Sarahjanes diary

[butterfly]

hi again, hope you dont mind me writing in here. I can emphasis about how you feel about getting your medication changed. But if you had an illness like a chest infection youd take drugs, youd have to and you are the same. You are poorly and need your drugs tweeked. I felt terrible when I had to start taking drugs and was still breast feeding (my daughter refused to take a bottle). Then I didn't get better and the dose was trippled but only now can I feel an improvement even though I am not yet cured and still have bad days.
I hope you think again about talking to your GP. I know its horrible talking to doctors - but sometimes you just have to give in and do what you deep down know is right.
Thinking of you - keep talking
BF

[Weeble]

Thanks Sarah Jane - less than 72 hours and I will be the mother of three children. I am currently on fluoxetine 40mg, I could do with a lot more but it has been restricted to minimise the impact on the baby. My psych has promised me if I start to slip again they will hit it hard after the birth.

I would give him a call or see your gp, I did find twice during 20 - 32 week period I really slipped and became unwell again, the first time I had more drugs, the second time I made my own plan to stop doing anything that made me feel bad and just get through the last few weeks.

My obs Dr a paeds consultant and Psych have both said to me, that the drugs are generally very safe the important thing is what is best for the mother is nearly always best for the baby. There is really good research that shows that the children of depressed mothers taking drugs do better at five years old than children of depressed mothers not taking drugs.

Anyway here to listen

Kat

[sarahjane]

Ok thanks for your advice ladies and i dont mind you writing here. Im taking 40mg fluoxetine myself at the mo,been suffering pni for 2yrs now i cant stand the depressed days and nights also the disgusting frightening thoughts,i knew when i fell pregnant again the illness would worsen and i would have more blips.My partner helps with our daughter alot especially the days i feel ill around her and stay in bed,i feel alot of guilt because i am so blessed to have such a loving clever little girl and at the same time experiencing such awful thoughts...... its just all my worst fears becoming intrusive in my mind and i struggle to control it and not let it upset me..... Anyway kat i hope the birth goes well for you hun im also here to talk if you need t.c x

[sarahjane]

Ok thanks for your advice ladies and i dont mind you writing here. Im taking 40mg fluoxetine myself at the mo,been suffering pni for 2yrs now i cant stand the depressed days and nights also the disgusting frightening thoughts,i knew when i fell pregnant again the illness would worsen and i would have more blips.My partner helps with our daughter alot especially the days i feel ill around her and stay in bed,i feel alot of guilt because i am so blessed to have such a loving clever little girl and at the same time experiencing such awful thoughts...... its just all my worst fears becoming intrusive in my mind and i struggle to control it and not let it upset me..... Anyway kat i hope the birth goes well for you hun im also here to talk if you need t.c x

[beckah]

Hi hun

Just popped on and saw that you'd been posting. How are you feeling now? I've been struggling with ocd thoughts and anxiety again and you know that is exactly what it is which is half of the battle won.

I know it doesnt help when the thoughts are bad. You are such a fantastic mum though, just look at little Tamia on all of the pictures on facebook, she smiles constantly and is a happy healthy beautiful girl and it's your parenting that has done that so don't ever feel guilty because to Tamia you are her everything.

You know where i am and you've got my number, give me a text if you need some reassurance xxxxxx