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Post by wanagetoverthis on Jul 9, 2012 23:23:15 GMT
and me Gemma, would love to hear more about your story if you decide to share...many of us too are suffering the fallout of PNI When it seems nobody around us understands why we are being the way we are at that time, it can create a whole new layer of stress when we are trying to recover... trying to 'understand' how other HEALTHY(!) people felt and almost feeling punished in some ways is not nice at all. We just want to put it behind us but the scars of the illness can take a long time to heal unfortunately Here if you need to chat Nat xxx
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Post by gemma27 on Jul 10, 2012 17:22:16 GMT
Thank you so much all for your messages of support. I have come through the pnd without medication but was ill for over 18 months without knowing. It caused me to switch off my feelings. It is an awful thing to say but I saw my children as inconveniences. They stressed me out and I didn't know how to play with them any more. My coldness also resulted in a colleague taking advantage of me at work. Someone I thought was being a friend manipulated me and used me. I confessed all of this to my husband just under two weeks ago and saw the doctor a few days later as it was only when I recovered that I realised how ill I had been. My husband is trying hard to understand that I was ill and that had I been in my right mind I would never have done what I did, but that doesn't take away his pain, and I am struggling to come to terms with the fact that my children have had a mother in name only for over a year. I feel that had those around me known more about the condition they would have got me help rather than putting my symptoms down to stress etc and had they got me help so much of the damage would have been avoided. Any mental illness is so hard to deal with because people can't see it and whilst I am not using it as a excuse for my shocking behaviour it is the reason for it but I know people who don't understand think I am looking for a get out of jail free card and that makes dealing with the fall out even harder.
Anyway, my husband and I are working through the pain. He is a wonderful man and trying hard to accept what I have done and also to come to terms with the fact that in a way he let me down by not getting me help. And I am spending all the time I can with my children to try to make it up to them.
I am so glad I found this site xx
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Post by Weeble on Jul 10, 2012 17:29:06 GMT
Wow you are doing great how have things been today
Sent from my GT-I9300 using ProBoards
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Post by gemma27 on Jul 10, 2012 20:21:45 GMT
Wow you are doing great how have things been today Sent from my GT-I9300 using ProBoards Oh I wish I could agree that we are doing great but thank you so much for the comment. To be honest it has been hell. I am someone who has always despised those who cheat and the fact I have now done exactly that tears me up inside. The fact I was ill, effectively dead inside and not in control is little comfort. But my husband and I have a deep love and we are looking to that to pull us through. I am worried about the effect of it all on the children - the fact their mother has been cold for the last 18 months and the rows that I am now having with their dad, but I am keeping my faith that we will all get through this.
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Post by juppster on Jul 10, 2012 20:48:48 GMT
thanks for sharing your story Gemma, it sounds as though its been really tough for you but well done for asking for help and talking about your issues. I am sure it won't be easy at first but it sounds as though you have a great man in your husband and you are both willing to work through your problems. Much love x
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Post by Weeble on Jul 22, 2012 19:59:50 GMT
Hi gemma
I wonder how things are for you?
Kat
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Post by wanagetoverthis on Jul 29, 2012 6:40:07 GMT
Hugs hun {{{{{}}}}} xxx
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Post by johnthumes9 on Aug 21, 2012 9:52:10 GMT
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Post by wanagetoverthis on Aug 21, 2012 11:26:47 GMT
Johnthumes9
This is a support site for women with PNI and their families.
Please stop advertising on this site and respect the people who are using it or your access will be revoked.
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Post by Beth on Sept 12, 2012 19:41:52 GMT
Hi not sure if this is the right place to post but id like some advice on pnd. I have a 13month old daughter and have been feeling like this for a good few months . i have been feeling low , had low self esteem , mood swings , feeling irritable and angry with my partner and child . Im not sure whats going on if it is pnd or something else. Any advice is greatly appriciated . Thankyou bethan
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Post by Weeble on Sept 12, 2012 20:02:32 GMT
Hi Beth
Certainly sounds like it. Have you spoken to your gp or health visitor?
Kat
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Post by BAM on Sept 12, 2012 20:12:06 GMT
Hi Beth,
When my son was 1 year's old - a long time ago - now nearly 18 and my daughter is 10 now. I felt terrible and had been back to work for a few months. At that time - no internet - but I saw a phone line about PNI and thought what the heck phone it. I felt terrible and wasn't coping with a 12 months baby boy after all the maternity leave and back to reality and childminders etc... I didn't think it would be PNd as he was over the few months I had been told meant it was PND. That phone line was a life saver and when years later - with my daughter - now ten - so about 2002/3 and the internet finding a support forum was brilliant. Sometimes people / men and women get through the new baby time and feel better when sleep comes in (I was told after 3/4 months) but sometimes it takes longer with more symptoms and help needed.
Please if you are still in contact try your health visitor or G.P?
Otherwise please keep talking to us we understand and may be try a diary to print and show a health care professional!
hope to hear from you soon.
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Post by Beth on Sept 13, 2012 8:28:27 GMT
Hi both no not spoken to gp yet it might sound silly but i wouldnt know where to start i also feel silly if its not pnd and Immaybe just over reacting but whatever it is i know something isnt right iv searched alot of websites looking for help and advice so glad i came across this one.thankyou both.
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Post by Weeble on Sept 13, 2012 9:47:55 GMT
Dont worry, you are not being silly and your GP will have seen it all before believe me. They will just be pleased you came to see them for help. If the GP is too tough, why not pop down to baby clinic or give your HV a call. If all that is too tough and you dont want to share with your partner. Do you have a friend who would understand?
Kat
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Post by monica on Sept 13, 2012 10:27:20 GMT
Hi Beth
The fact you don't feel right a lot means something is not as t should. The ssymptoms you have described are typical of pni. Everyone has low moments but when these affect how you feel it's good to try and help and support.
Try telling dr or hv what you have told us? That you feel low, irritable, angry etc. have you spoken to anyone ese about this?
On the plus side you will recover from this.
Do come back. Ladies here really do understandx
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