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Post by justme31 on Jun 16, 2009 15:19:57 GMT
Just wanted to leave u a message to c how u r doing..... c u havent posted for a while....a good sign i hope that things r good with u? Hope u r ok claire xx
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Post by cokey on Jun 17, 2009 19:31:18 GMT
Hi Claire
Yep I'm fine, guess thats why I havent been on. Was just sitting on computer and it dawned on me I havent been on in a while. Having said that I have had a shit week with Paul and on Monday made a decision to ask him to change or leave. I felt very strong for once. He said he would change and so far so good.
How are you doing?
How is everyone else?
Cokey xx
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Post by winegirl on Jun 18, 2009 10:36:37 GMT
Hey Cokey
Good to hear you are being so strong! Bet you couldnt imagined this a year ago?
We will still be here if you want to come back and talk about anything!
WG x
p.s. I have finished that book and will post it back to you this week. Finished it weeks ago just forgot to send it back! THank you xx
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Post by justme31 on Jun 28, 2009 16:32:04 GMT
Hi Cokey am so glad that u r doing so well. I hope things r going ok with u and ya OH and good on ya for being strong.......... i wana take a leaf out of ya book and be like that lol mind i dont live with him no more so thats a start!! i dunno about u but sometimes i wonder if my OH is making this illness last longer with the way he carries on!! Speak soon and take care Claire xx
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Post by cheshire on Jun 29, 2009 21:20:55 GMT
Hi Cokey,
Good to be assertive, has to be done. Getting better! x
Thinking of you x
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Post by winegirl on Jul 8, 2009 16:01:26 GMT
Got the book and the card in the post - THANK YOU xx So lovely..
Made me realise also I still have your book! Sorry, I truly am losing my marbles - will get it in post to you this weekend x
How are you doing anyway hun??
Love
WG xx
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Post by cokey on Jul 10, 2009 18:31:53 GMT
Hi WG
Please please dont worry about the book, once read it will stay dusty in any cupboard. So no rush, you have enough to organise. Just bring it when we meet up sometime hopefully soon - will talk to becka about that...
I am good thanks. I hate saying that because I am scared that will bring on a blip but I am good at the moment. I still get anxious but I cope with that, nothing like a blip though. Fingers crossed.
Hope you are okay, was worried about you today.
Cokey xx
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Post by winegirl on Jul 11, 2009 7:00:44 GMT
Hi Hun
Sorry to have worried you. I need to keep my anger inside and stop letting it out on mush book! (I have found it a great place to vent).
Yes, spoke to Becka about meeting up - great idea! We should def organise that x
Glad you are doing good (go and touch some wood..lol). Hope it means you can have a nice weekend. You are doing brill Cokey, I am confident that you are pretty much free from blip city xx
Have a great weekend x
WG (())
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Post by cokey on Jul 20, 2009 12:16:28 GMT
Hi Ladies
I'm back sadly. I am not too bad with the moods etc but now I have a physical illness and its making me so upset. I don't know if its health anxiety but I have had bloating, stomach ache, back ache, leg ache for weeks now and its gotten to the point where it just won't go. I have been to the GP who gave me anti-spasmodic drugs (for IBS) but they havent worked. I naturally googled and I have all the symptoms of ovarian cancer. This time though I don't believe its in my mind, there is a real possibility I have it. I go back today and I presume they will run tests. I am just so tearful because I just got to a happy stage in my life and now I am petrified I am going to leave my two kids. I am so distraught and am crying as I type this. I just feel something is wrong. Has anyone on here had IBS start at a late age? I know IBS symptoms mirror those of ovarian cancer but this pain is constant (other than when I sleep).
Cokey xx
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Post by winegirl on Jul 20, 2009 15:30:19 GMT
Hey Hun,
I am so sorry you have been going through this. I am confident that if the doctor thought it was serious he/she would have let you know.
I suffered IBS for a long time with PNI, and had all the symptoms you describe, along with nausea and other things. So try to keep an open mind at the moment.
