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Post by bam02 on Dec 4, 2005 22:02:57 GMT
Hi to be honest
Had a reasonable weekend after crying in my beer to any one that would listen from Wednesday to Friday!
I even went to church to today and haven't been for months! Apparently the regular Sunday school kids are away for Christmas and my Sarah is being roped in for Nativity - maybe even Mary!! if i get a new digital camera- old one gone walkabout I must show you my drama queen in the nativity!! last minute stand in- but hey it worked for Harrison Ford! He was Carpenter on set(how very Jesus like!) for Star Wars and was called to be Hans Solo and the rest is History! maybe same for My 3 year old Sarah!
bye for now
A-M
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Post by cheshire on Dec 5, 2005 14:57:20 GMT
Hi BAM
Glad you had a good weekend - how's you day going today?
Mine is busy - washing, shopping, cleaning - the usual range of mundane domestic chores... Plus a bit of Xmas shopping..not too bad really.
Hopefulx
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Post by bam02 on Dec 12, 2005 20:44:10 GMT
Hi,
well tomorrow I see my doctor about the increased panic attacks , but now its here - I am not sure she will be very helpful. Not been in the past- must must tell of my leaving places early due to feelings of being overwhelmed and not talking even if I have something to say. just like I shut down really- seeing world as a observer.
Its in morning so if any good i will post here.
Bye for now
A-M
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Post by cheshire on Dec 12, 2005 20:52:05 GMT
Hi BAM Good luck tomorrow - will be thinking of you. Remember -tell it as it is if you can (easier said than done I know!) Thinking of U Hopefulx
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Post by cheshire on Dec 13, 2005 12:13:51 GMT
Hi BAM
How did GP visit go?
Hope to catch up later x
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Post by cinders on Dec 13, 2005 12:48:40 GMT
Hiya Bam,
Just wanted to let you know that I was thinking of you today. I hope the visit to the Drs went well? Love n hugs Cinders xxx
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Post by monica on Dec 13, 2005 14:21:18 GMT
Hi
How are you? How did the dr's visit go? Gald you had a good weekend.
Monica
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Post by bam02 on Dec 15, 2005 11:46:11 GMT
I did get to doctors and luckily Sarah stayed at home with a sorry for himself dad-with a cold! Meant I could talk easier!
Well i think I was first appointment after a morning meeting of the doctors and somehow that helped. the doctor seemed to be more receptive and listened. I told her my anxiety and depression seems to be going on and on may be since my son's birth 11 years ago and in that time I have taken anti-d's almost non-stop. Al this she knows she also knows I have had some counseling seen a psychologist back in 2002 and been for CBT with an occupational therapist more recently. Yes this has all helped to some extent. But somehow its not enough panic attacks have got worse if less regular - with full blown breathing problems and being unable to swallow and getting giddy and collapsing a couple of times ( some of this complicated by mild asthmas attacks), also brought on by panic. I hadn't seen my doctor in person for six months and it was good she listened. I
I think the winter is worse time - restricting going out etc and feeling tired at 5.00pm because your body thinks its 10pm!
Well the result she will liaise with the day hospital where i am having a cbt type self esteem course- that will finish next week. I am being discharged form there after that - partly due to being unable to attend groups.
Due to childcare after Xmas-I am taking S out of day nursery - where she now does two days as the prices are going up by a third! (Money being a big issue for us due to our house renovations putting us into more debt.)
But they will have recent info on me and she might refer me on to see a psychiatrist for medication consult - which will take some months any way!!!
In the mean time she has given me Promazine with my Cipralex.! Any one heard of it? Veritee any info on it. All I have is been told it will calm panic attacks - but can be sedating and must not take if i am going to drive until I know how it affects me. there is no info sheet in the box!
But I believe its is very good - non addictive ! (not sure I believe that-but maybe it might be psychologically addictive - as if it works you don't' want to give it up). I must take if I need it and it will help sleep!!!great. I can usually sleep- but my dreams are so vivid and sometimes disturbing and things do go round and round in my head.
Any way probably gabbled -but here is the news form me. Thanks for giving the support to make myself known and not put up with thinking I should be better "completely" by now!!!
A-M
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Post by cheshire on Dec 16, 2005 12:17:06 GMT
Hi BAM
I'm really glad it went ok with the GP and that he/ she was receptive. Also hope the new meds help.
