larsbars
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Post by larsbars on Apr 5, 2008 16:50:28 GMT
Hi Little lottie,
Try not to worry too much about your nightmare. I have them sometimes and it's not always the content of the dream that bothers me. I have had horrendous ones before and woke up and not thought much about them then I can have a mild one where maybe I'm being followed by someone in the dark. Nothing bad happens but then I wake u with the most awful feeling. Strange. I guess if you hadn't had the nightmare then you would be feeling ok today. It could though have been your sub-conscience worrying about your partner going to the football today. Were you worried about that at all?? Does he work locally to you usually and is London further away than he would have usually been. I get like that. If I know OH is going to be far away from me and maybe drunk so that I get him back easily it sets me on edge..not all of the time though.
Take care and let us know how the rest of your day is.
xx
ps. our team lost today. We got beat 3-0 so my OH isn't as happy as yours is!
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Post by larsbars on Apr 6, 2008 21:46:55 GMT
Ignore the post above as I posted in the wrong diary...what a numbnuts!
Not really much to report today. Woke up with ANOTHER headache. It's getting a bit boring now!
OH and LO's played out in the snow and I spectated and took photos. Had a shower then all of my family came over for drink. When they went had someluncha dn then fell asleep with Jamie. OH fell asleep with Daisy. OH then made dinner then we got LO's to bed. I feel sick now cos of this headache! I'm going to go to the Osteopath and see if he can sort the headaches out. He sorted my migraines last time and I swear by him for everything. If it doesn't work then I guess it's off to the docs for some pills! More pills!!
I don't think I feel so low now and feel a bit calmer. When I'm back to full health hopefully I will be a lot better. Mind you...by then...I will probably be due another period!! God I'm so miserable tonight!
Anyway best go as I'm tired and my bed is calling.
Hope you all have a good week.
xx
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Post by larsbars on Apr 8, 2008 15:49:51 GMT
Hi All,
Where do I start. Yesterday I woke up and for the first time I didn't have a headache yay..! I felt quite upbeat cos didn't feel like poo but as the day progresses I started to feel a bit on edge. I went to tots in the morning then on to soft play in the afternnon, came on here for half hour then got tea ready then got the kids to bed then did a ton of ironing. Afterwards I sat and watched telly for a couple of hours. Nothing very uplifting but enjoyed relaxing. My OH got in from work and was all excited that I was feeling better from the cold. He kept saying that we could have a bit of nookie tonght. To be honest I wasn't really in the mood and now I felt better I wanted to get some of the jobs done that I hadn't while I was ill. Basically I wanted some space and to do what I wanted to do. He kept saying to me 'oh don't say no just say you'll think about it' Just to shut him up I said yeah I'll think about it. He didn't let up all night and it was starting to wind me up. He fell asleep on the sofa and when I went up to bed (feeling anxious) I woke him up and he came up too. We laid down and I just closed my eyes and he said 'thanks for the shag'. Perfect end to a shitty night! This morning I woke up to Jamie crying at about 5.30. I have given him water in his bottle instead of milk in the night to get hime out of the habit of waking for milk. He kept crying and crying and I had woken with the mother of all headaches. Rod went and got him some milk and he calmed down but my head was pounding. I was feeling all edgy and panicky and like everything was caving in on me again. I got up and went to the loo and took some painkillers. Got bak in bed but my head just got worse. In the end I took one of my migraine tablets as I guessed that was what it was. It started ti die off enough for me to cpe with the kids and other half went to work. So I have had a really crap day thinking all of the 'what is the point of all of this' and just wanting to and curl up all day in bed and sleep. Both kids have been really demanding today and not necessarily naughty but as soon as I sit down to rest abit one of them wants a drink or food or ther nappy changed or has made a mess or just wants to climb all over me. They were both crying in the kitchen earlier and I got really pissed off because I wanted everyone to leave me alone so I just told them to get lost and walked away. I wanted to say something much stronger but bit my tongue. OH came home for lunch so I gave hime what for about the night before and he apologised. He just told me that I should have told hime to sod off! I put Jamie down for asleep and he had about an hour and just when I got Daisy to sleep Jamie woke up. I decided to come on the computer and put jamie in his highchair cos he pulls all of the earth out of the plantpot in the study. Everything I gave hime to do he threw on the floor and just whinged and whinged. I ignored him and then hestarted sticking his fingers down his throat and gagging. I kept telling him to stop it and when I gave him attention he did stop. I did it once more and made himself sick. He had just had milk so it was like cottage cheese everywhere. I understand clearing up mess when they have an accident but now a 1 year old is doing it on purpose. The little buggar! OH is due home soon so I have text him to get some milk and me a magazine. I will put the dinner on but when he gets in I am going to get him to dish it up and then I am off to have a bath and pamper myself. I need a pedicure! and to relax.
I'm glad I got that off of my chest. Apart from that I feel fine!!
xx
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Post by winegirl on Apr 8, 2008 17:41:09 GMT
Hi Lara
Oh god what a day!? I don;t know where to start! Well done for cleaning the puke up. Its something i cant deal with!
