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Post by Jay on May 2, 2007 16:35:20 GMT
I am tired and tearful today. And don't know quite what to do with myself. Will probably drink too much tonight, in hopes it takes away all the stress and mess of it all.
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Post by claire99991 on May 2, 2007 17:06:32 GMT
Hi hun sorry your not having a good day wish there was more i could do for you if you fancy a chat later pm me and ill give you my email or msn or sumthing if you like.
Take care sweetie xx
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Post by sadmum39 on May 2, 2007 17:25:50 GMT
Hello my lovely friend - I've just Pm you and then read this. I am sorry you have been feeling so crappy. I am glad you feel the antid doing their job (a little). lots of love and luck to you SMxxx
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Post by caterina on May 2, 2007 20:08:18 GMT
Hi Jay Sorry you're having a bad time today. Thinking of you xx
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Post by winegirl on May 2, 2007 20:21:40 GMT
Hi Jay
How are you feeling now? I often turn to the wine when it's all really bad, and I don't think the odd drink will do much harm. Are you feeling any better this evening? Thinking of you x
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Post by clairecharlie on May 2, 2007 21:14:22 GMT
Jay
I'm always here n always caring!!!
Keep going!!!!
Loads of love hugs n strength to cope Claire x x x x
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Post by claire99991 on May 3, 2007 18:54:05 GMT
Hey jay we should start something that we do 1 thing thats out of out 'comfort zone' every week and try to achieve it what you think?
xxx
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Post by Jay on May 3, 2007 21:27:00 GMT
Hi
I think we should try anything to help ourselves. I will start a tread tomorrow, I am sure others will join in too.
You asked about my hospital apt. It is to sort out my change of antidepressants. I know lots of people here do this all the time, and seem ok. But I have this real fear that I won't survive it.
I was on Dosulepin before PNI/PTSD [But I did not take anything while pregnant]. But 6 months after the birth when I had been having loads of problems since the birth trauma, I got put back on them. They are ones which I take at night as they are sedating, and I needed to be able to sleep [well to be unconcious almost] to stop the flashbacks and nightmares. So I got started on 75mg, which worked for me and I use to reduce the dose in the summer down to 50mg and 25mg. Then back up to 75mg again in the winter. I did this for quite a few years, until my Oh got cancer, then my Dad died and my Mum got really poorly.
I am now on 200mg dose. And last year during counselling which re-triggered my PTSD, I went up to the top dose of 225mg. And even that last year did not stop the week long sessions of flashbacks which were with me day and night. Also these meds affect my heart sometimes, and I sometimes have to reduce them when the pains and palpitations get too much.
My gp says I have to gradually cut down, until I am off my present meds, then be off them for a while, then start some new ones. When I asked how I will survive while doing this and if the new ones would sleepme ,he says "EVENTUALLY". Because I would not go with this, as I find 'eventually' to be not very satisfactory, and I have no idea how I would manage with a reduced dose. I am due in a couple of weeks time to go to the hospital to see what they say.
And I will admit I am petrified.
I can manage at the moment as long as nothing different or stressful comes along.
Sorry If am being a nuisance, to everyone at the moment. I may need your help when this med change happens.
Sorry and thanks Jay xx
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Post by claire99991 on May 3, 2007 22:40:59 GMT
Hi thnaks for explaning hospital appointment and you arent a nuisance at all you have come here for the same reason all of us have to get help and some support from people who know how you feel, i know there is loads of people on here that think alot of you myself included your very popular Im so sorry you have had such a tough time i feel guilty for writing about my problems when there is people who need help more than me. Im also sorry i dont know much about medication as i have refused to take any so i dont know what its like all i can say is that you will get thru it and it might get a little worse before it gets better but we will get you thru it and you will be happy again! I can relate to your heart pains/palputaions so much even without meds i have a crushing feeling in my chest and palputaions it scares the shit out of me and im convinced im dieing so i know how you feel on that score and i wouldnt wish it on anyone. Im sorry if what i write isnt much help to you i really wish i could help you more but im always here for a chat and thinking about you lots! claire xxx
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Post by claire99991 on May 3, 2007 22:41:28 GMT
OH AND STOP SAYING SORRY WOMAN!
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Post by Jay on May 4, 2007 15:27:30 GMT
Excuse me Claire 99991, But in your post you said SORRY to me 3 times!!!! and you must never feel guilty about whos problems are worse than anyone elses. You have just had a hell of a time, with operations and worry, PNI, Moving house, and loads more. And yes we are all there to help and support each other, and what I say is Thank goodness for that!!!! It is saving my sanity. I can't understand why yesterday while full of diazepam I freaked out in our shopping centre, and today I managed Tesco's with no diazepam. Is there any logic to it? I will just say sorry for saying sorry, Love from Jay xx
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Post by claire99991 on May 4, 2007 18:16:46 GMT
ok ooops thats me well and truly told
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Post by helenr on May 4, 2007 20:15:17 GMT
Hi Jay,
just catching up. How are you feeling now hun?
love and hugs x
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Post by winegirl on May 5, 2007 9:44:46 GMT
Hi Jay
I would go out of the house sometimes on Diazepam and freak out and other times without it be fine! I think the whole panic thing is very random. I have tried to break down triggers for m y panics but they really are so random and generally over nothing. I like to think of it as `general anxiety'.
Bizzarre I know
Hope you are enjoying your bank holiday weekend and having a good one today?
Take Care
Winegirl x
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Post by claire99991 on May 5, 2007 19:33:05 GMT
Hiya Jay how are you? having a good weekend i hope!
xxclairexx
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