How did it go at the doocs today? Do you feel any better for your appointment?
You are going NOWHERE mate. Try to rationalise with yourself.
Let us know how you are when you reas this??
Love
WG xxxxx
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Post by larsbars on Jul 20, 2009 20:45:52 GMT
Hi Cokey,
Sorry you are feeling so crap.
I have suffered with IBS since I first had anxiety which also coincides with when I had Salmonella. I have never had it confirmed but it flares up from time to time and I get most of the symptoms that you describe. It can be quite debilitating for some people though and last for a long while so keep this in mind. Is everything ok with OH at the moment as I know you had a bit of a rough spell. Could this be causing you to stress sub-consciously?
However, I am a great believer that you know your own body and know when things aren't right. If you feel really strongly that this could e ovarian cancer ask you doc to send you for an ultrasound. At least that will put your mind at rest but remember that it could just be IBS so it's not worth worrying about til you know. It's not going to achieve anything.
How did you get on today x
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Post by tabbysmum on Jul 20, 2009 22:14:26 GMT
Hi Cokey,
I really do sympathise, i've been going through the ovarian cancer thing for a few weeks but was too scared to tell anyone, it was then replaced by some neurological condition and I forgot all about the cancer worry as I was too busy being distracted by that, and like you couldn't stop crying and was worried sick about what would happen to my family without me, I really did believe that this time it wasn't in my head and then my harm anxiety started again and I forgot all about my health worries. It's no use telling you not you worry - you will. I agree with WG, I think they pick up on these things very quickly and your doctor doesn't seem overly concerned. Everyone on here told me to go and see my gp for reassurance but I was too scared so you've done better than me! Please please go back and tell your gp your fears - do as I say not as I do! Also your anxiety will now be making your symptons magnified which will terrify you even more and the cycle goes on.
Let us know how you get on.
Take care
L x
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Post by winegirl on Jul 21, 2009 13:55:30 GMT
Drop us a line when you read this mate let us know how you are??
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Post by cokey on Jul 22, 2009 8:40:26 GMT
Hi Ladies
Sorry I didnt come back sooner but I have been feeling a bit sorry for myself and have spent a lot of time doing nothing really.
Paul made me go back to the GP and came with me and he was brilliant. He just told him about my worries and that reassurance alone would not help me. So I went for a CA125 blood test yesterday. The GP was a bit patronising and said he felt confident it wasnt ovarian cancer as he could not feel any masses, my age wasnt high risk and also I didnt have all the symptoms. My problem (and anyone's who has any health anxiety) is that we know GPs get it wrong sometimes). He sent me for the test for reassurance and I go back next week. He says I have pulled my back which has coincided with IBS. I am not sure about that but I still wake up every morning with stomach cramps and even get them in the night and my back is so sore by the end of the day I need to sit down and can't do much. Its getting me down a bit because I am not used to feeling physically rubbish.
Lydia, go to the GP if you are worried and never worry about telling us your fears on here. That crying through worry and stuff is too much to bear on your own. You know we understand and you always listen to me.
I still don't understand why I have IBS now which is a worry because I never had it when I was bad with PNI and right now in my life, I have felt better than I have. Paul and I are getting on well and everything is good. I havent felt any more stressed than usual. When I have had stomach upsets before with anxiety and I did, I had the runs too and I haven't this time, not even constipation anymore (although thats how it started). Ho hum - guess I will have to wait for blood test results and then trust in the GP.
Thanks again for listening. I just needed to vent somewhere because it was affecting Paul in the end and he has been very worried about it all.
Cokey xx
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Post by winegirl on Jul 26, 2009 9:55:21 GMT
Hi Cokey
I always say, even if you think it is health anxiety, to go to your gp's. I dont see the point in us sitting stressing about things when these people get paid to test us and reassure us. We have all paid our taxes!
When will you get the results? Do you feel more reassured from what the doctor said?
WG xx
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