I hope you get that relaxing bath tonight hun and your evening is better than your day? You poor thing x
Thinking of you x
WG x
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Post by larsbars on Apr 8, 2008 18:22:31 GMT
Hi All,
I have a question and didn't know where to put it. When you go into a topic ie. personal diary, you have a list of subjets ie. Lara's Diary. On the left of the subject column there are the two small columns with icons in. What do the icons mean. Also how do you bookmark a page?
Thx
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Post by winegirl on Apr 8, 2008 19:57:31 GMT
I think that the column on the far left specifies whether the thread is a file of posts (i.e diary, regular thread etc.) or a mod anouncement etc, and the second column in just says whether it is a normal thread or a sticky or something??
As for bookmarking, errrm, such a technophobe never found out! But will def find out for you!! x
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Post by larsbars on Apr 8, 2008 20:24:04 GMT
Hi WG,
I did find out about the book marking. It's at the top of the page next to the page number. I can do these things when I actually look!!
OH came home with milk and magazine. I hadn't got round to starting dinner as he got home a bit earlier than usual. He said we should get a takeaway and I agreed. We sat down in the lounge and he asked when I was going to get it. Cheeky sod!! He said he didn't want to go out again cos he'd just got in from work and I did feel sorry for him so I relented and said I'd go. I have to admit I went out with manky tracksuit bottoms on, a manky sweatshirt and hair that hasn't been washed since sunday morning (I'm an every day girl when poss.) I did feel like shit and there wasn't a time when I'd have been seen dead out like that but the lure of the chinese was too strong. I just didn't want to look anyone in the eye.
Anyway...I have chilled out a bit now. By the time we had dinner and got the LO's sorted I didn't want to miss enders so didn't have a bath. I love Bianca and I'm surprised she didn't lump Ricky for saying that she did a bad job at being a mother but it was hilarious and has certainly spiced things up a bit. Just been watching Gok Wan as well on how to look good naked. I can't believe the woman on there thought she had a disgusting body. I wouldn't have minded it and she looked stunning at the end. Anyway I'm rabbiting now. I hop tomorrow will be a better one now that I'm a bit rested.
xx
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Post by larsbars on Apr 10, 2008 20:21:43 GMT
I'm back. I had to get new virus software so couldn't really use the net yesterday. I missed you all!!!
Managed to get out of bed in the end yesterday! I decided that I would take trip into town as I needed to get a few bits. By the time I leave the house it's time for lunch so we ate out in BHS (first port of call). Daisy decided to leave her drink upside down in the pushchair and it leaked everywhere. It was all in my bag which was underneath and her coat and bum were soaked. I had to take her to the toilets and dry her trousers under the hand dryer. She then had to sit on her jacket becauswe the seat was wet which meant she had to go round town in t-shirt. It wasn't too cold but I did get looks!! Still feeling shitty with sinus related pains and down in myself.
I woke up this morning and struggled again to get up out of bed. I managed to get myself and the two LO's ready in 40 mins (must be a record). We went to the baby clinic to get weighed, then to PC World to get virus software, which, if I consented to being in a promotional video, I got free so that was my bit of good luck for the day. We had lunch out (again) and then popped to Matalan. Popped home for half hour then off to see a friend who I haven't seen in about 15 years. We got chatting on Facebook and she only lives up the road from me. I was looking forward to it but on the way there I suddenly thought 'why am I doing this? what if we don't have anything to talk about!' As it happens we chatted non stop about the old times and I didn't leave there til late. When I got home OH wasn't home yet...phew...the house looked like a shit hole (excuse the language) Because I had rushed out this morning my bedroom floor was covered in nappies, nappy sacks, clothes toys and hair paraphinalia. Daisy bedroom floor was covered in her toys and she had pulled her bed out?? The bathroom sink was full of hair where I had trimmed my fringe and the study down stairs was covered in earth where Jamie has pulled it out of the plant. I have been in such a rush all day I felt the easiest thing to do was go and shut the door and then it was ok. Luckily though I got 10 mins to fly round before OH got home. He wouldn't moan but I know I would have got comments and that would have wound me up more! I have been really really crap today. I just feel so low. Part of me feels like I am going to come on but I'm no-where due. Alteratively it could be this bug?? thing that I have got or maybe it's neither. Who knows.
Anyway..I'm off to read some other threads cos I need cheering up.
x
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Post by winegirl on Apr 12, 2008 11:54:30 GMT
Hi Lara
Are you feeling any better today hun??
Your bedroom floor sounds like how mine looks at the moment. My LO has dragged everything out of her room and dumped it in mine!
Your bug is probably dragging you down a bit babes - always a trigger for blip city.
I hope you are feeling a bit more relxed today??
WG x
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Post by larsbars on Apr 12, 2008 21:38:55 GMT
Hello...
Yesterday was a good day for me. For some reason I didn't particularly feel anxious. The thoughts did cross my mind but managed to just brush them off. I did a lot of jobs at home then the LO's had a sleep. Went food shopping late afternoon. We went to our local social club for a drink woth some friends in the evening and it was nice to get and have an adult conversation. Kids came as well but so did M+FIL so they they looked after the kids most of the night. Had a couple of drinks for the first time in a while which led to OH finally getting his bit of nookie! I was really knackered and due to the sex drought (according to him) and the alcohol it was over in no time! He was very apologetic and felt like a failure (bless him) but I told him I didn't think he was. I was actually bloody relieved because I was knackered and he was satisfied so it was a good end to the night!!
