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Post by winegirl on Feb 19, 2008 20:59:16 GMT
I know that feeling too. I still get days of feeling spaced out, although the confusion has just about gone. It was bizarre that i couldnt tell anyone what i had done the day before, but the spaced out feeling was the worse.
Do you ever get any time for yourself at all to try and chill out?
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Post by justme 31 on Feb 19, 2008 22:00:20 GMT
i cant really chill out.... i always seem to be obssessin about the way i feel and panickin if that makes sense. i moan about the kids but i suppose to some degree they create a distraction for me! i think my main problem is that am always thinkin it must b something more that pni cos its so bad. and on the times that i do except it is pni i then feel in despair cos i suffered badly for 2 and half years with it b4 and the thought of feelin like this for 2 and half weeks is terrible let alone another 2 and half years. i just keep thinkin what about if this is it now and this is how am gunna feel forever.. then when i think like that i feel like i dont wana live anymore. sorry to b so depressin!!
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Post by winegirl on Feb 19, 2008 22:04:21 GMT
Thats decribes exactly how i felt to a tee hun. I felt that sleeping was my only break from it, but waking hours were just a nightmare. You know it gets better babes, and you just have to hang in there. I know its just so hard to comprehend at the moment!
It doesnt have to be 2 1/2 years this time, it could be weeks or months, who knows. But because you have been through it before you know you can do it again, and you are soooo not alone. I still suffer 21months on, but i know it will disaappear completely soon x
Always here mate x
WG xx
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Post by Scarlet not logged on Feb 20, 2008 7:26:38 GMT
Hi JM,,
You will recover hun, and sometimes the second bout of PNI is shorter lived. I'm almost recovered I like to think, & I have had this illness the same amount of time as WG. But the acute stages, don''t last that long, so even if it goes on for two half years you do have a quality of life a lot earlier than that. For me, it was around 10 months when I could say that I was actually living without waking up everyday and asking myself how I was feeling or feeling as if I had something worse than anxiety.
How many months have you had it so far hun?
I have to go out, but will be back later.
Please hang in there sweetheart, and keep on talking to us.
Love and hugs as always
Scarlet xxxx
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Post by winegirl on Feb 20, 2008 8:45:29 GMT
HI JM
How are you feeling this morning hun? Will be around on and off today if you need to talk x
WG x
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Post by justme 31 on Feb 20, 2008 10:34:04 GMT
HI WG thanks for last night i was feelin so bad still feel like shit this morn but last night was terrible. can i ask u all somethin lol i know i ask a lot of questions.. did anyone feel like when they had the pni they were were so muddled in the head they didnt know what they where doing.. that what scares me i think any minute am gunna go mad. i dunno if i make sense sometimes so can anyone relate to this. also and this is like the weirdiest thing with the pni all yesterday i was in such a state especially when i spoke to winegirl i feel like completely crazy... then come about 11 last night i feel calmer could think more clear and thought of course i can get through this. i remember i had this when i had the pni b4 i would feel mental all day even resultin in me takin myself to the hospital tellin them that i had schizophrenia, brain tumours etc and then late at night would come and mostly id feel fine. anyone else relate to this?
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Post by justme 31 on Feb 20, 2008 10:39:59 GMT
Scarlet have had it this time only about 5weeks it been really bad for the pass week and a half.. i started to feel worse when i started takin prozac i feel like the anxiety just went crazy. been off it a week now and am feelin a tiny bit better.... i even managed to convince myself yeaterday that prozac has given me brain damage lol cos i felt worse since i started takin that. just another irrational thought i think. does anyone know how long it takes prozac to come out ya system?
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Post by winegirl on Feb 20, 2008 12:48:52 GMT
Hi JM
The prozac sent me mad too with anxiety. It has a long half life so can stay in your system for quite a while. I would say after 5 and half weeks it would be 1-2 weeks before it was out of your system. I am now on Cipralex and feel it has been my saviour!
I can relate to feeling muddled. I would do odd things like pour water in my daughters cereal and then milk in my water jug! I used to get really upset about it too. And i just couldnt get things straight in my mind at all, it was all a big jumbly mess. But I dont have any of this anymore, and it will go for you too.
How are you doing this afternoon? Here if you need to talk x
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Post by Scarlet on Feb 20, 2008 12:57:30 GMT
Hiya JC,
Mornings were always the worst for me. Like you I only had respite when I was sleeping, and the minute I would wake up I asked myself if it was gone, and it wasn't ,and then I was down the rest of the day, constantly self-analysing...it's so draining hun I know just how you feel.
did anyone feel like when they had the pni they were were so muddled in the head they didnt know what they where doing.. that what scares me i think any minute am gunna go mad.
