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Post by justme31 on Mar 28, 2008 20:57:34 GMT
me too wg drives me mad i just think well if i got all these issues to do with life then it wouldnt just affect me when i get pregnant and have babies!! am so soo tonight cokey thoughts r quite bad tryna ignore it... find the only thing that helps is doin something that keeps me busy and really distracts me....sometimes i just go walkin with my dog..it like anything for a distraction! how u doing tonight cokey r the thoughts any better?
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Post by cokey on Mar 28, 2008 21:41:45 GMT
Pm'd you. I was having bad night too with thoughts - they seem to weigh down so heavy don't you think, like that black cloud is literally on your head! I look so awful and tired all the time. Then I got some good news that my sis-in-law is expecting again (she nevers gets PNI and she is on her 4th) and it lifted my mood and distracted me for 30 mins, so I am hoping that thought will get me to sleep. I don't know about you but sleep is great when you get it because I dream vividly at the moment and in my dreams I am well. Its a nice feeling for a while. Then you wake up, and after about 30 secs you slump down again. Hope you are all doing something nice this weekend. My husband has been planning a meal at this amazingly expensive restaurant with some friends for tomorrow and I am grateful but I am worrying (because our friends don't know) that I am going to struggle to keep us the pretence all night. Has anyone else been put ina similar position and coped? I was fine at the Christening because my mum was there and my kids were there. Hope you have a good nights sleep and thoughts get booted out for the night ) Cokey xx
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Post by justme31 on Mar 29, 2008 10:01:13 GMT
managed to sleep ok woke up this mornin feelin grotty but always seeem to b worse in the mornin... i wake up every mornin and think i need tranquilisers!! am going to c some family today aint lookin forward to it its like u say cokey u feel like u puttin on a pretence. in regards to u going out tonight cokey i always find that the thinkin about doing something is worse then when u r actually there..... when i am going out or have to c family(like today) i always think what if i lose control go mad cant cope run out where we are etc... i get my self so worked up but none of these things i worry about have ever happened. u will b fine cokey i know its hard but try to distract yaself till u go out later. and have a brill night.. u deserve to claire xx
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Post by winegirl on Mar 29, 2008 12:29:43 GMT
Yeah the mornings are definately the worse. And its true, normally the run up to going out is the hdr part and when you get there it is normally fine! How you doing tiday JM? Cokey - how about you?
Thinking fo you guys
WG xx
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Post by cokey on Mar 29, 2008 12:37:53 GMT
H ladies
I am not too bad so far today, the sun shining is helping so much.
I just had a vision after what JM said about losing control and going crazy in public and saw myself literally runninga round screaming like a banshee in an award winning restaurant - quite amusing I suppose, made me chuckle. Anyway, my oh and I have decided as a safeguard to make me wory less, if I panic, he said I can step outside for abit and then he will tell our friends at that point if necessary. I doubt like you said it will happen but just knowing someone else will deal with it helps.
That is the strangest thing about this illness that no-one would have a clue if you didn't tell them because in public, the brave face we put on is just so good.
Hope your family visit is okay JM. Thanks for advice wg.
Cokey xxx
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Post by justme 31 on Mar 29, 2008 19:29:31 GMT
am ok wg having a bit of a crap time at the mo cos i feel asleep and have woke up with obssessive thoughts. got that really bad spaced out feelin too... grr i bloody hate it makes u feel like u walkin round in a dream! lol cokey when i used to have to go out when i had the pni last time id imagine completely losin it and runnin round like some mad women.. i was scaredto go anywhere as the fear i had of loosin control was sooooooo bad.. but am still here so never happened!! u husband sounds very supportive cokey can i borrow him lol just kiddin. am away for the night have a good night all xxx
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Post by cokey on Mar 30, 2008 9:49:25 GMT
hi jm
lol you can borrow him but trust me he has his moments and he has bad wind anyway!!! lol
Last night was fine as you all predicted, the thought was worse but when I got in I was anxious and couldn't sleep and then when I did nod off (and this was one of his moments) he started trying it on and woke me up. Naturally I rebuffed his advances but it took bloody ages to get to sleep again! The night before I got no sleep because lo has a cold and didn't go to sleep until 2.30.
