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Post by Veritee on Feb 26, 2006 17:39:35 GMT
Don't worry Caja and I once had boiled eggs for our Christmas dinner when Barry was away at sea and we both had a tummy bug !! I am sure you will have many traditional family Sunday lunches in the future I am glad Chloe is OK VeriteeXX
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Post by marion on Feb 27, 2006 10:19:24 GMT
Got anxious tummy a bit today. Not really sure why but there never really seems to be a reason. Chloe is still off her food a bit - managed to get some milk into her this morning (half her usual amount) and some banana breakfast. She had some milk at 5am though together with some water so not too worried. Her diarrhoea has cleared up so she's on the mend. Mark isnt working nights this week now - his boss is going to do them instead so I'm very relieved at that as I found it hard to change Chloe's nappy in the night - Mark gave her bottles as I woudl hvae struggled to do that due to being a bit woozy. Not gone to mather and baby group this morning as Chloe's sleep and feeds are all over the place at the mo due to her being unwell. She was a nightmare to get off to sleep for her nap at 9:45 - normally she goes down without too much crying but she screamed for about 15 mins whilst I shhhh';d and rocked her. At one point I raised my voice to her and half shouted at her which I never do but I guess that's natural - screaming babies get to everyone not just to people with PNI. She's just waking up so I'd better go.
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Post by marion on Feb 27, 2006 17:05:06 GMT
Just an add on to earlier - took Chloe to clinic today to get her weighed - she'd lost 3 oz and is now 15lb12oz - this is due to her tummy bug. Hate going to clininc - they've asked me to go there everyweek whilst I'm on medication. 2 weeks ago when I went one health visiter who really looks like she hates her job asked me if there wasa reason why I bought Chloe every week as I didnt really need too - I felt really awkward when I had to say that I'd been told I had to whilst I was on medication. Got my follow up appointment as the hosp tomorrow after last monday when I went as an emergency appointment. Not really looking forward to it. The dr doesnt really understand how I'm feeling and I can tell that all the things he says are just the text book responses to depression. He keeps telling me that having a baby is a big shift in your life and your relationship with your partner goes on the back burner for a bit whilst you focus on your baby - I know!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Now how does that help me day to day with my anxiety and PNI? ?? Everytime I ask hi whether he thinks it could be due to hormones and would it be worth getting a hormone test he just nods and changes the subject and says things like it's early days. Still got the anxious tummy. Had a fairly actvie day round the house - not got appointment till 3pm tomorrow - got to think of things to do in the morning with Chloe - it's not that I get board with her it's just that I feel better when we're occupied.
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Post by cheshire on Feb 27, 2006 18:13:28 GMT
Hi Marion
I too got this response from a nurse:
‘’ He keeps telling me that having a baby is a big shift in your life and your relationship with you partner goes on the back burner for a bit whilst you focus on your baby’’ .....she called it ‘an adjustment problem’…
I think I started a thread here called ‘ I’m annoyed’ afterwards, as you’re right, I knew these facts as I already had one child and yes, it didn’t help at all with day to day anxiety and PNI – I just don’t think they realize it is an illness and is real, irrespective of how you were before having the baby etc...
Just to say I understand your frustration..
Hope tomorrow is ok for you Hopefulxxx
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Post by marion on Feb 28, 2006 18:07:42 GMT
Went to see my dr today and am now really worried. He said he is getting a CPN assigned to me so in they can keep in touch with me or whatever they do. He mentioned the dreaded social services word too - he said that if I relapsed again and needed admitting then he would get me referred to the mother and baby unit and then he mentioned something about social services. Not really sure what he said or in what context and am assuming this is just a last resort if my hubby coldnt look after Chloe but it's still scary when they mention them!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Said to him that I thought a lot of it was to do with my hormones thinking that he might suggest looking into this but he just said that people with depression do find it seems ti get worse just before their periods. Really helpful. Incedentally I still havent come on. Am due round about now but not really sure when as not on the pill. If I dont come on soonthen it's less likely that my bad spell last week was due to pmt and more likely it was a relapse. The dr also mentioned some sort of psycho therapyin the future but said that those referrals take a long time to come through and we would look at that further down the line. Again, really helpful. I did ask him if there was a way of dealing with my condition should I get bad again - was there anythingf practcal I could do to help myself but again he didnt have an answer. What are these dr's payed for? I've got to go back in 6 weeks.
