larsbars
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Post by larsbars on Mar 12, 2008 22:50:40 GMT
i thought I would start my own diary to let off a bit of steam from time to time. I have been struggling over the last couple of days. I was doing really well after upping my tablets and I think I have nailed my bad spells down to the dreaded hormones but the only thing I can link my mood to at the moment is possibly that I am ovulationg and therefore on my way towards having a period. At the moment it looks like I will only feel well for 1 week of the month...great eh! My two little ones have been ill so I have been more stressed as they have been quite demanding. It seems to be the thoughts that are getting to me. I keep thinking 'what is the point and why I am trying to feel ok when I don't'. As soon as I forget and start to feel a little bit better I suddenly remeber them again and I can't be bothered to do anything. it's like my brain won't swithch off from it and while I don't particularly feel physically anxious my head does.
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Post by sianyc on Mar 13, 2008 13:03:39 GMT
Hi Lara
If it's any consolation at all, I could pinpoint blips to ovulation and then PMT. This did then decrease to PMT - just worse than ever before. It's now down to 2 days or so where I'm not a great mood and sometimes very down/teary. It has been improved by evening primrose capsules, vitamin b and agnus castus and getting better all the time.
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larsbars
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Post by larsbars on Mar 13, 2008 16:10:07 GMT
Hi sianyc...thanks for your mail. It's good to know that if this is predominantly hormonal that it could subside. I did used to suffer with PMT before I had kids but just a little bit of anxiety and maybe feeling a bit tearful but nothing that interfered with my life. You've given me a bit of hope. I am looking into trying some herbal remedies as suggested by my doctor. I just need to get to the health food shop!
Today I have felt a lot better. I woke up this morning thinking 'Oh no not another day of anxiety. I just want to lay here in bed all day' I did lay for a while. Daisy was asleep and Jamie was happy playing on the floor next to me. I managed to get myself into that lovely relaxed state where you are just kind of dozing (this is definitely a pre children state!). I then got up in a better frame of mind and not because I was being screamed at. I won't say that I haven't had my stressful moments today but I haven't had the constant nagging thoughts going through my head. I guess that's what they mean when they say you have got out of bed the wrong side. I got out the same side as usual but in a better frame of mind. I've just had a couple of friends over this afternoon who have not long gone. My two were knackered so have both gone off for a sleep at the same time. That's a rarity! I'm enjoying the silence....it's lovely.....I've had a headache for the last 4 days. It's just behind one eye and I'm beginning to suspect it is a type of migraine ( not the type I usually get).
Enough nagging. I'm off to do something constructive with my precious free time!
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Post by winegirl on Mar 13, 2008 21:45:37 GMT
Hi Lara
Hope you managed to get a nice long nap out of the kids this afternoon?
Glad you have been feeling better today babes. Having a better frame of mid really does help the anxiety. I hope tomorrow is good for you too!!
Take Care
WG x
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Post by sianyc on Mar 14, 2008 8:33:23 GMT
Glad you had a good day - it gives you a bit of strength back doesn't it?!
The more I think about it, the more I'm sure my PNI was due to hormonal imbalance. It didn't start until after I finished breastfeeding and although part of it was sometimes depression and anxiety, the biggest feature was uncontrollable mood swings.
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larsbars
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Post by larsbars on Mar 16, 2008 18:06:33 GMT
Hi All,
Been having a good few days. Today I feel a bit dodgy but I haven't really eaten much and feel hungry but I thibk it is down to low blood sugar. I'm supposed to be going to bingo tonight so fingers crossed i will wil the big one. Thanks everyone for your replies. It is really nice that someone is interested to read what I have written and even nicer to know that you have the time and inclination to reply. I find it quite theraputic being able to post on other peoples' threads. It's nice to know you can give something back!
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Post by winegirl on Mar 16, 2008 20:24:14 GMT
Hi Hun
Best of luck at bingo tonight! I have always wanted to go! They have one of those Gala ones near here and I would LOVE to give it a try. Hope you get some prizes tonight babes x
WG x
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Post by sianyc on Mar 17, 2008 13:45:03 GMT
Win anything?
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larsbars
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Post by larsbars on Mar 17, 2008 16:11:30 GMT
No!!!! I won nothing at bingo. The bloke on the table next to me won 3 times!!! Never mind....it won't stop me going as I'm a bit of a gambler!
WG you should definitely go to bingo. Gala is good because you win some good money (if you win). It's very addictive though but makes a good girlie night out!
I have been to toddlersw this morning and then on to the soft play centre with a friend. We had a good catch up which was nice but I have felt a bit anxious today and have the thought wirring around in my head but I have just tried to ignore them. Loads of people have had babies recently and it's making me all broody. I would love another one because I've always wanted 3 or 4. Part of me thinks sod it I should go for it and another part is worried because of how bad I did feel (although I am still struggling sometimes) but it's still a dilema. I wouldn't really want to try until July time though so got plenty of time to worry about it then.
LO's are asleep now so getting in my PC time instead of in the evening when I'm knackered. Going to get some much needed jobs done in a minute and hopefully prepare dinner with a bit of peace and quiet (who am I kidding)!!
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larsbars
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Post by larsbars on Mar 17, 2008 16:13:59 GMT
By the way....I notice that I am a full member now. How does it work. Is it how many posts you make or how long you have been a member. Just wondered how it works? x
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Post by cheshire on Mar 17, 2008 17:19:18 GMT
Hi Lara,
It's number of posts - I think it automatically changes each time you reach a certain number of posts xx
Love, Hopefulxx
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Post by katiev on Mar 17, 2008 18:48:49 GMT
Hi Lara, Thanks so much for writing in my diary. It makes me feel so much more visible when people respond to me on here. And it is great when I get to reply to other people, I just find that in the evenings all i can think of is getting to bed mostly. It sounds like you have a beautiful attitude towards all this, a very admirable and honest one and still find the energy to make jokes! Hope youve had a good day today, Im just off to drink a huge glass of wine katiev xx
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larsbars
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Post by larsbars on Mar 17, 2008 21:07:04 GMT
Thanks for your message Katie. That's really sweet of you. I think I need humour to get through the day sometimes. As the saying goes you ' you either laugh or you cry' and try not to be too serious about things (easier said than done). It works sometimes though!!
I've been having a pretty crappy evening. I have felt dodgy all day but have managed to stave off most of the thoughts and feelings but they are starting to get a bit of a grip at the moment. I hope it's becuase of my period! I'll guess I'll soon find out.
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Post by winegirl on Mar 17, 2008 21:10:02 GMT
Hi Lara
Hoep your period is over soon hun so you can return to some normality! Certainly sounds hormone related!
I hope your evening picks up fpr you hun and tomorrow is back on track for you xx
Take Care
WG x
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larsbars
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Post by larsbars on Mar 17, 2008 21:34:57 GMT
Hi WG,
I haven't actually come on. I've got PCOS and have irregular periods. Have just recently started taking Metformin and my last cycle was 33 days so 28 days for me is on wed and I am hoping that I will come on shortly after that. I'm off to Brighton for the night on Thursday so just my luck I will come on!!
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