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Post by sianyc on Jun 5, 2007 14:40:07 GMT
Hope you had a good holiday x
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clarey
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Post by clarey on Jun 26, 2007 20:26:04 GMT
Hi J,
I haven't been on for a while and I've noticed you haven't either. Just wondering how you are?
Take care, Love Clareyxx
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Post by jmontan27 on Jun 30, 2007 19:30:18 GMT
Thanks Clarey. I had a lovely holiday - sunny and hot every day; no rain at all. Can't believe it when I look outside now and hear about all the flooding that's going on everywhere. Other than that, I've been trying to avoid turning my computer on as often as every time I do I look up scary illness sites and frighten myself. My mental health social worker said it was a good idea to limit my time on the internet.
I'm still awaiting cognitive therapy, but the MHSW has been really good, helping me get access to services I never knew existed. There is a children's centre near where I live that runs classes for mothers with children under 5 and I have joined an art project there. It s great because there is a free creche and it gives me some time out from spending all day with Reli. She has also arranged for me to get a free leisure centre pass so I can do a class in the gym and leave Reli in the creche there. I could never have afforded to join the gym under normal circumstances. All in all, I think I am feeling a bit better mentally. I am still getting the twitches, but I am trying not to focus on them.
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Post by helenr on Jun 30, 2007 20:47:13 GMT
Hi hun,
really good to hear from you. Well done for getting out and about, behind you all the way, love and hugs x
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Post by clarey on Jul 3, 2007 20:21:47 GMT
Hi J,
Great news about the art project and the gym. I really hope things continue to go well for you. I still get physical symptoms but, like you, I try not to focus on them and distract myself as much as possible. I don't look up anything on the internet now as far as illnesses are concerned.
Take care, Love Clareyxx
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Post by jmontan27 on Jul 24, 2007 21:43:24 GMT
Have had a bit of a set-back. I've been trying hard to keep off the net, but last week my arm started feeling strange , and 3 days ago it started twitching and has been doing it almost constantly ever since. I am now so worried my anxiety levels are through the roof and I have been googling left, right and centre, which of course has fuelled my anxiety. I am so scared. This isn't normal. All the old thoughts have come back about me dying and leaving my children. I was cuddling Reli today and suddenly had a thought that if I died he wouldn't even remember me and that made me very sad. Just want to be normal.
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Post by sianyc on Jul 25, 2007 11:04:04 GMT
Hi
This is probably a blip lovely. You've done really well the last few weeks and it's hard to just turn off the anxiety.
Keep going x
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Post by jmontan27 on Jul 26, 2007 21:48:15 GMT
Thanks Sianyc. Yesterday was terrible, felt anxious all day and couldn't sleep at night. Just kept looking at my arm and it was thumping away. No one really understands this twitching thing. If I mention it to friends, they look at me as if I'm mad. It's hard to find anyone else that's experienced these symptoms.
This afternoon my MHSW phoned, thank God, as I'd never ring her but she phoned just at the right time when I needed to talk to someone. She calmed me down a bit and tried to make me look at things more logically. She is coming round next week, so hopefully I will be feeling better by then.
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Post by clarey on Jul 28, 2007 11:04:18 GMT
Hi J,
I'm really sorry that you are having a blip at the moment. I know I've said before but I used to experience the strangest sensations in my arms, hands etc. For me it was a numbness that seemed constant. Although I have been having a stange twitching on one side of my nose at the moment. As you know I'm trying to come off the meds at the moment and I keep trying to keep calm about these things it isn't easy though and I can understand how you feel J.
It will pass and you will feel better again. Try not to worry and do things to take you mind off it. I would go for long walks and I would realise that I hadn't thought about whatever physical symptom was bugging me at that time for a little while and that would bring some small comfort.
I had so many different physical sensations like numbness, tingling, twitching, itching, burning etc in areas of my body. You aren't alone J and you will feel better in a few days.
Thinking of you, Love Clareyxxx
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