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Post by cheshire on Sept 24, 2005 19:44:06 GMT
Hi Caroline,
Hope you are having an ok day. To be honest, I don’t really know when PNI starts – I think mine started around 6-8 weeks but became very obvious and debilitating at around 4 months. I get the impression from posts on here that it is a bit different for everyone and stressful events don’t seem to help. There will be others on here who will have a clearer view on this, but if you think something is wrong and you’re not sure what, it could well be PNI. Just look after yourself and see the doctor if you feel able. I wish that I’d done this earlier than I did.
In the meantime, we’ll support you the best we can.
Take care Hopefulx
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Post by caroline on Sept 30, 2005 13:55:12 GMT
hi caroline here again having a bit of a down day today and just needed a chat.I have been feeling once again that im a bad mother and a bad person that my family deserve better than me all i keep thinking is why me five years later and im still suffering this is not fair.people tell me im a good mum and a good person but why do i find it so hard to believe yet deep down inside i know its true,i really need to sort this out i need to talk to a proffessional but i dont like keep going back to my doctor because my daughter is five now and im scared she will think im being stupid for not talking to someone earlier than this its just i did have councelling but this never got to the root of my pnd i never went in to any detail about how i felt about being a mum.I had others issues in my life at the time and it seemed to deal with that more than what im going through now.Do you think im normal should i still be going through all this im on ads at the moment but as soon as im off of them you can guarantee my symptoms will come back because i dont really know how to deal with them.I think i will always be like this and i hate myself for it,if anyone has any help or ideas or just a chat about it would be great then get typing.Thanks for listening yet again just going through a bad patch at the moment speak soon love caroline.
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Post by cheshire on Sept 30, 2005 15:54:48 GMT
Hi Caroline,
Sorry you're going through a bad patch at the moment.. I think PNI can last a number of years - so please don't be too hard on yourself. If you can go back the the GP (I know exactly what you mean about feeling stupid doing this) then it might be worth a try. Maybe some counselling would help you - I don't know - I only know that counselling has helped me a bit so again, might be worth a try. Lots of us on here feel like we're a bad mum and a bad person alot of the time, so just remember you're not alone, we're all struggling through similar feelings and symptoms.
Just hope are feeling a bit better when you next join us online.
Thinking of you, Hopefulxx
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Post by caroline on Dec 19, 2005 17:12:51 GMT
Hi caroline here just wishing everyone a happy christmas and new year.I have been feeling quite good but i think thats down to the anti depressants,but what i would like to know is,is it normal after feeling quite good these last monthes to suddenly have a day when you get bad thoughts and feel down especially when you think things are looking up im just worried when the anti depressants stop im going to fall right back to square on bearing in mind i have been suffering like this on and off for the last 5 years and my daughter will be 6 in april can this take this amount of time to recover or do i need more help.Is there anyone else out there that has been suffering like this for quite a few years i would really like to know so i know im not alone.Anyway thanks for listening take care caroline.
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Post by monica on Dec 29, 2005 20:29:58 GMT
Hello Caroline
I've been suffering with PNI for just over a year, and although I'm much better so that I enjoy life and can function, I've notice it doesn't take much to knock my confidence adn tiredness seems to bring my physical symptoms back.
My cpn also told me that it is a normal part of the recovery process to have ups and downs. I had my first downer about 6 months of feeling good and it took me 1 1/2 months to get over it. It was such a shock, as I felt quite confident then an incident just floored me. Lack of confidence is part of the PNI for many. You are a good mum and person; you just have this damned illness.
Hope your Christmas was good and New Year will be great.
Love
Monica
Have you tried speaking to your doctor, cpn? It might be worth it, even though I know it might be hard for you. Have you tried any alternative therapies? Acupuncture really helped, Particularly the first session I had. Exercise is another thing that seems to help me.
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Post by bam02 on Dec 29, 2005 21:37:41 GMT
Hi Caroline,
My daughter is 3 and her brother 11. I have have been on anti 'ds for years since my first birth and am still chopping and changing and trying different therapies.
You are not alone at all.
Keep talking
A-M
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Post by cheshire on Jan 1, 2006 19:43:50 GMT
Hi Caroline
How did your Christmas and New Year go?
As BAM says, you are not alone.
Hopefulx
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Post by caroline on Jan 8, 2006 20:32:45 GMT
hi everyone and thanks for your replys this has helped me a lot to know im not the only one thats been like this for quite a few years and on medication i had a good christmas and new year hope you all did to and lets hope that 2006 will be a better year for all.Take care and please keep talking i know its what helps me thanks caroline.
