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Post by cheshire on Nov 29, 2005 22:20:29 GMT
ha ha ha
LOL
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Post by sarajay28 on Nov 30, 2005 20:48:56 GMT
well today is wednesday and my sister still hasn't had the baby!!! We thought today was going to be the day, she had a show yesterday and her waters have been trickling so she went to get checked at the hospital (20 miles away) and they couldn't see if her waters had broken, they thought it might be her hind waters and her contractions weren't regular so they've sent her home!! So we are all on tenterhooks just waiting for the new arrival. I'm excited about it and its the one thing thats keeping my spirits up at the moment. Am on a bit of downer again and i have been getting period pains today so think i might be due on, i don't seem to have a regular pattern since having the coil fitted so its just a case of wait and see! which is very annoying, at least if i had some kind of pattern then i would know if it definately was that that was making me down. Me and Robbie are also not as happy as we normally are? i don't know if its me or him but we both seem snappy and moody with each other. He's currently at college 3 days a week and this suits me fine as i can cope with being on my own with nathan for 3 days but now he'd decided he 'needs' a job! (what about me??) which i told him i wasn't too keen on as i wasn't sure i could cope now that i'm in the routine of having him at home for the other 4 days and i feel he's really been helping on the days he's not at college. He came home today and told me that he has got a job labouring for his mate for the 2 days a week that he's not at college, its from 7.30am til 5pm. I don't know how i feel, well i do, i'm upset, angry, anxious, panicky and i just want to cry. Its not like we are that desperate for money and i feel that he's just doing it to prove a point. He's always saying that i tell him what to do and he's not allowed to do what he wants. Maybe i am like that and just don't realise it. I think he thinks that now i've been on my meds for a while and my illness is reasonably stable that i'm ok, that i'll cope with whatever's going on. I've already tried explaining that the illness doesn't just go away like that but i'm not sure he understands this although he reads some of the posts and knows that it can go on for months/years. Why does he seem to think that i'm fine now? God i'm jut so fed up of it all, we never seem to be happy for very long, maybe a week or two then something else crops up for us to argue/fall out about. My mum keeps saying that i have to remember that he's still young (21) and all this family stuff is alot to cope with at that age but we've been together for nearly 3 yrs now so surely he must be used to family life by now?? its hard for everyone not just if your young. Maybe i'm too hard on him, but i just think he knew my situation with my ex and all about my family life when he got involved with me and it was him intitally that wanted us to start a family so why should make allowances for him being so young after nearly 3 yrs? I really want to cry now, i feel very confused (again) does he want to be with me and the kids or does he want to be single and 'free'. He's out to see his friend tonight and he'd said he'd wait until the kids were in bed before he went but after putting nathan to bed he said 'i'm gonna go now is that all right' to which i just kinda nodded and away he went but it made me feel like because 'his' child was in bed he could go out now and i would deal with 'my' children. Am i just being daft about this? he's never ever treated them any different so why am i thinking like this? I hate feeling like this. Hope tomorrow we get the news we want (our new baby) and that things will pick up again.
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Post by cheshire on Dec 1, 2005 12:49:47 GMT
Hi sarahjay
Sorry things feel tense between you and Robbie..how are you today? Any baby news yet? Mine were both 42 weeks - aaaaghhhh, no wonder I'm depressed - lol
Anyway, I just hope that today is a bit better for you and that things do pick up
Lots of love Hopefulx
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Post by sarajay28 on Dec 1, 2005 20:18:48 GMT
Well STILL NO BABY!!! my poor sister, i really feel for her. My first was 10 days overdue and it looks like she's going that way too, although this is her 2nd baby. She's been contracting all day and is really tired. We are still on tenterhooks and her poor hubby is getting very tetchy with everyone. I took my neice and Nathan to Mother and Toddlers today, i really didn't want to go but my sis phoned and asked if i would take Chloe and i felt like i couldn't say no. I felt abit anxious when i arrived as i knew everyone would be asking about my sis but it was ok in the end and we all ended up talking about how much our kids control our lives!! lol. I then came home and had to get my neighbour to have Nathan as i had the asthma clinic and no-one to babysit as robbie was at work! Everything was fine at the clinic and i've to go back in 6 months for a review again. I then had to come home to tidy up the tip that was left by us all yesterday/this morning. Robbie did nothing when he came home from college yesterday and the kids were playing up too so i just left it all in the hope that someone other than me would have the sense to clean up!!! (some hope) but no, it was all still here when i came home. I cleaned up then the kids came home from school and made a mess again! (why do i bother?) i've not been too stressed though as they are sleeping at their dads tonight. Things are still going well on that front. Me and Rob are a bit better today, still some tension today as he told me that he's getting paid monthly and he'll be taxed so thats gonna affect our tax credits!! he told me yesterday that the job would only be for a few weeks at the most but today its changed to as long as he wants it!!!