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Post by susanneb1984 on Feb 28, 2006 18:39:08 GMT
Hiya Marion,
Please don't dwell on the social services aspect, worrying will just make you feel worse. I'm sorry your doctor wasn't particularly helpful, I don't find a lot are! But hopefully, working with the site an also doing some stuff of my own, I'll start to get things looked at with a hope for change.
If the psycho therapy referals take a long time, why doesn't he do one now!? Surely that would make more sense than to wait and see IF you get that bad?
I'm having a similar problem with my periods, I was due on on the 16th of Feb, and still no sign, not a niggle or a cramp in sight! I'm sure it will come when it's ready, then we'll be moaning about it coming! lol
Anyway hunni, Take care Susanne xxxx
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Post by marion on Mar 1, 2006 16:02:08 GMT
Not feeling too bad today ..My friend (a colleague who I met through work) came over today with her little girl who is 2 weeks younger than Chloe. She's lovely and we had a good natter before going to the park to feed the ducks. Chloe ate all her dinner too and was really good!!!!! It's day 2 of getting her to nap in her cot in the day - have cut her from 2 naps a day of 30 mins each to 2 naps whcih I'm hoping will be longer so better quality sleep. She had 2 longer naps yesterday and slept really well last night and has had a longer nap thismorning - she's asleep at the mo so we'll see how long it lasts!!!!!! Started period this morning too which was a relief - it just about the same time as last month so I've been fairly regualr. Perhaps my body is starting to regulate itself a bit which wold be a good thing.
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Post by marion on Mar 2, 2006 10:23:44 GMT
Feeling ok again today. I'm still sleeping in the spare room as Mark feels it's very important I get all my sleep which is really kind of him (I also think he likes to get away from my snoring!) so he sorts Chloe when she stirs in the night. He was a wake at 1, 3, and from 6 this morning and he's shattered. I feel really bad but am so grateful for being able to rest properly. Popping out to the shops later to get some bits - got to go on the bus which I dont like. I dont drive (am having lessons at the mo) and I find it very isolating as dont really feel we can go anywhere. Planning to buy a little car as soon as I've passed y test which I hope wont be too much longer so we can get out and about.
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Post by cheshire on Mar 2, 2006 12:29:03 GMT
Hi Marion
Glad you are getting some sleep..my husband did (still does often) the night stuff as I am still not good if sleep deprived...
I found that extra sleep really helped with my recovery.
Take care Hopefulxx
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Post by monica on Mar 3, 2006 11:32:18 GMT
Hello
Your husband sounds so caring! Hope you're feeling better.
Love
Monica
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Post by marion on Mar 3, 2006 11:45:26 GMT
My husband is really great - I know I'm very lucky (although he does have his bad points!!!!!!) Another day of feeling good today - really hope I carry on like this but I'm sure it's just a matter of time till I have a bad patch. Dreading it. Just hope it's not as bad as it was last time. Chloe slept well again last night which is good. Tomorrow night (sat) we're going to get her to sleep in her cot so we will finally regain our bedroom which will be good. Been to baby group this morning - Chloe was so much more independant of me than last time we went (about 2 weeks ago) - she played on her own for ages and took a real interest in the other children who are all a bit older than she is. A coupe of the ladies there said I looked as if I'd lost weight which surprised me. I've not been dieting but have been off my food as I have no appetite. I have been eating 3 meals a day but it's a struggle. Not much on this afternoon. Mark finishes work early on a friday so we'll be off to Sainsburys to do the weekly shop. Getting Chloe used to sitting in the seats in the trollys but she doesnt really like the and I often end up carrying her round instead. We've had a lovely week together - I really feel like I've enjoyed her this week and am really starting to value our time together. This week looking after her has been fun as opposed to the chore (I know that sounds mean) that it has felt like for so long. Was reading the PIL in the box that my anti deptressent came in and it says that you're only supposed to start on the lowest dose (15 mg which I was on up until last week) for a couple of weeks and then up it according to how you're getting on. I was still bad after a couple of weeks and they didnt up it - they kept saying to give it more time!!!! If only they'd upped it ages ago I might have been feeling a lot better for longer! I really hope it is the tablets working and I wont go back to how low I was before.
