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Post by babybumble on Jul 15, 2007 16:07:57 GMT
oh gosh.....im really crindging being around my hubby.he aint ugly or anything but i just cant stansd the thought of him kissing me or touching me its driving me insane.....
no-one who knows bout the ectopic is acknowledging it...and im feeling al alone on it.....i know it wasnt planned but it was still apart if me.....and im gutted to know that he/she will never be here....
to top things off ,,,,suppose to b going centreparcs at wkened but with inlaws things aint really improved since me & dh got bk togeatha and they suspect it wasnt there grandchild i lost........and i just cant bear the idea sitting with them at any stage of wkend........im fuming im really considering lettin them go alone........
just need a huge hug......and a cry......and yet i seem i cant cry-madness
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Post by cazfletcher on Jul 15, 2007 16:30:21 GMT
here for you if you need me hun x
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Post by sianyc on Jul 17, 2007 9:48:42 GMT
Hey Babybumble
B****ks to the in-laws. Don't let them spoil your weekend....you can always go off to the spa on your own. Will they say anything to you or just be 'off' all weekend? Would your OH talk to them before you go and tell them straight to start playing nice or risk a row with him? They must know deep down to get over the fact you split temporarily and let you both get on with your private life privately.
Make them babysit while you're there and go with OH for a meal/spa/drinks
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Post by babybumble on Jul 17, 2007 10:28:52 GMT
hi duck...well they literally still wanna wrap him up inb cotten wool...
im going to go.....and just do what i wanna do with the kids they will have to fit in with me......if they dont then thats better...lol...
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Post by babybumble on Jul 17, 2007 10:32:33 GMT
well..............yday had a huge row with DH didnt or dont know what i want where i wanna be whats best for me - i know the kids would love a happy home...but if im not happy then thats imposs eh?....
i feel soooo crap.....i wish i knew if i loved him i just feel empty and cold...but is that coz im unwell......or not i just dont know and its eating me up!! ..
thomas had parents eveing yday and i felt soo guilty coz if we split he would not go there again.....as i wud move away......as we live nr his family at min..
its all so mental oooohhh i wish at this point i was 17 and had no kids or commitments..grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr.....(then again maybe not) but u get me drift eh?
and now its raining ....................AGAIN
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Post by sianyc on Jul 17, 2007 10:41:49 GMT
My guess is that it's the PNI lovely. Not that it's any consolation, but it seems to be one of the common themes. Me and G muddled on through it, rowing a bit and as it turns out both considering leaving at different points along the way.
We've turned a corner now and I'm glad we stuck it out cos I can actually look at him now and fancy him again.
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Post by babybumble on Jul 17, 2007 10:47:46 GMT
wow brill news...glad u managed to get thru it....heres hoping we do...but its very testing on both parts......he tells me he loves me soo much ...and i dont feel it or feel i love him ..pni is a wicked illness.....think im going up my pills...
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Post by cheshire on Jul 19, 2007 8:49:26 GMT
Hi babybumble
Just wondered how you were today?
Hx
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Post by chica on Jul 19, 2007 11:02:17 GMT
Hi Babybumle,
Just wanted to let you know, that my hubby was always telling me he loved me too, I would reply the same, but did not really feel it, it was just an automatic response, but now my PNI is so much better (still have some bad moments) I can honestly reply to him again now with true feelings again. I guess what I am trying to say is that for me the PNI took all emotions and feelings away from me (well all the good ones). Not sure if this will help you, but dont rule out that it is the PNI.
Sending you love and hugs for brighter days ahead.
Chica
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