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Post by yoyo on Oct 13, 2005 21:37:23 GMT
Today - shattered, not felt so tired in a while - had to nap this arvo, didn't feel guilty about it though :-) Feeling ok ish , not wobbly but just detached from things and pushing self along. Doing alright - have been better but have been much worse.
Will see what tomorrow brings eh?
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Post by cheshire on Oct 13, 2005 21:59:36 GMT
I just tried to reply but it got deleted, so this is a test to see if it happens again
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Post by cheshire on Oct 13, 2005 22:01:55 GMT
That was weird!!
Anyway, YoYo
Hope you're ok tomorrow and I'm hoping the same for myself. Been feeling a bit depressed , but can keep going - prefer this phase to the earlier physical symptoms.
Love, Hopefulxx
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Post by yoyo on Oct 14, 2005 9:51:07 GMT
Sounds like we're both at a veyr similar point in recovery - I find I am OK ish most of the time and sometimes like 'me'. It doesn't take too much to wobble me but at least it takes something now eh?!
Today is pretty goood, I'm actually at work but have gone to docs for test and have to wait 1/2 hr for prescription so thought I'd nip home and catch up on some email and the forum. Slow start today and last night quite down - might be a dip after my period maybe./ Who knows!
Will post later.
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Post by cheshire on Oct 14, 2005 13:41:21 GMT
Hi YoYo
Yes, I think maybe we are and also that some of our symptoms and sequence of symptoms etc. has been similar. Although you are doing brilliantly, as it took me about 12 months to get to where you are now. I s'pose it's always slightly different for each of us hey? I'm back in that phase of wanting deep sleep all the time - except at night of course, and wonder if going back to work this week has made me just that bit more tired/ wobbly. Oh well, catch you later.
Hopefulx
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Post by cheshire on Oct 17, 2005 8:53:40 GMT
Hi YoYo
How's things with you?
Hopefulx
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Post by yoyo on Oct 19, 2005 16:53:56 GMT
Hiya
Sorry - had PC probs due to little one's quick fingers and then things have been manic with one thing or another.
Anyways ... where are we...
I'm definitely doing much etter - I can laugh joke and even 'feel' things emotionally sometimes. I'm not so uptight and even the MIL isn't bothering me too much (and she did even before PNI!) so life is ok at the moment.
Not going ot hold my breath but I think I'm nearly there!!
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Post by bam02 on Oct 19, 2005 20:16:37 GMT
Great to here from you YoYo maybe Veritee can sort out your number of posts etc. she might have a record of it? So pleased to see you again, as I feel we joined near enough the same time with Hopeful and are the three muscateers!!!lol
Bye for now
A-M
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Post by yoyo on Oct 20, 2005 7:17:05 GMT
LOL I like the idea of the 3 muskateers!
Not fussed about number of posts etc - just good to be involved with this forum. You've all been such a help to me in my recovery and I too want to support others where I can do.
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Feeling v v v v tired today but did cram a lot in to yesterday - maybe it's that and I'm also coming down with a cold - nice as well as being on major strong anti-biotics which are wiping me out. Having said all that I actually feel ok in the head, not right but ok. Things are getting there.
Will see how things go!
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Post by cheshire on Oct 20, 2005 14:23:22 GMT
Hi YoYo
Great to hear from you. I still get what feels like being 'unnaturally' tired..but I think I prefer this too anxiety type symptoms. I must admit, getting to sleep is just getting easier again - and hubby has been away quite a lot too and I have been fine.
We'll get there!! Take care Hopefulx
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Post by yoyo on Oct 21, 2005 18:20:41 GMT
WELL ....
... today I feel SOOOOOO good it's unbelieveable!! I have a streaming cold and have had to be at work all day but feel absolutely great and I'm not deluding myself. For the first time since having Jake I have felt like me all day long, I actually feel the I am PNI free today! Maybe this is the beginning of the end?! Who knows. Certainly feels good!
Last night I slept normally rather than really deep as I have for months now and I've not even had PNI lurking and just me managing to rise above it. Ooooo feels good to be back. Also my bloatiness has gone & today I can get in my size 8 clothes - yesterday size 10 / 12!!! bizarrE! Will see how things go.
SOrry to go on but you'll know what I mean when you get tthere too! I've missed me so much!!
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Post by yoyo on Oct 21, 2005 18:21:07 GMT
I'm off out for a meal tonight - but will be back to catch up and help anyone tomorrow.
Take care
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Post by yoyo on Oct 23, 2005 9:34:02 GMT
I appreciate the thought hopeful - don't want you to take this the wrong way, but I don't actually celebrate birthdays, I'm not offended at all, it's sweet of you to notice. In fact I spent the day bunged up with a cold decorating my bedroom! LOL ------------
Well still feeel free of PNI it seems. Will see how things go around my cycle eh?!
I feel weird about the forum now, can't quite understand. I really want to help and support evryone who is still suffering and I know there's a lot of things I now feel I can tell you all and also my family etc but I want to wait a while. I guess it's the wanting to enjoy feeling good again.
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Post by cheshire on Oct 23, 2005 12:51:03 GMT
Hi YoYo
Ooops sorry! How are you today? Don't worry about feeling weird about the forum - just, like you say, give yourself some time to get used to being in your own skin again..
Hoping you have a lovely Sunday!
Sudoko is still in my life - agggh!
Hopefulx
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Post by yoyo on Oct 24, 2005 9:58:21 GMT
Really good thanks. I'm still bunged up with cold but in my head I feel great - that's the main thing! I've been able to hug Jake this last few days and really 'feel' it. It's so lovely to atually experience emotions fully again, although they are a little overwhelming at times as they feel even more intense after all this detachment. This really is a wonderful place to be at. To be relaxed, happy, content and loving life. The old cliche that the trees are greener is true for me. Life seems much brighter than I remember, it's a good thing. I'm more observant, more empathetic, more rounded out (and physcially!) more energetic, less selfish, less demanding, more giving etc.
I think I will stop my diary now. I don't want to make those of you reading this who feel just dreadful any worse. Just want to tell you that the life ahead of you is much better than anything you can imagine! You will get there - I never believed I would especially in the bginning, I almost attempted to do away with myself, my little man and hated life. I just felt so really bad all of the time. The recovery path was very hard - so much yo-yoing around, feeling ok ish then dreadful and I didn't feel I was getting anywhere - little things got me feeling I was back to the proverbial square one. It's all been worth it though!
You WILL be better one day soon :-)
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