clarey
Senior Member
Posts: 327
|
Post by clarey on Apr 24, 2007 20:56:56 GMT
Hi Claire,
As you know I haven't been around much recently and I'm so sorry you have had such a tough time recently. Thank you for the pms you sent me. You are such a lovely sweet person to have been concerned about me when you have had all this going on. Thank you.
Thinking of you,
Clareyxx
|
|
|
Post by claire99991 on Apr 25, 2007 14:14:00 GMT
|
|
|
Post by Jay on Apr 25, 2007 19:24:34 GMT
Hi Claire,
I think the NHS are testing you out. BUT ---- Your heart is obviously in good working order!! It is a bit cruel waiting. Do you know when your next apt is?
You are doing so well considering all this. Take care love Jay xx
|
|
|
Post by claire99991 on Apr 25, 2007 21:53:09 GMT
Hiya Jay i dont have a appointment they said i would only be offered one if there was a problem with the results.
Lots of love to you xx
|
|
|
Post by Jay on Apr 25, 2007 22:31:49 GMT
Hi Claire,
I am a bit appaulled that this is what is offered!!! Don't they think about the poor people [ I think we are real people, arn't we???]that wait just incase they decide to ring or write to us.
And there is poor you, going up the wall waiting to see 'IF' they contact you. Sorry I am tired and i am cross with them [and the rest of the world]!!!
I know they did this to my OH, but it affected all the family BLOODY CHEEK THEY SHOULD TRY WAITING FOR A WEEK OR SO LIKE YOU HAVE HAD TO!!!
I shall just get off my loud speaker and soap box!! And tell you how sorry I am that you are having this horrible time
Thinking of you Jay xx
|
|
|
Post by claire99991 on Apr 26, 2007 16:23:02 GMT
well im in a really bad mood we have arranged to go back to lincoln tomorow night to see family and friends so the dog was meant to be going into a kennel tonight at 5.30 only phil has just rang and said he wont finish till after 9pm he is meant to finish at 4.30 its only his 2nd day at his new job and i guess this will be a comman thing, never see each other and this is what i moved for? i dont think so. I canrnt help it but im getting these jelous feelings back like maybe he isnt at work and somehere else its a big part of my depression im so insecure now i never used to be but i hate the fact he is out 8am till 9pm and im stuck in all day, i wanted to get a part time job just a cleaning job or something a couple of hours on a night maybe 6-8 or summat just to get me out but because of this 'great' new job it isnt going to happen i just carnt see my life getting any better or me any happier being alone all day and night now as well. Oh and no news from hospital still.
|
|
|
Post by claire99991 on Apr 26, 2007 20:57:18 GMT
God what a crap day i carnt remember feeling this bad for a while now, i just feel tierd and drowsy very tearful and depressed. Feel like a big black cloud is over my head and everyone is going on at me being positive and chirpy and i just want to hide under my duvet and cry. sorry if i dont reply to anyones posts today i just feel so shitty i dont want to rub it on anyone else
|
|
|
Post by claire99991 on Apr 27, 2007 11:05:27 GMT
well if its possible i feel worse than i did yesterday, just been crying since i woke up and shaking.
|
|
|
Post by sianyc on Apr 27, 2007 11:57:24 GMT
Sorry you're having a bad day lovely
Gary not getting in from work on time was a huge thing for me. I practically counted the seconds until he got in from work and god help him if the traffic was bad let alone anything else.
Would you be against a part time job in the day and getting some childcare or would it not be worth it?
The tediousness of being at home all day with the kids still drives me up the wall sometimes and I work 3 days a week! It does, however, get better and the bad days get further and further apart
Keep on fighting x
|
|
|
Post by claire99991 on Apr 27, 2007 12:51:07 GMT
Part time work in the day might work although it wouldnt be worth the hassle of paying someone to mind hollie and dropping ehr and picking her up for the sake of a couple of hours. We are meant to be going to lincoln tonight providing he gets done on time so have to wait and see i have arranged to go out with a friend tomorow cos i havent seen her in ages! i hope that will cheer me up a bit
|
|
|
Post by claire99991 on Apr 29, 2007 21:26:49 GMT
We went to lincoln and i met my friend on saterday for a drink in town it was really nice to see her. We came home last night and didnt get back to late so just went to bed and today we went to a big sunday market where it was really busy i got scared when we first went in and thought i would have a panic attack and come home but phil regognised i started to get stressed and started making me buy things and it took my mind of it and i got some nice bits as well and had a good time and didnt panic which might not seem like a lot but a copule of months ago i wouldnt even go in a corner shop let alone a extremly busy markret.
Bit sad now because phil is back at work tomorow and ive enjoyed spending time with him and hollie together and now im on my owne again for 5 days with day time tv and hollie to handle by myself. Will see how it goes.
|
|
|
Post by Jay on Apr 30, 2007 9:09:03 GMT
Hi Claire,
I am glad you enjoyed your weekend. And well done at the market. It is an awful feeling when being out can put us into panic mode. I did a bit of a wobble in Tesco's, but I was with OH, so it helped. And at one point he was saying "Now calm down, your alright. Just calm down" When he is like this I don't know whether to be pleased coz he's helping me, or clout him one for talking to me like that! They sometimes can't win!!
You seemed to have some bad days last week, I hope this week goes better. If you need a chat just pm or put a message in my diary. I send you a HUG and my love Jay xx
|
|
|
Post by claire99991 on Apr 30, 2007 22:09:03 GMT
just really tierd today...exhausted infact dont feel sad or happy just spaced out like im not fussed about anything. Want to go get my hair done at the salon but darent incase i have a panic attack half way thru.
Going to bed now
|
|
|
Post by clairecharlie on May 1, 2007 11:08:37 GMT
Hi Claire just read your post i i can see things are difficult for you at the moment.
I know exactly what you mean about being in your own it was like that for me with Paul working away monday to friday week in week out! Til i gave him an ultimatium coz i just couldn't cope anymore after 10 months solid. He's now working for himself, n home every night sometimes even in the afternoon which is lovely!!! Since just before then i have felt like my old self, i'm sure there will be some blips along the way but enjoying it for now!
Being in your own is awful n being solely responsable for a child is daunting but doing all that with pni and having to wait for hospital results too is horrific!!!
Thinking of you n sending you lots of strength to get through
Love n hugs Claire x x x
|
|
|
Post by Jay on May 1, 2007 17:09:50 GMT
Hi Claire
I am hoping that today might have been better for you. You sounded really down last night.
I would think that not hearing from the hospital after this amount of time would put you in the clear. How long has it been? I know you will know how many days and hours it has been!
Are you on antidepressants and meds? You may well have spoken about it in past threads I know.
Well I wish for a better day for you tomorrow. And I send you lots of love Jay xx
|
|