Post by geri84 on Apr 28, 2007 20:21:15 GMT
Well where to begin,
when i was 4 months pregnant last year, my 92 year old granny died after suffering from alzheimers for 4 years, then 3 days after we cremated her my ex's mum died that was totally out of the blue linn was only 44, i was looking after ex cause he was loking after his 2 brothers the youngest being 14 now, it was a hard time.
Having SPD didnt help either, i had a terrible time, i asked to be induced because i was in agony & couldnt go on being pregnant much longer, then i was in hospital for 4 days being induced, i was knackered by the time i gave birth.
I always thought that i would be one of those mums that didnt have PND, i had to stop breastfeeding when mitch was 7 weeks old, because i was told i couldnt leave the house for a week because of my stitches & i lost a lot of blood. It was getting to me being stuck in the house all the time.
I think it doesnt help that i only know my ex's family here, i left all my friends behind when i moved back to nottingham to be with my ex. i've tried mother & baby groups but felt pushed out, like i was an alien.
I miss the adult conversations, i miss being ME not mitchy's mummy, there have been times where i dont want him in the same room as me, but i still feed & change him etc, i dont neglect him, but then there is days where i cant bear him to be away from me,i know it sounds awfull but i cant help feeling that way, i know its the pnd.
Me & the ex are supposed to be taking things slowly starting again, but we had a massive row yesterday because i wanted a weekend to ME without him near me or mitchy, and because i said that to him he went of on one, saying the relationship is to damamged to save, he knows how worked up i get when mitchy is ill.
anywho i am rambling
when i was 4 months pregnant last year, my 92 year old granny died after suffering from alzheimers for 4 years, then 3 days after we cremated her my ex's mum died that was totally out of the blue linn was only 44, i was looking after ex cause he was loking after his 2 brothers the youngest being 14 now, it was a hard time.
Having SPD didnt help either, i had a terrible time, i asked to be induced because i was in agony & couldnt go on being pregnant much longer, then i was in hospital for 4 days being induced, i was knackered by the time i gave birth.
I always thought that i would be one of those mums that didnt have PND, i had to stop breastfeeding when mitch was 7 weeks old, because i was told i couldnt leave the house for a week because of my stitches & i lost a lot of blood. It was getting to me being stuck in the house all the time.
I think it doesnt help that i only know my ex's family here, i left all my friends behind when i moved back to nottingham to be with my ex. i've tried mother & baby groups but felt pushed out, like i was an alien.
I miss the adult conversations, i miss being ME not mitchy's mummy, there have been times where i dont want him in the same room as me, but i still feed & change him etc, i dont neglect him, but then there is days where i cant bear him to be away from me,i know it sounds awfull but i cant help feeling that way, i know its the pnd.
Me & the ex are supposed to be taking things slowly starting again, but we had a massive row yesterday because i wanted a weekend to ME without him near me or mitchy, and because i said that to him he went of on one, saying the relationship is to damamged to save, he knows how worked up i get when mitchy is ill.
anywho i am rambling