have you ever felt like youv'e cracked

[anonmom]

Suffering pnd for 2 years,now the thoughts are unbearable i feel like ive cracked up i think its part of the pni illness but i really need help and support,i went to my gp yesterday he is going to chase up the cbt which ive been waiting for since july he wouldnt change my meds i feel like there doin absolutely nothing he also said my personailty doesnt help the way im feeling,who am i meant to turn too nobodys listening to me,its the build up to my pmt again 2 weeks of the month i get like this but to be honest ive never felt this bad .....what if i act on these thoughts ? how will they disappear argghhhh please help

[gizmoracer]

I really feel for you, there is nothing worse than thinking that no-one is listening to you or taking you seriously. Is there anything you can do to release some of these feelings? When I get close to cracking generally a really good cry helps. I'm not sure telling you that your personality does'nt help was a very helpful thing to say, those sorts of comments normally make us feel worse. Personally I've never had a huge amount of help from my GPs either but I'm sure someone on here will be able to give you a few ideas. In the meantime, easier said than done, but try not to dwell on the thoughts too much. In my experience it's rare for someone to follow anything through.

[sarajay28]

Hi Anonmum,

So sorry you are feeling this way and that your GP was little help to you yesterday!! Have you ever kept a diary of your PMT symptoms? I was asked to do this by my GP to see what bearing this had on my moods/pni because many women suffer worse PMT after having PNI, maybe worth a try cos then you'd have concrete evidence to take with you to the GP. It would maybe also make you feel like your being pro-active in trying to take control of this awful illness!

I honestly don't think you will act on your thoughts, many psychologists say that these thoughts are just your worst fears coming to the forefront of your mind and the worse your thoughts the less likely you are to act on them! I read this in pyschologies magazine last year so try and take a bit of reassurance from this.

Please keep talking on here if you feel its helping, you know there is always someone about to listen to you.

Sarah.xx

[winegirl]

Hi Anonmum,

Did you question your GP's comment on your personality?! I would have gone bonkers if someone had said that to me without a decent explanation as to why they would say it. He sounds like he has really impacted badly on your recovery at this time..

Please understand this, I really truly believe that you will NOT act on your thoughts. The fact that you even question them indicates insight, and it is only when insight is lost that there is potential for this kind of thing.

I guess you are looking for help sprecifically for severe PMS? This is available but you normally need transfering to the appropriate services... Is there another GP at your practivce you could talk to? I jacked in 4 GP's before I found one who would listen to me..

Take Care

WG xx

[nickynoo77]

i too suffered from my second month of pregnancy my son is now 2 years old and i still suffer from PND i cant handle the constant mood swings, lack of sleep , and feelings of suicide!
although i have had thoughts I'm confident i would never follow these through.
i look at my son and end up in tears as i think if only i hadn't fell pregnant i would not be feeling like this and I'm also filled with guilt at my parenting skills and feel my son deserves better than having such an unpredictable mother who has little consistency in dealing with behaviors as it depends on my mood how i deal with them.
my mother suffered when i was growing up and i want to give my son a better start in life and not grow up as i did thinking my mum was nuts yes you are not alone and feelings of no support from GP are high in my world as i have had to fight to be treated for pre natal and post natal after repeatedly being told by GP that it was hormones.
Request a second opinion and believe in your own instinct after all you are the expert on you!
i found my health visitor was really helpful in fact if it wasn't for her I'm not sure i would have come out the other end! my GP was very supportive during pregnancy but decided at my 6 week check that it was time i came off medication.
yes i suffered in silence for over a year and decided to fight back as i was blaming my sons behavior for stressing me out.your personality has nothing to do with pnd as I'm a very sociable Cherie person who lived life to the max and enjoyed my life until i was hit by pnd.
Please keep strong and don't let other people tell you just to get on with it try another GP look at outside agencies for support. i hope i can offer you support as and when you need it keep in touch.
Again you know how you feel better than any medical proffesionals don't give in there will be help coming from somewhere x x x x x