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Post by wendabell on Jan 8, 2006 21:14:19 GMT
hi caroline, my appologys if i have already told you this but you are not alone.I have had this for 6 years since the birth of my first child and not sure if it just carried on with my next two children or if i had a fresh case of pni each time.All i know is that i am getting so much better now but still it looms in the bacground all the time and i am sick of it too. Its a hard thing to explain to people too as eveyone expects this illness to clear up after a few months not linger for years.It is nice to hear from another long time sufferer although i wish it wasnt if you understand what i mean.I kind of hoped i was just a freak of nature with my illnesses legnth of time but then through here i find it is not that uncommon. sorry got to go right now a potty training two year old has just got up for a wee and i have only put her to bed a while ago. little minx. love and hugs wendabell
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Post by cinders on Jan 11, 2006 11:36:21 GMT
Hiya girls, Just reading through some of the threads on here about suffering with this for some time and was wondering how you keep going? I've had the symptoms of this on and off for three years and everytime I feel better I hope this is the time of staying better. As soon as theres any upset I drop down again and when I feel on a downward spiral I feel so exhausted with it. I've called the Dr earlier about confidence building and self esteem courses and they're going to get back to me! Do you speak to people about your horrible thoughts and feelings? I had counselling last year and it really didnt help me and was wondering where to go next... I want to meet people who feel the same as me...I guess that could be through the Dr as well? Anyway, hope you're all doing well? thinking of you...Love n hugs Cinders xxx
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Post by cheshire on Jan 13, 2006 0:46:01 GMT
Hi Cinders
Did your Gp get back to you about those courses? How are you settled in now, to your new place?
Hope you're ok ((hugs)) Hopefulx
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Post by cinders on Jan 13, 2006 11:03:32 GMT
Hiya Hopeful,
Thanks for the reply. How are you doing? I hope you're well and enjoying the new year? Did your little girl start ballet in the end?
Things are going ok for me. We're actually living with the folks at the mo until we can sell our house.
It could take a while to sell and I wanted to get my eldest into the primary so he can make friends before he moves up to secondary school in the September. So we're staying here.
It has been pretty stressful, what with getting the kids into school and worrying for them etc, but I'm trying to stay cool!! If a mum of 35 can be cool???
Hubby has also started his new job and works away in the week so its been a lot of change for all of us.
I still havent spoken to the Dr. I'm going to call again on Monday and see what he says.
I'm looking at going to meditation classes, which start next month and see how that goes. Chance to meet new friends...hopefully! Also hoping to try accupuncture. I have to go for a consultation next week and go from there.
Anyway flower, will close now. Sorry for hijacking this thread!! Lovely to hear from you Hopeful. Take care and hope to hear from you soon. Love n hugs Cinders xxx
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Post by cheshire on Jan 13, 2006 21:43:40 GMT
Hi Cinders,
I'll reply here. I'm sure no-one will mind too much.
Yes thanks, New Year ok - glad for some routine back mind! Ballet starts soon, I'm looking forward to some quality time doing something special with my little girl.
How's things going living with the folks - hope this means you get lots of extra help?
I don't think I stay cool very easily and I'm 35 too - lol!
Is hubby home at the weekend then? My sister's hubby is in the forces and at the moment he's home at weekends which is good. Didn't get sent out to Iraq in the end.
Good luck with the classes - sounds like a good idea. Now I've gone back to work I'm thinking what I could do for my treat/ time out! So any ideas appreciated.
Hope you have a nice weekend, Hopefulxxx
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Post by cheshire on Jan 13, 2006 21:44:17 GMT
Hi Cinders,
I'll reply here. I'm sure no-one will mind too much.
Yes thanks, New Year ok - glad for some routine back mind! Ballet starts soon, I'm looking forward to some quality time doing something special with my little girl.
How's things going living with the folks - hope this means you get lots of extra help?
I don't think I stay cool very easily and I'm 35 too - lol!
Is hubby home at the weekend then? My sister's hubby is in the forces and at the moment he's home at weekends which is good. Didn't get sent out to Iraq in the end.
Good luck with the classes - sounds like a good idea. Now I've gone back to work I'm thinking what I could do for my treat/ time out! So any ideas appreciated.
Hope you have a nice weekend, Hopefulxxx
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Post by cinders on Jan 15, 2006 16:32:49 GMT
Hiya Hopeful,
Thanks for the reply. Yes, its wonderful being at home with the folks and as always they've been a great help.
Hubby and I also went out last night for the first time in ages. Babysitters on hand 24 7...its great!
Hubby does come home at the weekends. Its just any change and I start worrying. I still find it very hard to understand how much this illness can change you....just hope I get the old me back one day....fingers crossed.
How are you today Caroline? I hope you're ok. I have also been suffering with this pig of an illness on and off for three years and it is so draining. I also find that when I'm going through stress or near my period I get the horrible thoughts and its so awful. If you find a cure for this please let me know!!!
Anyway girls I will close now, but I will be thinking of you all and hope to hear from you soon....Love n hugs Cinders xxx
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