larsbars
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Post by larsbars on Aug 11, 2009 19:42:28 GMT
THanks Hopeful/bean/nicola.
My therapist has done a bit of anxiety work with me but last time I saw her she said if I needed to see her again she would do some CBT with me ut I haven't been back. I pay for her privately so can't go too much and I have been coping ok. I went and bought myself a book yesterday about coping with stress, anxiety and depression. Can't remember who it is written by but one is called Janet and the other Jane. I so want to read the whole book now but with 2 LO's it's proving difficult. I managed 20 mins last night in bed til my eyes were literally closing and then 20 mins at soft play today but was almost dropping off to sleep so couldn't cencentrate. I have a banging head so not sure if I will manage any more later. It's v. interesting though.
I have felt a bit better the last couple of days. The constant conscious anxiety seems to have worn off a bit (it's probably mor to do with the fact that I have forgotten what I was worrying about in the first place)!
Here's hoping for a good day tomorrow x
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Post by larsbars on Aug 12, 2009 16:04:10 GMT
I am ovulating today. I was feeling ok this morning ok by the time we had to leave the house I was a bit snappy. Took the kids to soft play this morning and then took the to the park outside. It's weird because I felt a bit of a loner. Anyway...went to Asda to some shopping and bought us all a sandwich to have in the car. I was eating mine and went off into a daydream and had a bit of the dread feeling. I then remembered that I was ovulating and thought that maybe I was a bit hormonal. Went home and dropped off shopping and went st4raight to my friend's house so that the kids could play. We had a nice chat and she also had PND after her 3rd was born so we had a bit to chat about there. I have just felt a bit edgy this afternoon. I am home now but kind of don't want to stop because my thoughts are going a bit. I can feel little rushes of adrenalin and I don't know whether it is physical from ovulation or whether because I know I am ovulating it's an excuse to feel like this. I kind of feel a bit manic like I could clean the house from top to bottom (mini fight or flight I think). The two days before that I felt absolutely drained. Yesterday I had to sleep because I was so knackered but had had plenty of sleep. I think I have becom a bit depressed lately. OH asked me if I was ok over the past couple of days because I have been quiet. Told him I was fine and that he hadn't done anything wrong. Mind you I did have a banging head yesterday which could have been a precursor to ovulation maybe. I don't know. All I know is that I now feel tight chested and it's doing my head in.
Read a bit more of the book last night and am now a bout one fifth of the way through. I would really like to finish it before I go to the homoeopath so that I can go armed with a bit of knowledge and maybe ask him a feww questions.
Best go now cos have to make that oh so terrible decision about what to do for dinner.
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Post by larsbars on Aug 13, 2009 22:09:40 GMT
In the end for dinner yesterday I did ham, egg and chips. I forgot that I had already decided to this as I has bought some ham off the deli counter and it had today's date on plus I had a load of eggs to use up so perfect really and easy. OH actually said he really enjoyed too.
Read some more book yesterday and found that reading it was making me panicky. I don't really know why. It was talking about all of the neurotransmitters in the brain and how they affect depression and anxiety. It also talked about being tested using a urine sample for serotonin or another hormone. That way the doc can determine whether you need SSRI or SNRI tabs. Also about testing progesterone levels which is another thing that I will look in to. It all fascinated me but I found it a but hard to read. Maybe I was just feeling a bit too fragile yesterday. I am going to contact the homoeopath sooner rather than later I think and see if he can help with these tests.
Today I slept in til 9.30. The kids managed to amuse themselves for 2 1/2 hours just playing and watching tele. I had felt so shit yesterday and the couple of days before that I had felt low and have been finding it hard to get up in the morning. I just want to sleep. We got ready and I met my friend and we took the kids for a walk to the park and then went back to hers for lunch. Got home at 4.30 and got the paddling pool out for kids and then actually sat in the sun for half an hour and flicked through the new Next catalogue which was waiting on the doorstep for me when I got home. I have felt surpringly ok today. This evening I have done a load of ironing and I now have relly low dragging paing in my stomach like period pains but obviously to do with ovulation. I can't believe how one day I can feel so crap and then the next I feel fine.
Anyway....am off the have a shower now and then bed. I feel tired and want to read a bit more of the book.
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Post by nicola1712 on Aug 14, 2009 19:46:07 GMT
Mmm ham egg and chips - we haven't had that for AGES - might do that tomorrow now cos we have a load of ham that needs using! Plus LO can have it too - bonus!
Hope you are feeling better today - maybe take the book slowly but surely if it is panicking you a bit?
