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Post by lovingmumxxx on May 5, 2017 13:32:55 GMT
Since have my little one who is now 8 weeks old I have had horrid thoughts. Some of which are harmful towards him, some of which are disturbed / sexual thoughts towards anyone or family/friends.
I was diagnosed with anxiety a few years back but due to being pregnant they took me off my meds. When I was pregnant my anxiety didn't bother with me what so ever but now after having him I have these horrid thoughts. The one that scared me was when he was 3 days old I was holding him and had " go die go die" saying in my head now I would never ever for the life of me harm him or anyone to be fair. Every time I go to bath him I have thoughts about drowning Etc etc. My disturbed thoughts lead me to believe I am some sort of perv / weirdo.
I am on medication but I need some advice about these thoughts cause I need them stopped as they are taking over my life and making me feel ill and horrid towards myself.
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Post by monica on May 5, 2017 14:39:06 GMT
Hello and welcome
Congratulations on your baby. I'm so sorry you're struggling with these type of thoughts. They are for sure a symptom of postnatal depression/illness and for obvious reasons the least talked about. You are not a weirdo - someone described these thoughts as the mothering instinct going into overdrive and this made sense to me. We have a whole section 'dreaded thoughts' dedicated to exactly this. If it helps have a read through.
Have you spoken to anyone ie dr hv, about these thoughts? I know it's hard but the very nature of them can leave you shaken and doubting yourself. Cognitive behavioural Therapy (cbt) can be very good with dealing with them .
Keeping talking - you will recover x
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Post by abbyangela97 on May 5, 2017 16:40:06 GMT
Thank you.
Yeah I spoke to them both when he was 5 days old. I had a mental health nurse for a while but now I don't. I am suppose to have primary health care but not heard anything.
It's horrible to think about all these thoughts and they really shake you up and make you believe you are actually like that especially the sexual ones x
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Post by monica on May 5, 2017 17:10:47 GMT
One of our trustees,Nat, suffered with the same thoughts and has spoken about it on breakfast TV. Following the interview we had so many ladies contacting us saying they were struggling with this.
It sounds as if your support is falling very short...it might be worth putting in a complaint. What's your GP like? Maybe she could put pressure on the services you should be accessing. I don't know what your financial circumstances are like but could you afford to pay privately. Alternatively some women's groups , Mind provide free or heavily discounted talking therapies. It's worth looking into.
The thoughts very quickly become part of your thought patterns - so you have a thought, are terrified by it, you dwell on it so it comes back etc. Have you tried distraction techniques? When a thought pid into your head , try clapping to shock yourself into stopping it or say 'stop' out aloud.
Exercise can be really good in burning off nervous energy as well as releasing endorphins - the feel good chemicals. It made a huge difference in my recovery x
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Post by Kirsty on May 6, 2017 22:21:25 GMT
I have sexual thoughts too so your not alone! Iv had had them since having my daughter a 14 months ago. They are horrid and scary and make you feel like you're a peado so I totally know and sympathise with how your feeling. Trust me when I say as you recover they will get easier and less intense and I have been assured that once you're fully recovered you will not get them. Everyone gets odd thoughts but when your emotionally well they filter on and then filter out without even realising! Keep talking. Where snouts are you located if you don't mind me asking? The ladies on here (especially Monica) has been one main support for me and have been there for me throughout the whole experience.
Keep talking xx
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