Post by hunter1356 on Aug 5, 2009 13:56:28 GMT
Hi I have recently been in hospital 
(detained under mental health act.. not a nice experience) anyway whilst in hospital they discussed My finances and I stated I didnt receive any benefit and solely depended on My partners wage (which gets me down as I feel like a child asking for money and there isnt actually any for Him to give me by the time we pay mortgage, bills and car etc) they said I should be entitled to 'Contributory' related employment and support allowance (incapacity benefit)HOWEVER this is based in NI credits and due to My illness I left work suddenly after having My little boy as I remained house bound and refused to admit I was ill, He was 5 months and I just handed in my notice and didnt return to work (My nephew died of cot death 2 weeks before I returned to work so I couldnt face leaving my little boy as they were only a month apart in age) If I had of went on the sick then my NI contributions would have been up to date, They are at the minute paying just my NI contribution (no money to Me solely for pension/benefit purposes in the future) BUT for them to continue paying them I must attend a medical and they said I cannot take my kids-- would they like me to cut off my right arm whilst I am at it-- I cannot and will not leave my kids with anyone My oldest is 3 and started nursery so leaving Him is a must but my little girl is just 4 months and still breastfeeding- its freaking me out I am thinking that she wont be able to have a feed and I freak out at the thought of leaving her- surely they should consider everybodys individual circumstances and deal with everyone as an individual, I take panic attacks, dont go out and NEVER leave my kids.. I was sexually abused and have a past that would horrify anyone- I am over this but dont trust anyone with my children (prob part of the illness) I get Disability Living Allowance High Rate Care and Mobility Low Rate so I need someone with Me most of the day but I dont assume they'll allow my carer to comfort me- I swear they are trying to test me- maybe they want me to jump of the bridge - they'd be as well pushing me as I cant handle all this crap and i think they think well atleast thats one less to pay!
(detained under mental health act.. not a nice experience) anyway whilst in hospital they discussed My finances and I stated I didnt receive any benefit and solely depended on My partners wage (which gets me down as I feel like a child asking for money and there isnt actually any for Him to give me by the time we pay mortgage, bills and car etc) they said I should be entitled to 'Contributory' related employment and support allowance (incapacity benefit)HOWEVER this is based in NI credits and due to My illness I left work suddenly after having My little boy as I remained house bound and refused to admit I was ill, He was 5 months and I just handed in my notice and didnt return to work (My nephew died of cot death 2 weeks before I returned to work so I couldnt face leaving my little boy as they were only a month apart in age) If I had of went on the sick then my NI contributions would have been up to date, They are at the minute paying just my NI contribution (no money to Me solely for pension/benefit purposes in the future) BUT for them to continue paying them I must attend a medical and they said I cannot take my kids-- would they like me to cut off my right arm whilst I am at it-- I cannot and will not leave my kids with anyone My oldest is 3 and started nursery so leaving Him is a must but my little girl is just 4 months and still breastfeeding- its freaking me out I am thinking that she wont be able to have a feed and I freak out at the thought of leaving her- surely they should consider everybodys individual circumstances and deal with everyone as an individual, I take panic attacks, dont go out and NEVER leave my kids.. I was sexually abused and have a past that would horrify anyone- I am over this but dont trust anyone with my children (prob part of the illness) I get Disability Living Allowance High Rate Care and Mobility Low Rate so I need someone with Me most of the day but I dont assume they'll allow my carer to comfort me- I swear they are trying to test me- maybe they want me to jump of the bridge - they'd be as well pushing me as I cant handle all this crap and i think they think well atleast thats one less to pay!
