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Post by nicolad on Nov 10, 2007 19:55:11 GMT
Hi there
Just wanted to log in because I've been having a bad day today - I think a combination of going back to work this week, my little one teething and a late night making me tired. Anyway, all my worrying has started again - having bad pains as if in my right ovary (which is what I've been seeing the doctor about), and am waiting for something terrible to happen - imagining all sorts of scenarios of ending up in hospital etc.
Have now looked back over some of the threads on here and once again reassured myself a bit about pains in general - I am finding this site such as relief. Whenever I read any of the physical symptom stuff I feel like shouting 'hurrah, it's not just me!"
Have got an appointment to see a gynaecologist in December but am feeling I can't wait til then - how on earth will I wait?
I think regular visits here will help - thanks again for all your supportive words.
x
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Post by cheshire on Nov 10, 2007 20:34:56 GMT
Hi Nicolad,
Sorry you're having a bad day - like you, I have been troubled by all sorts of aches and pains which have given me cause for concern - for actually, a very long time . My GP says there's a word for this, but sorry I can't remember it ! She says the pain is real (unless it is of course, which it can be, some sort of medical problem) and can be caused by mental distress/ anguish.
But I must say I have had awful viruses which on reflection were nothing to do with PNI but initially attributed it to this.
Anyway, I hope your appointment goes well.
We're here for you if you fancy a chat,
Hopefulxx
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Post by cheshire on Nov 10, 2007 20:38:48 GMT
Just checked the spelling - it's somatising disorder - sorry I think I have gone off on a tangent a bit ? xx
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Post by winegirl on Nov 11, 2007 8:10:21 GMT
Hi Nicolad
I have found the difficulty with this illness is knowing whether the physical symptoms are PIN or if I have some sort of bug or something. Ans I find its not knowing that does your head in.
PNI blows all thoughts completely out of proportion, which is why you will be worrying so much about your pains. December is not as far off as you think hun, and we are here for you in the meantime.
Winegirl x
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Post by stevensmummy on Nov 11, 2007 10:12:04 GMT
Hi Nicolad,
I think most of us have at some time or another had physical symptoms and as winegirls says it is so hard to distinguish if they are pni related or not. It really is the fear that somthing could be seriously wrong that takes the crunch. I usually find worrying makes everything all the worse, and I end up with more symptoms that I had initially.
December really isnt all that long away, it does seem it but as we all know the days to tick by. I know sometimes it seems like its taking forever to go thro even a day and I count the hours till someone will be here with me. Lately I have been trying to view everyday as a positive towards a goal. Im my case it is the possibility of moving, and for you it could be your appointment. I find with every passing day I get a little stonger and more positive that it really is coming close. And finally all of our goals will be the passing of pni.
I hope you are feeling more positive today
Sarah x
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Post by nicolad on Nov 12, 2007 13:23:35 GMT
Hi Sarah
Thanks a lot - I am definitely feeling much more positive today and had a much better end of the weekend, having looked up about 'somatising' and also about irratible bowel syndrome, which seems to fit actually with what symptoms I am having. I am not going to trouble myself any more with looking up these symptoms but instead am going to write down a list of reassurances for myself whenever I am feeling on that slippery slope!
Whatever the cause, I have made myself realise (for now at least!) that there are hundreds of different symptoms that could be a million things, but to not think the worst about them - so I am definitely calmer.
Nicolad x
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Post by Scarlet on Nov 12, 2007 13:34:17 GMT
Nicola,
For the first 8-10 months of my PNI, I suffered irritable bowel syndrome. I knew it was connected to my PNI, because I'd read about it being connected to stress (as you do *winks*), and I'd never suffered it before I had PNI, so I didn't think it was anything else. I'm glad to say it disappeared fully about 6 months, and I haven't had it since...
I think most probably your symptoms have reared themselves again because you are suffering a bit of stress due to starting work this week and also because you are worried about your Gynacologst visit and imagining all sorts of scenarios. I just wanted to reassure you that I have suffered the pains you mentioned (ovary pain and IBS), and as I'm recovering they have disappeared.