The restaurant was good though but I kept thinking I was having an allergy to everything! lol
Sorry thoughts have been coming in night to you JM, thats my worse time. Did you out sky on?
How you doing today?
Cokey xxx
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Post by justme 31 on Mar 30, 2008 11:02:19 GMT
woke up and the thoughts r terrible i bloody hate em! i have terrible dreams, last night they all seem to b about going nuts bein locked up etc... i wake up all panicky and it takes me ten mins to realise it aint real!! i thought of u this morn cokey my partner got me some chocs and i ate one that i didnt realise had nuts in it... i was havin a panic thinkin am guna die... needless to say i didnt but am lookin for rashes, swellin etc lol. i hate that with partners tryin it on... i can b havin the worse day ever panickin and cryin and my partner still tries it on. i get really pissed off cos i think i am like this and all he think about is boom boomin lol men tut
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Post by cheshire on Mar 30, 2008 11:44:50 GMT
Hi Justme,
I had this too:
i wake up all panicky and it takes me ten mins to realise it aint real!!
It's strange - when extremely anxious, i woke up and felt like I was living someone else's life and felt very disorientated..
Sorry the nightmares have been bad and the thoughts are invading. We understand and are here if you want to talk about it
Hopefulxxx
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Post by justme31 on Mar 30, 2008 13:57:43 GMT
i know what what u mean hopeful about the anxiety.. i remember i woke up one night and my mind was blank felt like i didnt know what i was doing.... i didnt know if i was dreamin or if i really have finally lost the plot!! i always think nah anxiety cant b this bad.. i cant think straight feel confused and like i am in a dream... it terrifies me which in turn causes more anxiety.. suppose its like a vicious circle. r u recovered from the pni now hopeful?
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Post by Scarlet on Mar 31, 2008 14:51:41 GMT
(sensitive, always trying to please, easily upset) as most of the people I have met with this illness. Would be interesting to see what star signs are most affected.Just noticed this, I am prolly a bit sensitive, although not as much as I was, but I do go out of my way to be helpful and please, and I worry a bit. But I'm pretty confident normally, and like a good laugh with folks. My star sign is aries.. Traditional Aries Traits Adventurous and energetic (lol of course) Pioneering and courageous (could be given the chance ) Enthusiastic and confident (yes that's me) Dynamic and quick-witted (and yes this too) On the dark side... Selfish and quick-tempered (don't think I'm selfish, but am deffo quick tempered) Impulsive and impatient (yes sounds like me) Foolhardy and daredevil (no not this at all) www.astrology-online.com/persn.htmxxxx
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Post by Scarlet on Mar 31, 2008 15:50:25 GMT
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Post by justme31 on Mar 31, 2008 16:50:10 GMT
lol that made me laugh!! am a pisces when i read about what they r meant to b like i am nah thats not me thats not me. apparently pisces r born dreamers.......damn star sign causin me ocd!!!!
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Post by winegirl on Mar 31, 2008 17:53:26 GMT
LOL x Its a good job i dont believe in all this stuff or i would be googling Libra!! x
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Post by Scarlet on Apr 1, 2008 7:36:34 GMT
lol that made me laugh!! am a pisces when i read about what they r meant to b like i am nah thats not me thats not me. apparently pisces r born dreamers.......damn star sign causin me ocd!!!! Here you go JM, does this sound like you? Pisces Imaginative and sensitive Compassionate and kind Selfless and unworldly Intuitive and sympathetic
On the dark side....
Escapist and idealistic Secretive and vague Weak-willed and easily ledActually I always thought star-signs were a load of cods... and have never read mine. My SIL is an avid reader though and reads all of our star signs and she will ring us up if anything interesting is due to happen. Anyway how are you feeling today hun, how did your appt. go yesterday? xxx
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