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Post by bam02 on Jan 2, 2006 19:22:15 GMT
Ite been a long weekend away and all the people sent me batty. But I coped! Yesterday I crawled away to bed at midday and got up later feeling like a total washout!
However, today was better! I am home now from my sisters and as family time goes it wasn't too bad! I am tired and not very happy new year ish!'', more' lets hope its a more hopeful time!
I am trying to contact some friends. But its amazing when you do contact people they seem busy! so really do they need you at all!!?? Gosh paranoid I know.
I am little down tonite. Shouldn't be but am.
Sarah starts school nursery on 16th Jan - has been at day nursery till now. But all I see is running round to drop her off - pick her up and then off to another school at 3.15 to pick up my son!
She was old enough just to start school nursery in September, but I managed to pay to keep her at day nursery as it meant she could do two full days - instead of five 2.5 hour days! Enough for the child - but not much use for me-still its free!!!
Any way enough for now.
A-M
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Post by cheshire on Jan 4, 2006 10:00:46 GMT
Hi BAM,
I was just wondering how you were today? I'm going to try to get on top of things here - didn't do much yesterday at all, but slightly more energised today ...? Hopefully anyway.
2nd day of hubby back at work and think I am getting used to it again!! Really miss that extra help - oh well, not long till Friday
Take Care Hope to catch up soon, Hopefulxx
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Post by bam02 on Jan 24, 2006 9:39:17 GMT
Its been ages since i typed here! I feel really tired and post virul today-very flat and almost tearful. I keep questioning any decsions I make - like I ordered another sweatshirt for Sarahs Nursey as she wears the last one everyday and doesn't want to take it off - but the Teacher looked at me as if i I was daft as its not compulsory and i could save my money as she will leave in july!! She said a as much last week. But since she worn that sweat shirt she feels part of the team and I need not to spend so much time washing!
Any way it's stupid - but thats it. I am finding too much to worry about I know - too much mundane worries - I need something to stretch my brain without feeling over tired and yet - ican't cope with the easiest things!
A girl who was almost a firend died recently in sudden unexplained circumstances - found collapsed by the entrance to a tram station and she was 33, also suffering from depression,anxiety, ocd! I think that has affected me, to the point of questioning everything! Like what is the point? If that can happen. I think the answer is to live now as everyday matters-but how do you get the energy to do that?
I play with my little girl and think - her mum -must has felt the same feelings as me-and still does. But she is gone and yet did the years before make her mum feel better or did they just make sad memories of a life that was.? She didn't have have children- so no grandchildren. Her poor mum!
I am thinking too much. Must stop here or it will get too much.
A-M
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Post by sarajay28 on Jan 24, 2006 10:52:41 GMT
Hi Bam
I just wanted to say that i don't think its stupid that your having these thoughts, if someone you know dies then its bound to affect you in some way and the fact that you are still in the grips of this horrible illness makes you even more vulnerable. I too have had thoughts like yours, 'whats the point' but try to remember that you have your kids and they mean the world to you, and you to them. At least you can come here and let off some steam which i think helps so much.
Keep talking and take care.
Loadsa love
Sarah.xxx
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Post by bam02 on Jan 24, 2006 11:00:18 GMT
Thanks Sarah,
Sometimes i think we need that reassurance and its great we can come here.
I am on a go slow day today. I have been staring at a pile of clean washing that needs sorting for ironing or putting away. But not moving.
I will off to collect my daughter Sarah soon (like you) from Nursery and then take her swimming lessons - so feel proud watching her through the window in her arm bands!!aw!! Maybe that will make me shake up a bit and see the point of it all!!?
Thanks again
Anne-Marie
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Post by cheshire on Jan 25, 2006 13:33:27 GMT
Hi BAM
How are you today?
How did the swimming lesson go?
I know what you mean about the thoughts - I think my worst spell of PNI was after my nana died when my son was about 12 weeks old..I had some very bad thought patterns then, but it did pass.
Take Care Hopefulx
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Post by susanneb1984 on Jan 25, 2006 15:22:00 GMT
Hiya Bam,
How's things hunni? xxx
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Post by sarajay28 on Jan 25, 2006 15:43:08 GMT
Hiya Anne-Marie
How are you today? I too had to take Cameron to his swimming lessons last night and i felt so proud watching him. He's now onto doing lengths and is doing really well.
Hope you are feeling better.
Loadsa love
Sarah.xxx
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Post by cheshire on Feb 5, 2006 16:11:01 GMT
Hi BAM,
Just wanted to see how your weekend was going and to wish you luck for Tuesday.
Thank you for all of the support you have given me.
Hope you are having a good day?
Hopefulxx
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Post by bam02 on Mar 15, 2006 0:32:16 GMT
Hiya not been on this section for a while. buts 12:30am on Tuesday and i can't sleep . But no-one is around - thought night owl Hopeful might be. Very active mind tonite! This morning!!! Don't know what to say - so talk to myself!!lol! A-M
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Post by cheshire on Mar 15, 2006 8:12:29 GMT
Hope you got to sleep in the end BAM.. I seem to crash out much earlier these days - no stamina hey?!
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Post by hannah457 on Mar 26, 2006 10:55:35 GMT
hi anne-marie happy mothers day love hannahxx
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Post by bam02 on Mar 29, 2006 0:18:06 GMT
Hi its 29th March at 1.15 am and I am awake again!! Not good I suffer after insomnia night !!!
Its my age i think!!!
Hubby not pleased either he thinks I could spend my life asleep!!!True too!!!
I need beauty sleep sooo much!!!!
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Post by cheshire on May 1, 2006 21:47:27 GMT
Hi Bam
I hope your birthday was ok today. I read in the Bday section that you'd celebrated on Saturday - weather was fantastic wasn't it?
Anyway, hope today was ok for you
Hxx
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