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Post by marion on Mar 5, 2006 11:45:34 GMT
Feeling alright today considering the weekend I've had..... Saturday morning got woken up at 5:30am by the police banging onthefront door - someone had drove into our car which we have to park on the road with such force that it was knocked down the road. We're waiting to find out if it's a right off so that was stressful. Was therefore completely knackered and felt like a zombie for the whole day yesterday. Chloe learned how to roll from her back to her front as well today which is a bit of a milestone! Got Chloe to sleep in her cot in her own room last night - she slept practically right through. A couple of little grumbles but we didnt go in to her until 7:15am when she was lying there smiling at me. This morning I had a complete disaster. I sat Chloe as usual in her pushchair whilst I warmed through her bottle. I was just testing the temp over the sink when Chloe tumbled out and landed on her head. I know it was completely my fault as, now she's getting more wriggly I should have known better than to sit her in it without strapping her in. I was going to take her up A&E but I phoned NHS direct and they said to just observe her for the next 24hours very closely but she should be fine. She has a huge bruise coming up on her forehead and I feel just awlful. I'm supposed to take her to clinic tomorrow to be weighed - what will they think of me? ? They know about my PND and will probably think I'm an awlful mum and maybe even think I did it to her on purpose which I absolubtly did not!! I feel close to tears and very anxious about tomorrow. Have thought about not going to clinic but she lost weight (3oz due to her bad tummy bug) last week and I wanted to keep an eye on that. Also, they asked me in January to go every week whilst I'm on anti d's and if I dont go and they find out about it from NHS direct what will they think of me. I dont know what to do. My husbad is going to look after Chloe for a bit now whilst I have some 'me' time. I dont feel too bad but I feel I need some escapeism for a little bit.
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Post by marion on Mar 6, 2006 15:48:46 GMT
Just been to clinic - they were fine about Choe's bruise and reminded me again of the risks of leaving her unstrapped in a pushchair. Wont be doing that again. Not too bad today - feel better for having a better nights sleep. Still having to sleep in the spare room as, eventhough Chloe's now in her own room I wake if I hear the slightest sound from her through the monitor and I then cant get back to sleep. The cats also have a tendancy to wake me at about 5 for breadkfast which doesnt help!!!!
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Post by cheshire on Mar 6, 2006 16:33:39 GMT
Hi Marion Glad today's a bit better for you.. By the way, I remember when my daughter was just a few weeks old, I was carrying her in her moses basket and let go of one side - and she fell out!!!! She had a little bruise too ! Anyway, I hope your evening goes well and you get some more good sleep Lots of love HopefulXXX
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Post by marion on Mar 7, 2006 11:53:27 GMT
Not feeling as good today but think it's because I'm really tired. Mark was working late last night and wasnt home till 8pm. I'm also finding that I'm waking up at just before 6am and then cant get back to sleep. Falling asleep at about 9.30 on the sofa though because I'm so tired. Not much to do today. Had to go and have an ECG pad thing fitted to my chest this morning to monitor my heart for 24 hrs. I get bad red spots come up on my arms and legs (had it since last Oct - had it a few years before but they suddenly went). The spots come and go - start bright red and tehn fade to a browny colour before dissapearing. Dont know id it's to do with stress or something totally unrelated but my blook pressure was up and down a lot at the end of last year so they're doing this monitoring thing to see if it shows anything. Gotto go back tomorrow at 9am and have all the pads removed. Dont know what to do today as it's raining loads so dont fancy going for a walk.
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