I'm going for a bath now and pamper myself a bit now that the kids have gone. Hope your all good today. xxxx
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Post by cheshire on Dec 1, 2005 20:26:30 GMT
Oh dear Your poor sister - I remember it well. God love her Glad things are a bit better today - oooo, have a lovely bath...... My pampering today consisted of an eyebrow shape (which I missed the other day as I was too busy gassing to Fran on the phone ) Anyway, this hurts so much more since I had B2 - they think it is such a laugh and asked if I'd had my painkillers before my apointment - lol. I look like I've been sobbing when I come out - just eyes watering though!! Do we grow more hair after a baby?..Oh sorry Sarah.. I am going on. Well, I just hope your pampering is a lot less painful than mine. Glad you feel a bit better today, me too Hopefulx
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Post by sarajay28 on Dec 2, 2005 21:03:41 GMT
STILL NO BABY, although she was 4cm dilated at 3pm today so we are hoping it'll all kick off tonight as her contractions have been steadily getting stronger and i phoned at 8pm and she was at the point where she was thinking about wanting some pain relief so she's hopefully going to the hospital tonight and we will have a baby by tomorrow. She also had a membrane sweep today so hopefully that'll get things going. We all feel so helpless as there's nothing anyone can do but wait!! Glad i'm never going through that again!!. Me and Robbie are ok again now, late last night things kicked off big style and i ended up telling him to leave but he said he didn't want to, we eventually went to sleep with things still up in the air although he apologized for not being so supportive these last few weeks. I have done absolutely nothing today, i'm so tired, why does arguing wear you out?? Nathan has been really good today as have the other 2. I had to walk to kirstys swimming lesson at 4pm with Nathan in his pram and cameron refusing to come with us as our car is playing up and i daren't take it in case i couldn't get it started again. It was pouring rain and we all got absolutely soaked, i missed paying my rent as i got there 5 mins late!!! aaarrrgggghhhh. Robbie came home all smiles and saying how good his day had been!at was it for me, i just broke down and went mad at him and told him basically to get out and stay out. I also said he would have to take Nathan with him and that i was going to send Cameron and Kirsty to stay with their dad as i couldn't cope anymore. It must have really freaked him out as he's promised that things are going to change, he's giving up the job and is going to help me more with the kids and the house until i am feeling back to my old self (whenever that might be) He's said sorry for everything he's put me through these last few weeks and he realises he was being selfish and ignorant. He's also promised he won't be drinking too much tonight (its his night out) and that he'll be home at a reasonable time because he wants us to do something as a family this weekend. I'm still not sure what to think as its so easy for a person to say the words then not actually do it, i'm very confused how i feel about him/our future. I can't believe that i'm saying this as last week things were great and i knew how i felt but this week he's really made me feel like i would be better off on my own. Do i really want this? oh i don't know what to think at the moment. I know that if he doesn't keep his promises that i'm willing to be on my own if its gonna make me happier. Rant over, i feel better now that i've got all that out. I still haven't come on but the period pains have subsided for now?! My pampering last night was lovely although i de-fuzzed my bikini line and its as itcy as hell now!!! lol. I also plucked my eyebrows and re-shaped them, it didn't matter if i looked like i'd been crying cos i had been!! lol I then shaved my legs, underarms and put on a cucumber face mask which was horrible and gooey?! don't know if its been in the cupboard too long!! ooops! I always feel much better when i'm de-fuzzed everywhere and my skin has been taken care of (although it not that often) Anyway i'm hoping for a good weekend. Kirsty has a birthday party to go to tomorrow, its on for 4 hours (the girls mum must be off her head)!!! and i'm going into town to get some xmas pressie's. Our toyshop has 'my scene' barbie dolls and stuff all at half price which is just what kirsty wants from santa so am going down to snap some of it up before its all sold out. What have you girls got planned for the weekend? talk to you all soon.xxxx
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Post by cheshire on Dec 2, 2005 22:27:08 GMT
Hi SarahJay,
Oh, are you ok?