Yes, my brain was fuzzy all the time, I couldn't think straight, doing everyday household chores was so difficult because I had constant intrusive thoughts. I felt like I was mad too, and it took me ages to convince myself I wasn't. The first 3 months of my PNI were a complete blur, I was in a dream like state from morn until evening, thinking I had turned into a nutcase, existing in my own world inside my head, which was invisible to the outside world. Sadly anxiety and the constant self-analysis does that to you, it makes your brain tired so you can't think clearly...
dunno if i make sense sometimes so can anyone relate to this. also and this is like the weirdiest thing with the pni all yesterday i was in such a state especially when i spoke to winegirl i feel like completely crazy... then come about 11 last night i feel calmer could think more clear and thought of course i can get through this. i remember i had this when i had the pni b4 i would feel mental all day even resultin in me takin myself to the hospital tellin them that i had schizophrenia, brain tumours etc and then late at night would come and mostly id feel fine. anyone else relate to this?
You make perfect sense hun, what you describe is exactly how I was, toward bedtime I always felt fine as well, and often lulled myself into a false of security thinking I was well again. I always did this at hospital appointments as well, was suddenly fine immediately on entering the docs surgery. Soon though you will feel better earlier on in the night, and then in the afternoon too, and gradually you will build it up. You are not schizophrenic, or have any other mental illness. What you describe is this illness down to a tee hun, and you will recover from it again.
Ask anything you like ~ whatever will help you hun.
Love and hugs
Scarlet xxxxx
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Post by justme31 on Feb 20, 2008 14:56:39 GMT
managed to read a mag today lol result my concentration been gone for the last week. feel very spacey today.. its like what u say scarlett a dream like state its damn horrid especially when u r tryna reason with the obssessional thoughts. booked an appointment to see a pyschotherapist next week so hopefully that will help and am waitin to c an nhs shrink so hopefully things will b better soon. am in a dilemma about meds at the mo cos ppl say they make u worse b4 they make u better.. the degree of anxiety i had with the prozac was mad though was havin bad panic attacks intrusive thoughts 24/7 and vivid dreams and felt like my skin was on fire oh and was pacin up and down lol list was endless. is that normal cos ppl say they make u feel worse at 1st but surely not that bad? am worried about takin any others in case it happens again
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Post by Scarlet on Feb 20, 2008 15:24:25 GMT
Hi JM,
Glad you managed to read a mag, try and distract yourself a little each day if you can and build it up, do you get out and about at all?
Sorry I don't know much about ADs hun as I only took them for a few months, but I remember that I did suffer very bad anxiety for the first few weeks whilst on them. I hope someone can tell you more about Prozac. Could you nip to the docs and mention it to him/her and perhaps he might suggest another to try. Did you mention anything about being referred for counselling, sorry if you already did hun?
Hugs
Scarlet
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Post by Scarlet on Feb 20, 2008 15:26:24 GMT
booked an appointment to see a pyschotherapist next week so hopefully that will help and am waitin to c an nhs shrink so hopefully things will b better soonoops I'm not on the ball today , because you mentioned it in your last post. Whens your psychiatrist appt hun, have you heard anything about it yet? xxx
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Post by justme31 on Feb 20, 2008 20:12:42 GMT
dunno scarlet the doc said he was gunna fax through to the shrink but aint heard from them as yet... from what i gather it might take ages. feel horrid again tonight like kinda agigtated and my stomach feels all knotty. its like i kinda feel panic in the pit of my stomach.its horrid makes me feel restless like i cant sit still
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Post by winegirl on Feb 20, 2008 20:48:25 GMT
Hi JM
Just responding to what you said about if the effects you hadto the prozac are normal. Well thats EXACTLY what happened to me. I had constant panic attacks, the constant feeling of anxiety in my stomach, and felt like i was going crazy and up the wall with anxiety. I had to be signed off work for 6 weeks, 3 weeks while on the prozac and 3 weeks while getting it out of my system afterwards as I was such a mess! But dont be frightened about taking any others. I was, but I was given cipralex and it has transformed my life! It works in the same way as prozac but i had no nasty effects and it is the best thing i could have done. But like you after the experience on prozac was petrified of the idea of taking meds!
Anyway, I have rambled now but just wanted you to know that you are not alone xx
WG x
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Post by justme 31 on Feb 21, 2008 10:20:01 GMT
id heard it takes ages to get outta system wg. have had the most terrible night was ok late last night as mostly normal. went to bed at 2 woke at half 2 feelin like i was chokin and havin a panic attack..went back to sleep then woke up again at half 3 having another one i was all disorientated was so terrified. woke up this morn was so scared was gunna go to a&e felt like i didnt know what i was doing was so confused . my partner has had to stay home from work today feel awful about that but was so scared i was going mad didnt wana b by myself. took a tranquiliser calmed down a little but still feel on edge and panicky like im about to lose it. r u sure am guna get better from this? i dont feel like am am feel like this is the start of a descent into madness
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