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Post by cheshire on Nov 12, 2005 22:29:28 GMT
Hi Sarah, Thanks for being so thoughtful....I had a lovely afternoon, as I met a friend unexpectedly and this did turn the day around as I see her infrequently but I like her company and she knows alot about me.. ..terrible morning tho' , and then the phone rang and hubby said 'someone wants to meet up with you' - just what I needed girls . I really did feel down and anxious this morning before the call.. ..we had a lovely long walk (friend and I ) and then some lovely food and a glass. I enjoyed it, but since I have been back, why do the good feelings evaporate so quickly. I am oldish so I know life is like that, but even hubby has said this is the first major set back I have had...I thought I was better..oh well, nearly there hey girls Love, Hopefulx
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moe
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I have seven children, my youngest is two and a half, I have suffered from pnd after every birth.
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Post by moe on Nov 12, 2005 23:26:44 GMT
Hi Hopeful, Thought I´d reply as I really hope you feel better, we all have set backs especially with PNI, I have had many, keep going Hopeful, take a deep breath, be strong (I know its easier said then done) remember what I said, we´ll get there and we will.
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Post by cheshire on Nov 13, 2005 1:18:18 GMT
Thank you Moe, I will take your thoughts and lovely words and hold them, as I would like to sleep.
Thanks Moe. xx
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Post by sarajay28 on Nov 13, 2005 18:43:05 GMT
Hi Hopeful,
Been thinking about you today, how are you? Good i hope? I think you have to think this is your first setback and it'll be your last. Your strong enough not to let this illness beat you. Keep smiling and things will get better.
Loadsa Love
Sarah.xx
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Post by cinders on Nov 14, 2005 10:21:57 GMT
Hiya Hopeful, Just wanted to see how you are and to see if your days are brighter? This too, has been my first real big blip since having this illness and I know how you're feeling. I usually have a couple of days (blips), but then I'm fine, but this time its dragged on for about two weeks and its so draining. How long have you had pni? Did your mum suffer for long? Which part of the country are you in? Hope you dont mind all of the questions? Nosey old bat that I am!!! Anyway, just wanted to say keep going and this will pass for you. I'll be thinking of you....love n hugs Cinders xxx
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Post by cheshire on Nov 14, 2005 11:21:18 GMT
Hi Cinders and SarahJay Thanks for the lovely thoughts..it does help. And I think I am a bit better today, I felt ok when I woke up even which is always a good sign. Cinders, These set backs are so draining hey? But things will improve.. I've had PNI for 15 months and it was at its worst between 6 weeks after the birth and (although I can't remember exactly) about 10/ 11 months. My mum had it quite severely and her symptoms and behaviours were extremely similar to mine - I haven't actually ever asked her how long she had it...must do that. ..so long as she doesn't say 'years' lol. Anyway, I just hope you're feeling ok today - we will get there...one of these days we look back and see that we have left PNI behind Love, Hopefulxx
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Post by sarajay28 on Nov 14, 2005 21:23:38 GMT
Hi Hopeful,
So glad you are feeling better today, i know what you mean about it being a good sign if you wake feeling ok, i find i'm like that too. If only we could stay in bed on the bad days eh? lol.
Hope you've had a good day, keep smiling
Loadsa Love
Sarah.xx
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Post by cheshire on Nov 15, 2005 11:05:52 GMT
Hi Sarah,
Thanks for your thoughts.
Well, I still don't feel that well, so I'm going back to the GP. I've written down symptoms and feelings this time and husband is coming with me.
Don't know what outcomes I want if any ...well, we'll see
xx
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Post by cinders on Nov 15, 2005 12:46:06 GMT
Hiya Hopeful, Just wanted to say that I hope your visit to the Dr goes well. I will be thinking of you...Take care and dont forget we're all here for you....love n hugs Cinders xxx
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Post by cheshire on Nov 15, 2005 15:06:28 GMT
Thanks Cinders,
Well, that was quite a long consultation with the GP..but I'm going to move from psychotherapist to cousellor for the next few months for some extra support through these blips. My GP is also urging me to take citalopram and she basically thinks there is a bit too much to deal with at the moment and that the psychotherapy might not be enough...? I don't know what to do but I will have a think. I have the prescription here if I need it. Has anyone else taken this medication?