I know - arguing is so draining isn't it? I have told my hubby to leave so many times...but he hasn't taken me up on it yet. ..?! You got me thinking actually - we don't argue as bad as we were doing a few months ago -progress maybe? I hope you have a good weekend. I know what it's like to feel so sad that you can't stop crying, so here's a hugx
A s you say, a 4 hour birthday party - OMG, she is mad!! Wow, couldn't do it, I admire this person! I wonder what she has planned?
Anyway, I have nothing planned at all, so like you, might try to grab some bargains.
Hope things get a bit beter for you
Hopefulxx
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Post by sarajay28 on Dec 3, 2005 21:19:36 GMT
Thanks for the hug and message H, it made me feel better.
Anyway Guess what....... our baby arrived at 07.27am this morning, she is called Katie and weighed a massive 9lb 4oz!!! Ouch. We've just been to see her and she is soooo gorgeous, she looks the double of her big sister and she's got the cutest chubby cheeks! lol. We are all just over the moon and things have been soooo good today. I am absolutely knackered though, i didn't sleep a wink last night, i couldn't stop thinking about what my sister was going through! I think because its still so fresh in my mind what i went through with Nathans birth that it made me all the more aware of how she would be feeling. I even had to phone the hospital at 6am because i was pacing the floor by that time! lol. What am i like eh? my sister looks brilliant tonight, she is really glowing and i feel so proud of her. Me and Robbie are so much better now, we had a long talk before he went out and we really got things sorted out, i was actually happy about him going out (progress) and i felt relaxed and content. I woke him up at 8am, i couldn't help myself i just had to tell him about the baby and he was so excited too. We've spent most of the day just lazing about the house/making phone calls etc and its been a really relaxing day. Kirsty had her party and really enjoyed it although the mother looked a bit frazzled when i went to pick her up!! lol, serves her right for having a kids party for 4 hours!! lol. Anyway i'm off to bed now, hopefully i'll sleep soundly tonight, its robbies turn with the night feeds although this past week Nathan has been sleeping til at least 5am. Fingers crossed that this continues. Hoope everyones been enjoying their weekend.
Loadsa Love
Sarah.xxx
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Post by cheshire on Dec 3, 2005 21:45:36 GMT
Hi Sarahjay
Welcome little Katie ..
I'm not surprised you're worn out! My mum was with me this time at home when I gave birth - I don't think she's ever recovered - LOL!!!
