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Post by bean on Oct 21, 2009 19:05:07 GMT
Hi Shell Just wanted to say hi and see how you're doing. Noticed you havent been on for a while, havent seen you on f/b either. Great going on the self harm, that is a big achievement. Let us know how you are if you get a mo hun. Thinking of you & sending big hugs always bean x
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michelle79
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Post by michelle79 on Oct 22, 2009 14:49:10 GMT
Hi Not been too good this past week - been in a & e for self harm twice in past week. Been so emotional because I thought things were moving forward with Jack and waiting for a date for the contact centre and found out on friday that we havent been referred because apparently I havent agreed. So been on to solicitor but still no joy. Why is this happening to me. I want to see Jack so mucha nd noone is letting it happen. I was hoping to have contact by his birthday which is 2 weeks today but not going to now. Two years I havent been allowed to see him for his birthday. I really feel like giving up - how much more can one person take? Shell xxx
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Post by winegirl on Oct 22, 2009 19:23:50 GMT
I am so sorry Shell that you have been in a bad place again. And I totally see why you feel the way you do. But from what I see the only reason for all this hold up is some daft error on behalf of some solicitor. This does not mean things are not going to happen, just that its going to be a wee bit longer. I know thats still not great, but at least it is still gonna happen soon!
I am so sorry for the week you have had. You know we are here for you if you need us Shell x
Take Care
WG xx
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Post by monica on Oct 27, 2009 22:45:11 GMT
Oh Sweetheart- this much be unbelievably difficult for you but as WG said it does sound like an administrative cock up that can be put right. And as frustrating as it must be for you if you don't see Jack on his bday there will be more in the future.
You can do it shell - hang on in therexx Dont' forget we are here fo ryou
Love
Monica
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michelle79
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mummy to Jack born 2004 and had pni since his birth
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Post by michelle79 on Oct 28, 2009 14:21:15 GMT
Yayyyyyyyyyy
I am seeing Jack on saturday. I am so excited and cant wait. Woohoo!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Just had to share!!!!!!
Shell xxx
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Post by stevensmummy on Oct 28, 2009 14:25:51 GMT
Hi Shell,
I hope you dont mind me posting in your diary. I have a friend who is struggling with s/h just now and I have been having a look at some other diarys in this section. I have read thro some of your posts and i just want to say how very brave you are. It must be so hard for you not getting to see your wee boy. But I am so pleased for you that you can now see him on Sat.
Have a lovely time and enjoy being with him, you deserve it
Sarah x
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Post by winegirl on Oct 28, 2009 17:02:19 GMT
YYYIIIIIIIPPPPPPPPEEEEEEEE!!!!!!!! I am so pleased for you hun. I will be thinking of you on Saturday and hope you guys have a great time! Big hugs from me (()) Much Love WG xx
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Post by monica on Oct 28, 2009 19:01:16 GMT
Hi
That's amazing - enjoy your special day - hey take some photos!
love
Monica
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Post by stevensmummy on Oct 30, 2009 21:26:51 GMT
Have a wonderful day 2moro xx
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Post by winegirl on Oct 31, 2009 10:14:43 GMT
Thinking of you today hun - hope you guys have a fab time xx
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Post by bean on Nov 2, 2009 10:25:40 GMT
Hey Shell How did your day with Jack go? Sorry only just catching up on here. You are doing fab mate, keep fighting the fight - you will win in the end. Lots luv and a big fat hug from me xxxx
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michelle79
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mummy to Jack born 2004 and had pni since his birth
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Post by michelle79 on Nov 25, 2009 23:12:04 GMT
Hi all
Sorry to write so late. Things with Jack ok but finding it hard with him. I dont know what to do with him and he remembers that all I have been is poorly. I met someone but its going horribly wrong and now have to be interviewed by police and I am so scared. We havent done anything wrong. I still cant help the self harm. Im sorry but ended up in a & e on monday for self harming so badly. Its never gonna leave me. I feel so down I really dont want to be alive anymore. I am so unhappy and scared. I dont know how to get through this. I am sorry to you all for being like this but I just dont know
Shell x
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Post by bean on Nov 26, 2009 9:02:38 GMT
Hey Shell Please dont say sorry hun, I want to say sorry to you, I saw you were online on f/b last night but it was when i was just about to log off cause i was shattered. Just wanted to let you know i have lost your number when i changed networks so couldnt text, also mine is different, ill send you pm wth new no ifyou want it.
Jack will forget his mummy has been poorly in time, he will replace those memories with the new ones of you two spending time together. You just need to get to know each other again hun, at the end of the day, you are his mum and he loves you - this is your reason for being alive hunni.
I know it seems like its never going to go, ive felt the same recently, we just have to keep on fighting. How are your cuts - was it arms again, are they ok? You mustnt beat yourself up about the self harm, youre already doing that by doing it. Sorry for not knowing, but what help are you getting now? Still seeing the psychologist?
Sorry youre feeling so bad mate, i do understand the constant battle, if you need anything just let me know. Sendign you much love hun bean x
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Post by winegirl on Nov 26, 2009 20:27:59 GMT
Shell, we are here as always if you need us. And if there are things you want to talk about to do with this new relationship and the police, but feel you cant just here, than you can always have the password to the relationship section which is hidden?? I am so sorry you are struggling again. Please, please, please talk to us if it helps. Or catch one of us on facebook if you are struggling? Sending you all my love my friend xx WG xx
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Post by monica on Dec 4, 2009 16:08:48 GMT
Hello
Sorry have been on here or FB for ages as had computer probs. I'm sorry things are tough for you.
Having Jack back in your life is a huge adjustment for you - take it bit bybit, perhaps get a friend or family to help you. Perhaps plan things - so you don't feel overwhelmed when he's there wracking your brains what to do with him. As others have said, intime any previous memories Jack has of you will be replaced by new ones.
I'm sorry your new relationship is causing problems. here for you if you want to talk
Monica
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