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Post by cheshire on Oct 1, 2005 15:04:47 GMT
Hi YoYo
I'm OK, been meaning to write here but a few other non PNI things going on, so been a bit busy. But I did get a call from the BBC yesterday so I'll call back Monday..and I'll keep you posted.
Hope you're having a resonable weekend - sounds from your diary that you've had a good couple of days..that is great. Hopefulx
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Post by yoyo on Oct 2, 2005 11:40:48 GMT
Glad you're doing ok - such a horrid word really, we'd all love to say we're doing brilliant wouldn't we?! One day :-) Keeping busy is definitely a good thing, I find it helps me to make myself be busy when I feel I can manage it.
Yeah doing ok too - just trying to make the most of it :-)
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Post by cheshire on Oct 3, 2005 18:40:11 GMT
Hi
Wondered why every bone in my body ached and why I was checking for lumps and crying alot - I'm on! A relief in a way because it makes sense of feeling rubbish! Lots going on here at the moment, but am coping quite well, because I have to I think. Although I am much less proud of asking for help and more willing just to rest - even if only for 20 mins to refuel..
Less likley to think that resting is a waste of time as seems to be good recovery investment..
Hopefulx
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Post by yoyo on Oct 4, 2005 13:52:35 GMT
I like the idea of resting being a recovery investment - good way of looking at it! I agree as if I rest and feel guilty I don't feel the same benefit as when I rest and enjoy it!
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Post by cheshire on Oct 8, 2005 1:03:18 GMT
Hi and thanks YoYo,
Taking things slowly and resting has worked but didn't when really bad - couldn't lie down and even if I did sleep (rare) made no difference (breathing horrendous). But I could sleep anytime now and it works to some extent!
Things are busy here but not too bad. The BBC woman is VERY NICE and because hubby has family problems at the moment, I have decided to focus on that but I also said that if everyone backed out of the programme I would do it, so I am a reserve apparantly. * Just thought of something I wanted to add here - is anyone from this forum having a visible interview by the way?
If I do it, I would like to print a PNI.ORG Tshirt if Veritee agrees - just to make sure they get the message !
Telling some of older child's parents (only 2 of older child's best friends - they had to help anyway when husband ill) seems to eventually be helping. They have been asking to take older child out and things like that (I have been honest about driving etc.). They certainly don't mind me with their children,...dealing with children and young people is my job actually guys which is probably why I hated being ill with my 2nd BUT I can honestly say that physical symptoms are at bay and I just feel so tired now and know I can't really have a holiday to remedy it- I don't like going away at the moment..But I am a survivor and as Elaine, our dear Patron said to me, I will be (and am already) stronger because of all of this.
Thinking of you Hopefulxx
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Post by cheshire on Oct 8, 2005 11:44:24 GMT
Yesterday everything went smoothly but I just felt so irritated all day and just couldn't settle. What the irritation was about I don't know - the children were as good as gold and hubby v. understanding. Felt a bit like a zombie - who was functioning well, but just not feeling quite as happy as I have been. However, as I say above, got some help today so husband, 2 kids and other friends and parents have gone off to a party for a couple of hours BLISS! But I have got quite a bit to do...looks like we've been burgled here this morning..lol.. I guess the point of writing this is that whilst it is wonderful not feeling anxious all the time, it's not always wonderful feeling like this but I'm guessing that the way I feel now is a natural follow up to extended periods of extreme anxiety ie. slight depression, want to sleep/ stay in bed/ feeling numb/ tearful etc. And I suppose PMS doesn't help hey? But, this is not meant to sound all negative because today I feel better:) Hopefulxx
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Post by yoyo on Oct 9, 2005 11:09:12 GMT
Weird isn't it! How you can feel ok in the head etc but so lousy at the same time. I end up saying to my family / friends that I feel fine (and I mean it) yet then through the conversation I show how wound up/bad stomach/aching bones/bloaty etc etc and they say how come you say you're fine?! LOL
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natalie1985
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Post by natalie1985 on Oct 13, 2005 0:30:18 GMT
Hey Hopeful, How have things been for you? Did you have a good day?? Notice you're up late! After midnight there is it??? Thinking of you! Love and Light, Nat xxx
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Post by cheshire on Oct 13, 2005 0:42:15 GMT
Hiya Nat
Yeah it's late but I'm OK - how are you ? Hope you're feeling a bit better? Reasonable day today, had a day in work this week actually - v. proud i did it but it was hard and I found it tiring. Still, the positives outweighed the negs by a long way. I felt like me again, I was buzzing.
Anyway hunny, great to see you on here - spose I better go to bed now. You have a good day hey and let us know how it goes?
Look after yourself now. Love Hopefulxx
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Post by natalie1985 on Oct 13, 2005 5:28:54 GMT
Hey Hopeful, Yeah feeling better than i was. I had to up my medication, so i can feel a difference already. Well done! What was it like being at work? OK? I'm glad your feeling like yourself again! It's a good feeling when you feel like your old self again hey?? Hope your having a good snooze right now Take care! Love and Light, Natalie xxx
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Post by cheshire on Oct 14, 2005 17:46:24 GMT
Hello
OK day today but just wish B2 would sleep through a bit better! Oh well. What this leads to inevitably is 'snapping' around about now as with the school room there is little time to rest!
Anyway, at least it's Friday and once the evening wears on a bit, I usually pick up.
Hopefulx
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Post by natalie1985 on Oct 15, 2005 0:55:32 GMT
Hey Hopeful, You have your weekend to look forward to now!! Ours just began, it's nearly 11am. I know what you mean by wishing bub would sleep through better!! I can't wait till they hit a stage where they sleep through more regularly! Hope you have a good night, and get some sleep soon It must be pretty late there! Take care! Love and Light, Natalie xxx
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Post by cheshire on Oct 24, 2005 19:44:28 GMT
I actually had quite a good day today – still felt sort of ‘irritated’ in a sort of ‘anxious about the children’ kind of way..but they enjoyed themselves. I wanted to make an extra special effort for my eldest as it is her half term. So this morning we had brekkie and then we did a shopping list for baking our own tea – and then went and bought the stuff. Then it was lunchtime before I knew it and I cooked good stuff for them and we watched their favourite CBeebies and Pingu. Then this afternoon we went out while baby slept in pram and eldest enjoyed choosing a frame for her best picture from school whist I cursed about how shopping aisles are just not wide enough for a pram. Then as a treat visited the Bear factory. We then finished with huge milkshakes and narrowly avoided a parking ticket!! Then we made tea – OOOw what a mess!! But they enjoyed it. I am really tired now but I feel ok with myself for making the effort. Hope there are more days like this on the horizon…
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Post by susanneb1984 on Oct 24, 2005 20:09:24 GMT
Hiya Hunni, Sounds like you had fun. Well Done for missing the ticket, we got one the other day! Great fun, as if I don't have enough to do! lol I know what you mean about the shops, that was half my problem on friday! That and how are you supposed to shop when you need more than a basket full but you've got a pram so can't push a trolley? I'd love to know how you can do that?!
Anyway hunni, I'll stop hyjacking your diary now, and go write my own! lol
Take care xxx
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Post by cheshire on Nov 6, 2005 22:51:15 GMT
Hi
I was doing so well but am now having a 'blip' - or should I say this week I am. Tonight I feel a bit better so hope tomorrow I feel better again. I really thought I would not get that muggy head or breathing thing again - telling my family they'd be better off without me, but I recognise now that this illnes is a bit like that.
Oh well, new day tomorrow and a fresh start.
Hopefulx
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