finally finished them in the bedroom a couple of nights ago. OH kept moaning that it was nearly 12 and he had to get up for work the next day. I just thought f**k you....it's always down to the woman to do all of the co-ordinating and worrying...that's why I have had enough of it. I have a shed load of ironing to do, the kids toys to sort out, the house to clean and to be honest...I couldn't give a shit. I'm just gonna go and lay in front of the tv and try and calm down a bit. If oh comes in and wants to know what I've done all day I'll tell him f**k all and if he doesn't like it then tough shit! That is how much I care at the moment!

Glad I got that off of my chest!

[winegirl]

Lara

You have just identified EXACTLY why your anxiety has been up - who the hell wouldnt with that lot to contend with on Xmas Eve!!

I hope that teh festivities went smoothly and as they are just about over you are feeling a bit more relaxed???

WG xx

[larsbars]

Yes WG you are right. You kind of know it at the time but it doesn't make it go away.

Anyway...Christmas was nice and I now feel all chilled out again and looking forward to the new year. Daisy starts school on Weds. full time so I will have more time to myself (I will have Jamie but you don't know you have him whilst at home).

I have to say that the nausea has started and I think it is getting worse daily. I am really feeling it today. I'm 6 1/2 weeks so it's quite normal and I am trying to embrace it as it points to a healthy pregnancy. OH has no sympathy. He just doesn't get it...but I just tell him where to go if he annoys me...he'll soon know about it if I chuck up all over him...maybe I should!

Not much else to report at the moment x

[sazzythom]

Hi Lara

Sorry to hear not feeling very well at the moment. I too am pregnant but i'm a few days behind you. I felt quite rough over the xmas holiday but put it down to stress but now i feel ok. Bit tired but ok. I'm dreading the sickness as it was terrible last time. Did u have sickness with the other 2?? U coming to terms with it or was it a suprise?
When are u due? Seems like we're going to be swapping stories through our pregnancy's. Will be nice to share it with a person who isn't judging me like some people will. Hope the sickness doesn't get to u too much and as u've said it does mean only good things

[larsbars]

Hi All,

Just a little update really. Not feeling sick any more and I am 7 weeks which is a bit disconcerting really as this is the time that most miscarriages occur. My boobs are really tender still and fatigue and breathlessness are still very much there so I am hoping that I have just got off lightly this time with the sickness (about 5 days!).

As I said above I feel so breathless and tired this time which is more than I remember with my first 2. Been having a read up and it can indicate twins! Mind you I always think I am having twins (I think it's wishful thinking!) I'm snowed in at the moment and my booking appointment with the midwife is a week tomorrow so I'm really hoping that she makes it in. I will walk there if I have to. To have notes and a possible listen to the heartbeat makes everything seem more real!

Anyway....I'm off to eat sausage sandwiches. OH has just got home and can take the kids out in the snow. I'm not going out there!!!

[winegirl]

Hey Lara

I never had any morning sickness at all, and i dont think its an indicator of anything really - other than you are lucky it has gone!

Know what you mean about the appt with the MW goes ahead! I used to crave for each appt, a bit of reassurance I think.

Hope you enjoyed your sausage sandwiches! I stuffed my face on custard donughts when i was pregnant (and i wonder why I am now struggling to lose the weight??) LOL, but my MW did suggest that because I couldnt stop eating it may have contributed to the lack of sickness as my sugar levels were constantly kept up..

Much love to you and let us know how you get on with your appt??

Take Care

WG xx

[Bookwormprincess]

Congratulations Lara (and Sarah - I am so behind having not been online for over a month!).

Really happy for you. So how old are your other two, Daisy's at school so I'm guessing 4 or 5 and Jamie ? He sounds amazing if like you say you don't know you have him when you're home - my little 2 yr old is a handful!

So how did your 1st appointment go? I remember hoping to hear the heartbeat then but it wasn't till after my 1st scan that they even tried to find and listen to it.

I agree with WG about sickness not really being a good inidcator because sickness can be a good sign but not having sickness doesn't mean things are bad either. I've had it bad both times worst luck and lots of other symptoms like yourself, frequent weeing, really sore boobs, cramps etc. but then when I talk to some women they say they wouldn't have known they were pregnant before the scan if they hadn't done a test etc. because they felt no different, so everyone seems to have such different pregnancies. Symptoms can be reassuring though.

Really hope your pni gets goes completley before baby comes but like you say if it doesn't and you don't get any worse you know you can handle it. I'd like 3 kids, but I'm just going to see how it goes with no. 2 because if I get PP again I don't think I can put myself through it a 3rd time and thankfully my husband is of the same mind there.

Take care and keep lettings us know how you're doing.

[larsbars]

So much for me saying that I have only felt sick for 5 days! I feel like absolute crap now. Since last Saturday I have had a muggy headache which, in itself, has brought me sickness. Tat kind of subsided by the end of the week but was back with a vengeance on Saturday! It was worse sun. and is worse again today....not horrendous but enough for it to stop me from doing very much. I managed to get up and get daisy to school and luckily for me, Jamie will just go off and play by himself all day but too much movement and I want to yak. I don't think it is morning sickness but migraine. I desperately want to take one of my migraine tabs but they are a no no in pregnancy so just gotta stick it out. I can't cope with this for another 3 or 4 weeks. I so hope it subsides.

Anyway not much else to report. I made my booking appointment in the end so got all my notes and it feels quite official now. Gotta ring on weds. to get my 12 weeks scan booked. I should get it sooner though cos by dates I am 11 weeks but I know I am only 9. I swear there is more than one in there as well. I felt so awful this time and and all of my symptoms have been a lot worse than the other 2. Either that or there is one mother of a baby in there...probably a 10lb der!

Anyway I best go cos looking at a computer screen probably isn't helping me at all.

xxx

[winegirl]

Huge hugs mate (()) I hope you feel better soon..