vicky
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Post by vicky on Apr 27, 2008 19:15:47 GMT
I sympathise and still feel all of the things you have said. I suppose I so want to be well and not let anyone down that I appear to everyone to be fully recovered and most of the time thats true. I can tough still feel very low though very quickly and my panic and anxiety when it happens makes me worse and very lonely. I talk to my psychotherapist about it and she encourages me that it just takes time and patience!
I feel like a bad mother sometimes too ad can be very hard of myself and take the simple temper tantrums of a two year old to be a personal attack that shows how I ahve damaged my beautiful daughter and also a sign of how much she hates me. At other times though I am a very confident and happy mum.
I did start to come of lithium last summer but after a very bad few months where I tried so hard to come off it I had to go back on it again. It makes you put on weight and bloat so somebody always assumes I am expecting a baby every week...not exactly good for my confidence! And opens up a very difficult conversation about future babies!
So basically what I am tring to say is you are so not alone. PP is a horrific illness and takes some years to fully recover so be kind to youself and we should get through it.
It's so much easier to give advice than take it!
Vcky
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lindy
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Post by lindy on Apr 28, 2008 20:18:40 GMT
thanks for that guys u making me feel a bit better!! I came off my meds so quickly the first time round i had this relapse but second time round i staid on the olanzipine and antidepressants much longer but was desperate to come off them as they made me gain two stone in weight which i still have not lost!! I'm like u vicky one minute i feel i am completely recovered and the next i think shit i'm gonna end up in hospital again. I know that life is loads better but i still to this day worry about the day ahead and think of ways to keep my self busy!! with a nearly four year old and two year old u wouldn't think i have time on my hands but it can still seem like a long day. I know i'm a stronger,better and morew understanding person than i was before i had this illness but the old fears creap in sometimes.
Thank you so much for letting me know that these feeliings are normal and probably to be expected
Lindy
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