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Post by winegirl on Apr 25, 2009 9:11:31 GMT
Hi Hun
Sorry you have been having a pants time of it. How have things been the last couple of days..
Yes, our OH has certainly not helped the situation! Stress is bound to set these things off/ make them worse. You will get through this, its just your mind playing tricks on you.
How are you today?? Will be back later to catch up if you fancy a chat??
WG xxx
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Post by sarahjane on Apr 29, 2009 19:27:14 GMT
Hey WG,sorry havent been online in a while Ive been trying to pick myself up from my nasty blip,im on my period at the mo so still feeling rough,but not as bad as i was.My Oh has been argueing with me alot lately and he's on his last chance,he going to get some help with his anger.My lo's doing really well i just feel so low sometimes and i feel i need to put her first and be strong hows u and your lo?xxx
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Post by winegirl on Apr 29, 2009 20:31:31 GMT
Hey Sarahjane,
Sorry you have been blipping x Good that it looks like a time of the month thing though that will pass!
What sort of help is your OH gonna get? Is he going to his GP to talk about anger management. I guess if he does this then at least he is trying...many men wouldn't!
All is ok with me and LO thanks. Just getting ready for her third birthday! God where does it go...
Hope you are back up and running again soon. And remember, sometimes you have to be selfish! As the saying goes `care for the carer' and all that... xxx
WG x
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Post by sarahjane on May 16, 2009 20:35:52 GMT
hey having another blip for the past few days,the intrusive thoughts are constants,i keep having sickening images of things happening to my lo,im getting paranoid if my oh is changing her again,keep having to check on her to make sure shes alright,im so scared i keep thinking somethings wrong with me keep having what ifs? to test my reaction,i hate this illness shes 1 and im still not better ;( !! is it normal to have these thoughts still? does pni make you think your experiencing urges to do something awful? because my mind is playing tricks on me? x
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Post by winegirl on May 17, 2009 9:06:27 GMT
Blipety blip blip.. Happens to all of us. But these blips will get fuether apart hun, and you are already doing brilliantly! Try not to analyse it and just accept it as a thing that will pass.. Because it will..
How are you feeling this morning hun? Will be around on and off today if you need to chat x
WG xx
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Post by sarahjane on May 30, 2009 20:02:51 GMT
hey,well im still keeping strong,taking each day as it comes,still having nasty blips they dont seem to be getting further apart yet.Its my 21st next week,mums having lo for the night so i can go out with friends and party lol! should be really good but i know il be in tears before i leave i get so emotional leaving Tamia !!! just cooking dinner now,its so late but havent had a chance as lo not long settled for bed,she's been really grumpy all day,she not running any fevers tho,it must be cos of her teething.Tomorrow will take her to the park it should be a nice day x x x
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Post by winegirl on Jun 1, 2009 19:59:19 GMT
Hey you! How did the birthday bash go?? Happy belated 21st hun - hope you sank a few for me How are you doing generally?? Thinking of you WG xx
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Post by sarahjane on Jun 1, 2009 22:26:36 GMT
hiya,its not my bday til the 8th june,im going out this friday the 5th partying with my friends,mums having tamia for the night,then on the actual daythe 8th monday im celebrating with family and getting my presents,so i will let u know the birthday bash goes on saturday when i will be having a serious hangover lol! today im having a bit of a blip,in general im doing ok,but i still have alot of blips and intrusive thoughts,not sleeping very well,ive been having alot of chest pain due to anxiety aswell.Im still fighting this pni,but trying to keep myself busy its so hard,im still on the same meds but im wondering if the citalopram is helping as much as it should cos i still having alot of low days:( if it continues il book an appointment with the gp.Apart from all this my Los thriving and doing well,she walking now and such a happy baby,i love her so much,i will get through this nasty illness!!!! anyway ......hows are you and your lo? x x x x x
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Post by winegirl on Jun 2, 2009 19:19:43 GMT
Awwww even though you are blipping you are taking the positive stance on getting through this! Go Girl! That will really help with your recovery x
So glad your LO is doing well! Its lovely when they start walking isnt it? Think it was my favourite age...
I am fine and LO is good thanks. Trying to spend more time with her as feel like all I do is work at the mo though!
Hope the anxiety has eased off a bit for you today??
WG xx
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Post by sarahjane on Jun 13, 2009 22:00:44 GMT
hey WG,hows you?ive been blipping the past few days,alot of the intrusive thoughts i keep wondering if they will ever go away its so frustrating.Anytime im having a lovely time with lo they just spoil it,they just upset me and make me paranoid that im a sick evil person!lately i havent been waking up early with lo,my oh has,ive been awake til the early hours of morning then getting up lunch time so oh is giving her breakfast,and dressing her,then im up giving her lunch,dinner etc.... because when i wake up early i feel so low and the thoughts start straight away and seem very forceful in. my head,there all images of sick abuse! it makes me not want to be around her cos im so scared that im a risk. Even though i know there not real and i love her it doesnt stop my mind from torturing me with all these fears they just consume so much of my time.I hate my life with pni.I hope my lo doesnt grow up hate me for all of these thoughts,i dont ever want her to know,i love her to much im her mummy i shouldnt have these things in my head ;(x
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Post by sarahjane on Jun 13, 2009 22:14:32 GMT
oh! forgot to say my 21st was a wicked night out i got totally pissed and danced the night away in the club, it was really nice there! cryed before i went when my mum drove of with tamia to take her to her house for the night.It was the first night i have ever had away from my baby,but it was good and she settled well and had a lovely time at her nannys house!xx i had a lovely bday tho!xx
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Post by winegirl on Jun 14, 2009 10:09:35 GMT
Hey SJ
The only good thing about blips is that they pass... Doesnt help at the time i know, but it will pass again.
Nothing can make you feel any better about those horrible thoughts, I know.. but try to forget about them when you have them. When you have had a thought, acknowledge it then move on, it is dwelling on them that makes them worse. Its a bit like retraining your brain..
Glad you had a good birthday! How are you doing this weekend??
WG x
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Post by sarahjane on Jul 4, 2009 0:27:23 GMT
hi, well what can i say not much has improved with the blipping! its been absolute hell! my oh left me the other night he stayed at his uncles house,he left after we had a arguement.I felt so frightened i was left to settle my lo when she finally when she finally settled i felt extremley ill,the thoughts was so forceful,violent images of abuse constantly in my head,i kept trying to test my reaction with what if's questions to test my reaction,i keep telling myself the thoughts are not real they are just my worst fears playing tricks on my mind,even when lo was in her cot asleep and i went to bed i hardly manage to sleep they wouldnt go away i felt so alone.My oh is home now he came back with his apologies as usual.I know its just a blip,but is it normal for the intrusive thoughts to make your body feel like your having urges because your mind is playing tricks on your body? ive been so scared,i try to be positive and think of memories of when lo was born before i became ill,i cry sometimes because i love her so much but alot of the time i just feal numb and empty xxx
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Post by sarahjane on Jul 4, 2009 0:37:44 GMT
by the way loving your profile pick on here! its soooo you chick! lol and yes i am very drunk myself at the mo! x x
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Post by winegirl on Jul 4, 2009 7:15:10 GMT
Hi SJ,
Yes and it is just your mind playing tricks on you.. The way i think is easiest to deal with the thoughts is when you have one to acknowledge that you have had it then move on to think about something else.. eventually by doing this they start to ease off - whereas the more you thing about them and analyse them the more stressful it becomes!
Hang in there hun, this will get better.
Hope you havent got too much of a sore head this morning? LOL x
WG xx
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