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Post by littlelotty on Nov 18, 2008 20:15:17 GMT
how did it go with the crisis team?? Hope you are ok, we are here if you need a chat.
take care
littlelotty xx
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Post by Kitty on Nov 19, 2008 12:54:00 GMT
it went well with the crisis team, because id have a really good day that day. but yesterday was bad for me. i wanted to take another overdose. that girl is really getting to me, i wouldnt even go to the toilet alone because i didnt trust myself not to do anything. shes been sending more emails filled with utter bullshit and wont leave me alone shes even going on friends profiles seeing if ive said anything. im getting so bad i havent left the bed all morning, ive made sure mollie was happy playing first but i didnt change her nappy and im crying my eyes out that i didnt because it was leaking when i got to it it was that full! i cant handle it. theyre not coming till tomoro night the crisis team but i need someone where with me now. i know i cant do anything when its only me looking after mollie but im ever so sad its awful. ive got a gig with lucy in her hometown of workington in cumbria on saturday and i need to get better before then otherwise i cant let myself go. i still havent gotten out to apply for a crisis loan, i still havent made an appointment with my doc about new meds, theres things i need to be doing but im so saddened i cant. there is no answer when i ask why shes trying to ruin my life. theres no controlling her and i dont think she will ever stop. the police wont stop her lucy reckons theres a way of blacklisting her name so she cant get the internet, like pedophiles. so i want to do that obviously. she cant be trusted to not harass ppl. the detective gave us an email address to send all the emails she sends us, and shes said thats not how the poice work, that i havent contacted the police its getting to me so much, rik saw how hard it is/was for me to control my actions last night, i kept asking him to hold me, and wouldnt let him leave my side. kate was getting me to leave rik, was poisoning my mind against alot of things/ppl, and rik isnt half as bad as i was making him out to be. he knows i wanted to leave him and the lengths kate went to to get me to leave him, whilst she was telling him hes awesome this that and the other, she was telling me hes a dick leave him. me nad rik havent been getting on and ive hated the way things have been but we talk about how he is, and he is sorry. im not making up excuses it does boil down to his adhd. i am truly scared.
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Post by winegirl on Nov 19, 2008 13:11:50 GMT
Hey Hun
Massive hugs mate (()). You can call the crisis team to come outtoday, thats what they are there for. Tell em you need someone today.
This chic on facebook is off her head, and you have told everyone on your social networks to block her.. She can do no more damage now.
Get yourslef out of bed, get you and mollie sorted, and have a play day. Get some toys out, go to the park or a farm or something. You both need to get uot and get on with life without shit for a few hours..
Will be around on and off today but cant get on facebook from work x
WG x
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Post by Kitty on Nov 19, 2008 13:55:43 GMT
mollies still having a nap, but i definately cant go out... i feel like ive been bollocked for telling ppl to block kate though. its only i thought for everyones own good. because she went on yours WG and saw what we were talking about. ive sent rik a message on facebook to get the crisis team out because our house fone wont be working till tomoro
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Post by winegirl on Nov 19, 2008 14:13:54 GMT
Good! I am glad she did - might put the shitters up her! Has Rik manage dto get hold of crisis team for you?
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Post by Kitty on Nov 19, 2008 14:18:33 GMT
hasnt said. but i hope so. i know i wont doanything because imthe only one here with mollie and it would be more than cruel to her if i did anything but i am scared for myself. im just scared and sad. i dont want to fall back into the mood i was in last week. i want to see the police doing something about her but icant and its not helping my mood
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Post by winegirl on Nov 19, 2008 14:26:18 GMT
Its a tricky one with her - cant you tell em you are scared of her and want an injunction out against her??
If you have no phone do you want me to ring for you and get em round??
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Post by Kitty on Nov 19, 2008 14:45:03 GMT
im not sure, i dont know what i would say to them...
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Post by Kitty on Nov 19, 2008 15:22:42 GMT
riks rang them, just replied, they said theyd sort something out for me
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Post by Kitty on Nov 19, 2008 15:38:10 GMT
mollie is STILL asleep... should i be worried?
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Post by Kitty on Nov 19, 2008 16:42:12 GMT
the crisis team came round and are gona try n get me a docs appointment for tomoro n take me.. theyre gona try n get in touch with the police too
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Post by winegirl on Nov 19, 2008 18:18:27 GMT
Thats great hun!! Sounds like they ar ereally going to try and help you!! How you feeling this evening babes??
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Post by Kitty on Nov 19, 2008 18:50:13 GMT
riks gona try n find the detectives number in a sec. the crisis team are gona take me to the docs. cuz i told them how scared ive been lately to leave the house. but career-wise things are on the up n up n up. just wish i could go out to do the things i need to.
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Post by winegirl on Nov 20, 2008 10:36:56 GMT
Is it today you are off to the docs??
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Post by Kitty on Nov 24, 2008 10:30:50 GMT
i havent been docs the crisis team got the appointment muddled up, lack of communication from the docs part. and mum called the social services, did i say? ill say again just in case. it was a wasted journey words of the woman who came. she could see mollie was perfect and everything was fine i told her more than everything she needed to know about what had gone on and all that, and she did basically say it was a wasted journey. mum is never seeing me or mollie again, there was no excuse for calling the social services on me, i have had a lifetime of mum drinking, drink driving, taking overdoeses going awaol n loads more, and i take an overdose over something i had a real reason for wanting to die over and she kidnaps my daughter and calls the social services on me|! what a hypocrite. but, this weekend was fun. went to lucys hometown, met her mum n her friends.. it was total chaos rock 'n' roll fun. but on the train on the way there i had at least 70 panic attacks, it felt like. i got so scared. got better once i was in lucys moms house. we went out n had a drink danced n stuff then the next day after nursing a hangover got sorted in the hotel and got ready for her gig, hung out with the bands 'peep show', 'corruption' and 'wired desire', although corruption arent a big band they're up their bloody arses! peep show are like motley crue through and through, was fighting them all off they think they can have anyone lol danced onstage with them, as lucy couldnt go through with our performance because the bar manager f**ked her over with money, cut £200 out of what he was meant to be giving her! but i got her onstage with peep show anyway and the rest of the night was so rock n roll! although they did try to laugh at me for having a cup of tea, but i was laughing the next day because i didnt have a hangover and they did hehe then one of the bands f**ked off in the morning and left lucy to pay their bill and so the hotel called the police but her mum settled it thank god. her mum spent shitloads on mollie for Christmas its out of this world! so many clothes and a cute teddy!! and the shit me and lucy got when we got home, was out of order from rik, because i let him know lucy got f**ked over big time an he wasnt having any of it. hes gone money mad. REALLY. and its quite disturbing. he had a real go at her, and i said to her before we got in, to dish it back if he gave her shit. normally she keeps quiet when hes on one, but i said no, give it back and dont take any of it. theres no excuse anymore for that amount of shit. what happened was totally out of lucys hands, and he was still saying tehres no excuse. what hapend was a learning experience for lucy. make sure she gets money off ppl before the event goes ahead and so on. and rik should understand that but instead hes being over-abusive about it. he flipped me off right in my face at one point.
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