Today has been ok too. We went to bed about 12.30. Kids also fell asleep between 10 and 11 but they woke with a vengeance at 6. That is far earlier than normal. We tried our hardest to just lay in bed and get 10 minutes more sleep but to no avail. They were pulling everything out of the drawers then jumping all over OH so we relented and got up! Just did a few jobs and tidied up then went to football. We were really looking forward to it because we haven't spent much time together recently. I wish we hadn't bothered. For all of you footie fans out there...we are Reading supporters and we got beaten when we should have won. It wouldn't have been so bad if the team were trying 100% but they looked like they didn't care. Never mind!!
Not sure what we have planned for tomorrow but we are off to Newport on Thurs. for a couple of nights so looking forward to that.
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Post by larsbars on Apr 14, 2008 19:04:03 GMT
Hi All, Yesterday was quite a good day for me in terms of A&D. The weather was very April showers here and I wanted to take Daisy to feed the ducks but was all a bit hit and miss so didn't go in the end. I wanted OH to get the kids up on Sat morn so that I could wake up naturally. We had a late night and then his brother turned up to do some work for us so that went out of the window. I went to bed late on sat night so wanted to try for a lie in again but got woken by LO's jumping all over me. OH did eventually get up and take them downstairs but kept disturbing me. First he wanted to know if I wanted a cup of tea, then bought the tea up and disturbed me, then came up a bit later saying it was 10.30. Then I heard him at the bottom of the stairs telling Daisy to shout up to me 'Get up mummy you lazy cow' so she shouted 'get up mummy lazytown' it was quite funny but I just thought in my head F*** O** to other half. I just wanted to wake up in my own time. I don't ask for much. When I did eventually get up it wat 10.30 so must have only been 9.30 when he told me it was 9.30. That really pissed me off. So for the rest of the day everything I wanted to do I couldn't because LO's have been whinging and moaning and OH was just annoying. I ended up feeling really stressed out. No bad thoughts or depression just the usual that every mother probably gets. Got LO's in bed then went to bed to do crosswords and told OH I needed some space. I had a good sleep last night. Went to toddlers this morning and was in a good mood. Then went to my sisters which is in the next town and I've only just started doing it again recently as it makes me a bit edgy still. Managed that alright and managed to keep my mind on the right track. The kids were screaming and shouting all day. They weren't playing up just enjoying themselvesw but still stressful. Got home and OH is just annoying me. Everything he says and does just pi**es me off at the moment. I feel like I am due on although I KNOW that I am ovulating today so hopefully that is it. I went into Jamie's room earlier and got that dread feeling of how I felt before when everything was getting on top of me. I think that is a warning to calm down and rest a bit so I will try that! Apart from that not much else has happened. Just gonna have my din dins and watch enders. xx
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Post by winegirl on Apr 14, 2008 19:29:54 GMT
Hi Lara My DH does that too. The only lie in i get is on a sunday morning as he doesnt have to leave for work till 10am. So he will get up at 07.00 with LO while i try to have a lie in then an hour later he is in the room with cup of tea and LO to jump all over me! Maybe he just doesnt get the concept of a lie in! Hope you enjoyed enders love. I know sean slater is a baddie but i still would... WG x
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Post by larsbars on Apr 14, 2008 20:24:10 GMT
Oh yeah me too I was discussing him with a friend on Fri night and she said the same. I don't think there are many women that wouldn't at the moment!! Probably a night with him would sort a lot of us girlies out on here!! Had my pizza. I was feeling a bit shaky cos hadn't eaten since 12. I was feeling really edgy and even started to feel a bit panicky too. Every time OH said something to me I would get all agitated. After enders I told him that I was feeling stressed and panicky and basically had my last 2 days worth of stress out with him. He asked me how many times I had actually asked him to get up and take the kids away so that I could have a lie in and I said none. He told me that I bottle everything up too much and I should have it out with him. He is right. I have learnt to tell him to naff when needs be but sometimes I shut up and put up with things until i break. Still don't feel the best and am worrying about the dread feeling from earlier because it brought all the old feelings back again but am trying not to dwell on it too much and look forward. Hope it is ovulation and will subside in a couple of days.
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Post by winegirl on Apr 14, 2008 20:27:18 GMT
Certainly sounds like hormones are playing with you here mate. You have just raised a very good point to me too, i have never actually asked for a lie in!! Guess i thought he should just know! (he knows i do like my sleep!)
Give it a few more days to let your wobbly pass hun, we will be here for you in the meantime xx
WG x
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Post by larsbars on Apr 14, 2008 21:38:57 GMT
Thanks WG.
I know what you mean about not asking. I just think they should be psychic. It's the least they could do for all of the shit we go through. I mean...can't they take a hint...oh sorry no I forgot...they can't unless it is spelt out to them!!
LOL x
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