And yeah ovulating for me is like a mini period too - all the hormones and cramps as well - like haveing two a month - it sucks.
xx
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Post by larsbars on Aug 21, 2009 20:48:36 GMT
I've had a fairly ok few days...nothing too horrendous to cope with.
I went to see the Homoeopath on Thursday which was quite interesting. He did a full case history and then recommended that I have an EIS scan. After reading my book I was intrested in having my neurotransmitters tested and he said that this could do it. I had to sit at a computer with my feet and hands on metal pads and two electrodes on my head. Somehow this machine can scan all of your organs and and give readings for various levels of things in your body. It came up with the following:-
My dopamine and noradrenaline were ok but my serotonin, although in the normal range, was quite low. He said that the only reason it was there was because the tablets were holding up the level I am on the highest dose of Citalopram so it's obviously not working well enough for me. Anyway....because the setotonin are synthetic it is causing my adrenaline system to go into overdrive which will be causing stress and not depression. There was also something else that below normal and he said that this would mean that I could feel ok one minute and the next minute b on the floor (basically be knackered). He said that my hormone levels were ok and my water levels were a bit low (no surprise as I never drink enough). Well he has me down to a tee. I wouldn't say I feel particularly depressed I just seem to suffer with anxiety. I also can feel as right as rain in the morning and by the afternoon I can't keep my eyes open adn this is quite frightening because the urge to sleep is so great. Ihave to come home and have a sleep. The report printed out some diet tips which will help my metabolism. They are specific to me so anyone else reading need not worry about what they are eating. I have to avoid smoked foods, sausages, bacon, bananas, jam, honey, pineapple , walnuts, hazlenuts, cheese and ham (I'm buggered for sandwiches) and many more. The things which are particularly beneficial are runner beans, artichokes, aubergines, probiotic yoghurts, apricots, plums (OH pleased with this one) and some more. Basically I should eat anything that isn't on the bad list but try to include the good foods as well. He said that I should go away and play with the nutrition for a month and then when I go back he will do some accupuncture and try some homoeopathis remedies. He feels confident that he can help me as he has done a lot of work in this area before. If he does help me and I can finally come off anti depressants (after 18 years) I will be amazed. I know it's not gonna happen over night and will include lifestyle changes that will have to stay with me for life but I'm up for the challenge. I will keep you all updated on how I am getting on.
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Post by winegirl on Aug 22, 2009 8:28:49 GMT
WOW! I have never heard of an EIS scan, but now I really really want one!
Seretonin had alot to answer for and was definately my problem when it came to anxiety. I am amazed he picked all that up! I will now be going to google EIS scan as it sounds soooo inetersting!
Hope sticking to the nutrition plan works..keep us updaed??
WG x
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Post by nicola1712 on Aug 22, 2009 19:03:04 GMT
Yeah me too - sounds really accurate and interesting! Lots of nice food to cut out though, but you are still left with yummy stuff so not all bad.
Hope it goes ok and keep us updated!
xxx
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Post by sianyc on Aug 24, 2009 9:20:27 GMT
The homeopath sounds AMAZING.
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Post by winegirl on Aug 24, 2009 10:47:52 GMT
I googled the EIS scan and came across some stuff for it and some stuff saying it was a load of tosh. But it has really intrigued me now! If you dont mind me asking, how much was it to go and get scanned? I kind of want to do it out of curiosity!
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Post by larsbars on Aug 26, 2009 14:56:11 GMT
Hi WG, Do you know....while I was actually having the scan I did think to myself...what if this is all a big rip off. The guy could just be full of shit and I am paying money for this. The only thing that I thought was that this was a proper clinic with other people practising and a receptionist so it seems quite kosher. My SIL took my niece to the same guy because the docs couldn't get rid of her warts on her hands. He got rid of them over a year but they never came back again so I guess I have that to remember. I did thinl that maybe I should look up method of scanning but kind of didn't and wanted to put my faith in the guy I guess. I must admit that I don't quite understand how it can read levels of specific substances etc but the results did make sense. Maybe he just programmed it that way. The next step will be accupuncture and homoeopathic medicine which I know works so I guess I'll take it from there. His website is www.rosedaleclinic.co.uk and it gives you all of the info and prices. Hope this helps x
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Post by winegirl on Aug 26, 2009 17:45:40 GMT
Thanks mate - I really am VERY interested. I know it probably isnt what a training psych nurse should be like that, but I am very interested in all alternative therpaies, and from first hand experience am a big believer in reflexology.
Thank you for the link will check it out xx
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