Take care hun and letus know how you get on at work this week.
Hugs
Scarlet X
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Post by winegirl on Nov 12, 2007 20:04:40 GMT
ooooh me to with IBS! Been suffering ever since my LO was born 18months ago! Thanks for that Scarlet, nive to know that it might go!
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Post by Scarlet on Nov 13, 2007 8:52:07 GMT
Definitely connected hun, and it will go when your anxiety has subsided, which it is doing nicely girlie ;D
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Post by winegirl on Nov 13, 2007 18:21:11 GMT
My god never knew that! Roll on the anxiety free days then!
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Post by stevensmummy on Nov 13, 2007 19:15:52 GMT
Ahh sweet, you guys with your little toilet probs lol!! I'm one of the lucky ones, but I did hear that was a side effect, so it will go I'm sure. And yep WG you really are so positive, by hearing you talk you wouldnt think you had anxiety probs. I long to be as confident as you are xx
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Post by winegirl on Nov 13, 2007 20:17:35 GMT
LOL Sarah. I was just thinking today how I had completely lost my confidence! I used to go anywhere anytime without a care in the world, but these days a trip to the local shop is a nightmare! Honestly hun, I am not confident anymore. But I know that I will get it back, you will too. When we are all better we will go and do something really risky to prove how confiednt and well we are!
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Post by stevensmummy on Nov 14, 2007 6:57:07 GMT
Sounds daunting but yes, it really would be such a positive achievement to prove to ourselfs
x
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Post by nicolad on Nov 14, 2007 13:41:47 GMT
Hi all
Well, it seems to have been a rollercoaster week and a bit being back at work. The actual work is fine and I'm enjoying being back with the people who are lovely, but am fluctuating every day in my worrying! It probably doesn't help that my period is due.
Looking on other people's threads I am beginning to think that I have had an underlying cause for my PNI for a long time - before I had my six month old, I had a miscarriage at about 12 weeks - although I had apparently lost it around 7 weeks. Because I didn't realise I had lost the baby, I started to think I couldn't trust my body, didn't know what was happening to it, and couldn't control things. I then spent the next seven or eight months after that terrified that something was wrong with my body, my ovaries, etc - particularly because I started to get ovulation pains (something I'd had a bit as a teenager) and because I was often late for my period.
That thought stuck with me all throughout my pregnancy - I was worrying all the time the baby was not going to be alright. At every scan I feared I would get terrible news, and when I had some pains on my right hand side I thought that just proved there were things wrong.
Anyway, I have since remained obsessed with this right hand side thing - now worrying about endomitreosis (or however you spell it!), that my ovaries are going to fall out, that my stomach muscles are all falling apart, the cancer thing, the list goes on....!
The IBS thing has made me feel a bit better, but then I read that it is more usual for pains on the left, so of course the worrying starts again...what do we do to ourselves??!! I know at some point this will all get sorted and that they'll either find a problem or not, but until then I am just trying to control this rollercoaster!
Love Nicolad xx
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Post by Scarlet on Nov 14, 2007 13:52:23 GMT
Hiya Nicola,
I had a missed miscarriage as well at 10 weeks (lost it at 6 weeks but didn't know) and I was worried about the health of my baby as well during pregnancy, I also suffered pregnancy complications which required bedrest this time around. I'm sure excessive worrying when our hormones are all over the place, can most certainly bring on anxiety during and after pregnancy which can lead to PNI.
Re: the pain in your ovary. Did you ever nip to the docs for an ultrasound to put your mind at ease hun. I'm sure it's nothing. I had ovary pain long before having PNI, and I did have an ultrasound after I miscarried, and she told me it was nothing, it was on my right side as well.
It will get sorted Nicola and you'll be back to full strength in no time and the obsessing will become less and less, oh and the IBS will disappear as well.
Take care
Scarlet X
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