Anyway, I'm glad things with Robbie are ok. Have a good sleep Hx
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Post by sarajay28 on Dec 6, 2005 16:40:21 GMT
Hi everyone Haven't been about for a few days, mainly due to the baby being born on Saturday, she's such a sweetie. My sister has been on the phone alot asking for advice!! (nurse/midwife sarah) lol. She's fine really just abit unsure about having a newborn again but you all know what its like eh?! I've been really tired since sat, i think its because now everything is over and we can all relax, we've been on tenterhooks for a few weeks and my mum's been suffering abit since she had an operation in Sept, but she's ok now although has to go back into hospital in the new year. Me getting my wisdom teeth out etc etc, its all over (thank god) but now we all seem to be a bit deflated and i suppose its cos we have no big events to look forward to/dread!! Although i'm sure with xmas creeping up on us we'll soon be busy again. I'm feeling ok just really tired, me and Rob are getting on brilliant again, got that 'loved up' feeling again YAY!!! and he's been really good since we had our talk last week, very understanding and supportive. Bless him, i love him so much. The 2 older kids weren't at school today, Cameron has a rotten cough and was up alot through the night because of it, he looked awful this morning so i decided not to put him to school and kirsty is just skiving!! (i'm terrible aren't i? LOL) i just couldn't be bothered arguing and pushing her out the door in the pouring rain so i gave in and said she could stay off too, i reasoned with myself that its nearly the hols and they aren't doing much work apart from rehersing the school play! LOL. Isn't it funny how you have to reason with yourself that things like this are ok?! or is it just me that does that? They have been good though, although they wouldn't eat the homemade chicken soup as it's not out of a tin?!! LOL i thought i was being good making it but no they want heinz!!! think i went wrong somewhere there eh?? lol Anyway going to have a bowl of homemade chicken soup (haven't tasted it yet? ) so if i'm not on tomorrow you'll know why!!! LOL (only joking)
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Post by cheshire on Dec 6, 2005 22:19:58 GMT
Hi SJ
Wow you really ae good making home made soup! Was it nice? Never made chicken only mushroom..
Glad things are good between you and Robbie.
Take care
Hopefulx
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Post by sarajay28 on Dec 7, 2005 18:57:14 GMT
Hi Hopeful and everyone,
Well today has been another good day, my soup was ok yesterday, its got someting missing but can't work out what?! lol, it'll take a while to perfect but i'll get there. I quite often make soup as its healthy and quick and filling, my fave is 'tattie' soup and the kids like my lentil and rob likes them all!!! It was kirstys class assembly today and all the parents got an invite so i took nathan and it was great, she was the one to introduce the assembly and thank the parents for coming, i was sooo proud of her, she spoke really clearly and quite loud. Nathan thought it was great, he spent the whole time babbling and coo-ing, it was cute. When they started singing he got so excited, it was very amusing. My brother in law is going back to the rigs tomorrow and i'm a bit worried as to how my sister is going to cope with 2 kids now instead of one!!! i'm sure she'll be fine but i'm so aware of how bogged down you can get looking after kids, my mum is still signed off work for a good while yet so at least i know she is just round the corner. Anyway am having an early night tonight, its sooo cold here now, i'm surprised we haven't got any snow yet. It just makes me feel like snuggling up in my warm bed with a hot milky drink watching some trashy chic flick. Hope everyone is ok and not getting too snowed under by all the preparations for xmas!!!
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Post by cheshire on Dec 7, 2005 22:28:30 GMT
Well done Kirsty, you little star performer!xx This year will be my first experience of a Christmas play with my daughter in it - will I cry??!! LOL
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Post by cheshire on Dec 11, 2005 14:05:34 GMT
Hiya SarahJ
How are you? Hope you are ok hunx Are you having a good weekend?
Lots of love Hopefulxx
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Post by sarajay28 on Dec 12, 2005 14:58:50 GMT
Hi everyone,
I haven't been on since last wednesday!! wow, doesn't time fly when your having fun?? lol. I have been christmas shopping (at last) got quite a few bits but still loads to get yet, have been socialising too!! yay, i went out with my neighbour on friday night, we were only supposed to be having a drink in her house but ended up getting drunk and wanting to party!!! lol. We had a really good night and the thought that cameron and kirsty would be at their dads all weekend was a bonus too. lol. Me and Rob went shopping on Sat and then we went and bought our xmas tree (we always have a real tree) and then spent ages decorating it, it looks so cool. I feel like its chrsitmas now?! have been feeling really good for the past week and so has robbie, the kids are always happy and my family are all having a good time too. My new little neice is so beautiful and my sister is managing really well on her own (hubby is away offshore) so thats one less worry.
Well i hope everyone else is good too, hopefully i'll talk to some of you soon, don't know how much i'll be on the next few weeks as my kids have such a busy social life!! LOL they have no end of parties and concerts etc,etc.
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