I had not seen this GP before about it but she was understanding and emphasised that I was ill - just the same as anyone who was physicaly ill ..and that chemical changes in my brain were affecting my thoughts patterns etc.
I don't want to have this illness, sick of it.
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Post by bam02 on Nov 15, 2005 15:20:17 GMT
Sorry to be behind the times - but I am interested that the G.P was nice to you. Last time I went back in April - mine was scathing and suggested I see marriage guindance and that I should be grateful that my (general health ) was not worse. Even though I have an immune defiency and need life long blood products, i think she meant I could get about without a wheel chair.
I am pleased that you seem to feel she was helpful. I take Cipralex in the same family of meds and it has helped with OCD symptoms and make me more prepared to try things - but I seem to have come a stop with progress or expect too much.
Sorery to go on here. I am pleased you felt better. How are you finding a counsellor and will you have to pay. Waiting lists can be long.?
Bye for now not sure i helped - but at least i am here now.
A-M
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Post by cheshire on Nov 15, 2005 16:15:22 GMT
Thanks AM,
She did say to try not to expect too much and also not to read the leaflet before taking the first one as the list of side effects might put me off? I think the plan is that I stay with the person I've been working with and sort of move from the pschotherapy to more general support, like counselling, she said. I think this does make sense in my mind as some of my specific issues have been dealt with but I still have generalised anxiety and some depression, if you know what I mean.
Thanksxx
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Post by bam02 on Nov 15, 2005 16:25:02 GMT
I think it might be worth a try the tablets as you are going through so much and now moving on a little. Some say the time of recovery can be the hardest because you see what you have missed and you start to care you have missed it.
Other people's attitudes don't help either as they can be similar to my Geoff's in that he says i should be better now and no one makes allowances that you can stumble. or they never realised there was a problem in the fisrt place and just see you back as nearly your old self and make demands on you that are hard to meet.
Take it as a take care of yourself reminder. I am trying too.
A-M
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Post by cheshire on Nov 15, 2005 16:57:25 GMT
I think I will, but my head says no. Partly because Christmas followed by back to work could be hard..we all still believe I am in recovery, as the GP used to come here to see me as I couldn't leave the house..and I think you're right because I have had some good, almost normal days over the last few months..so this blip is irritating me and my brain has started telling me again that I won't better..I've certainly got some feelings back..and I'm no where near as bad as before..small steps hey..we'll get there.
This is so true:
''just see you back as nearly your old self and make demands on you that are hard to meet.''
After the GP, a colleague came round and said 'you look so well'..even my husband says I don't look as bad as I clearly feel, but think he's just being nice.. I think the same has been happening at work too - I seem 'better' to them (''you better now, oh good'') but I want them to know that I'm not as good and neither do I have the same stamina that I used to.
GP also said a couple of other things:
** you aren't always in control of your symptoms, so don't think you can always fix it ** say no if you don't feel up to doing something/ you might annoy people in the short term but it will help you in the long term ** take thing steady
My husband wasn't with me when I was first diagnosed with PNI, so I feel pleased that she has shared this with both of us..it's nothing new except it always helps when you hear it from someoone else hey?
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Post by cinders on Nov 15, 2005 17:17:22 GMT
Hiya Hopeful, Glad you got on ok at the Drs. You certainly sound like you have an understanding Dr, wish they were all like that!! Its also great that you have the support of your hubby. Makes all the difference if you have that. I am taking Citalopram. I will have been on them for two weeks come Friday, so they're still kicking in. I did take them last year though and they seemed to do the trick for me. The side effects arent very nice and you'll probably have a couple of weeks of feeling worse, but then things seem to improve. Its a personal choice if you take the tablets and only you know if you feel you want to take them. When I was first diagnosed I was so anxious and just a mess that I thought the side effects werent too much to worry with as I was feeling so bad anyway. This time I was again prepared for the side effects if only to get myself back to some normality. At least if you take them you can see what the side effects are on the leaflet and reassure yourself that this is normal and is to be expected. Then again, you might not suffer with any of the symptoms...we're all different. Anyway, what ever you decide I hope it works out for you and that you feel the sun shining again!! Take care flower. I'll be thinking of you...love n hugs Cinders xxx
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