Take care Hopefulxx
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Post by bam02 on Dec 23, 2005 9:13:58 GMT
I have just spoke to G.P this morning on phone. I have been referred to Access and crisis team at the Hospital to decide what I need. but its not urgent so don't expect too much. I think they decide if you need a psychiatric referral or not to stop them being overwhelmed by G.p's. I wish I knew what she said to them. After all this time years since I was put on Prozac originally after my son's birth 11 years! i have had some CPN input after my daughters birth 3 years ago and before, also some CBT after she discharged me.
However being refereed to Access and Crisis sounds a bit scary! Am i really that bad! I hope not. Probably just a process thing. But now my G.p has said that, I do think I am mad!!!
Oh well.
Lets see...
A-M
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Post by Veritee on Dec 23, 2005 10:14:06 GMT
Hi Anne M
Well if it was only a crisis team I would say it was not appropriate as this is not a sudden crisis but something that seems to me ( from my unqualified perspective) to be something that has slowly been building up - perhaps because you did not get the help you needed originally.
However this is an Access and Crisis team so I imaging it is part of their system where you live and you have to go through this team to access the mental health and psychiatric services and resources they have available.
I expect everyone has to go through this team unless it is an emergency needing instant admission, so I doubt it means they thing you are really 'bad' just that like any illness you need to see a specialist in it rather than your GP.
And I am surprised that this has not happened before considering the length of time you have been ill – Anti Ds and the GP is all some need when they have PNI but as you have been ill for a while and it has not changed significantly over the time you have been on medication and that now panic is getting worse - then I guess specialist treatment would be advisable and I feel should have happened before.
I do understand about the panics and phobia - at one time when I was young my panics got so bad I did not leave the house (or even the bedroom for a while) for many weeks’ even months at one time. It was a terrible experience and it really interfered with my life.
However I want to assure you that they can go away. They have for me and I have been fine in this respect for over 25 years.
I am not saying that I do not have a tendency to be a bit phobic ( my accident actually brought it back a bit ) but it in no way interferes with my life as it is not a big problem in a way when it does happen I have long learnt how to handle it so it really never gets in the way of anything I really want to do.
The funny thing for me was that when I had PNI while I did get huge panic attacks especially at night about Caja's health mainly, the worry that the feeling of doom really meant something was going to happen and the huge responsibility of managing my household alone and bringing up a child...
But the agoraphobia that has troubled me off and on since a teenager and was very bad at 18 went completely when I had PNI.
I had no trouble going out and doing anything - even a big panic attack did nto stop me at all.
Well we are all different, but what I think I am trying to say is that panics attacks and difficulties going out and doing the things you want to do due to them etc can really affect your life and the quality of your life - and in my experience the sooner you deal with them the better.
But that it is possible to be free of them altogether as I have been for considerable periods and if you do have them to learn to manage them so they are not troublesome.
I have found that I have done this more with therapy to understand what underlies the panics and techniques for managing panics and fears of travel etc rather than medication. But years ago when it was particularly bad I did have to have a lot of medication to get myself to the point that I was free of symptoms enough to start therapy to learn to ‘manage’ my panic attacks
So hopefully this team will have more to offer you than the GP etc has had so far
Good luck with it all
Veritee x
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Post by bam02 on Dec 23, 2005 10:58:25 GMT
Thanx Veritee,
You notice I put this in two places -here and the main board in a type of panic!
I do understand logically its a process thing! But emotionally its scary as it infers - not coping and maybe one step closer to admission!!! Being very dramatic here and its highly unlikely - just all the old prejudices I guess and the views of society in general to mental illness. Its not like seeing a chest consultant for instance is it!? Oh well hopefully this is a good thing! finally!
A-M
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Post by cheshire on Dec 23, 2005 14:01:31 GMT
Hi BAM
I hope this turns out to be really good thing for you. I know we have a crisis team here as my therapist mentioned it..but I don't really know more than that. Would you like me to ask my sister - as you know, she works in the field.
Anyway, I just hope you have a good Christmas..don't know if you plan to hop on here over the weekend, if not ALL THE VERY BEST!!
Hxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
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Post by bam02 on Dec 23, 2005 16:03:52 GMT
Please do ask your sister if she can understand the systems - but I knowe it will be different in each area.
I probably will pop on here - hardly a day goes by that I don't!!!
Thanks and bye for now
A-M
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Post by cheshire on Dec 24, 2005 14:29:12 GMT
Hopeful and the gangxxx
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