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Post by Jay on Apr 20, 2007 16:38:51 GMT
Starting a new diary today.
Feel I need a new fresh place to start from.
Have not been so good for a few weeks now. And I wish this bl**dy great blip would go away and leave me alone. I am trying to remember to cut time down, and split the day up into sections, to do and get through one part at a time. Use to be good at this, but seem a bit rubbish at the moment. Must try harder!!
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Post by chica on Apr 20, 2007 17:43:06 GMT
Hi Jay, I so know what you mean about trying to segment the day, I used to fail miserably too, especially when I was at my worst. I used to find that I would have to try and survive one minute at a time never mind segments. So good look with your time management. Seeing must try harder has just reminded me of a lot of my school reports . Believe you me that was a long time ago. Hope this evening gets better for you. Chica
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Post by winegirl on Apr 20, 2007 19:48:42 GMT
Hi Jay,
I also still segment my day up when I am at home. I really find it makes things a bit more bearable sometimes. How are you feeling now?
We are here if you need to talk.
Winegirl x
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Post by Jay on Apr 20, 2007 21:41:18 GMT
Hi Winegirl,
When you said 'when I am at home', it rang a bell with me. Is it just 'when we are at home ALONE', that it is so bad? I really don't know what has happened to me. I use to keep busy, and do lots of things, and go out. And now I am doing nothing. I am lucky if I have a wash some days. I just about manage my work days, then I don't know how to get home. I am then knackered, and finished. How do I get going again?
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Post by sianyc on Apr 21, 2007 6:28:56 GMT
Hi Jay
It will get better lovely. I promise that there will be days when you do feel like you want to get out and don't have to try to segment the days.
I used to have to force myself out and would arrange to meet a friend with kids so that I wouldn't have all day on my own. The only problem with that is that I would cancel so often as I just couldn't face the hassle of getting ready
I started slowly, small walks around the block, short trip to the local shops, food shopping and a wander around the clothes in Asda, library. I've built this up to 4 hour trips out to the big park 8 miles away. I take them on the train cos it takes longer than the car and they love it.
It has taken ages for me to get comfortable with this, but the exercise and the fact that I'm not in all day has helped loads
If I am going to be in all day, I try to cook to pass some time and also have an extensive collection of disney dvd's!
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Post by winegirl on Apr 21, 2007 7:22:15 GMT
Hi Jay
I still struggle with getting out. I am a mess all day at work and so crave for the weekend but then when it comes and I am at home alone all day with little one I just cant seem to get out. Might make a short trip to the local shop but get all panicy and feel ill. But the good news is that I do do it. A few months ago I wouldn't have even entertained the idea!
Its just all really small steps. And I know that one day soon I will just get up in the morning and want to go out with my little one. Of course it's quite difficult with babies, because really where do you take them? But even a short walk is better than nothing.
Things will get better mate, I think it just takes more time than we would have liked. I am off today and already breaking my day into half hour segments! Plan to take little one for a walk to the co-op after her lunch (oh the excitement)!
How are you feeling this morning? I do hope your day goes ok today. x
Winegirl x
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Post by claire99991 on Apr 21, 2007 10:24:36 GMT
Hi jay i think you are doing really well to get to work! somedays i wont leave the house or open the curtains ill sit in my nighty all day and leave hollie in her pj's it takes all my energy just to change her nappy.
I also used to break the day up and whenever hollie slept i would try to just to make it go faster but on a weekend when my partner is here its so differnt and im more relaxed i hate being by myself i carnt cope with anything.
Im sorry im going into a rant lol. Im sorry i carnt help you move forward but im sure you will be able to in time.
How are you today love claire x
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Post by chica on Apr 21, 2007 14:46:58 GMT
Hi Jay, How are you doing today? Hope you are managing to have a better weekend. Chica
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Post by Jay on Apr 21, 2007 15:33:25 GMT
Felt like hell when I first woke up, and I got so worried by it and the thought of how to manage the day, so I started the day with diazepam, before I even got out of bed. Then got all tearful on OH. Good start to the day for him to.
Wish I could think what to do about everything. Can't make decisions about anything.
Thank you all for your posts.
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Post by Jay on Apr 22, 2007 18:25:15 GMT
Have felt a bit better today!!!!!! I had begun to think I would never get a better day again. Did not get much done, but who cares.
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Post by joannem on Apr 22, 2007 21:00:39 GMT
Hi Jay So glad you have had a good day! Who cares what you didnt get done!! Just to feel better is fantastic! Good on ya! Big hugs Jo xx
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Post by clairecharlie on Apr 22, 2007 21:56:49 GMT
Hi Jay
Hope tomorrow is a better day too!!!!
lots of love n a huge hug Claire x x x x x
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Post by Jay on Apr 23, 2007 19:10:35 GMT
I send my thanks to you, for your kind words and for keeping me going.
I could not live without you at the moment.
A not so good day today, but made better by YOU!
thank you
Jay xx
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Post by Jay on Apr 24, 2007 21:41:41 GMT
Yesterday was a day in the mud at the bottom of the deep dark pit.
OH talked to me a lot about how upset I was. I could not sort out at all, and after a lot of tears and dispair, I did come back to getting going again.
Today was better and a relief. Thanks again to my supportive friends here, who encourage and help me.
Jay xx
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Post by sianyc on Apr 25, 2007 9:38:39 GMT
How are you today lovely?
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