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Post by xxellaxx on May 31, 2012 9:55:41 GMT
Hi guys, I am now 11 weeks pregnant, off my meds. I've seen the mental health community midwfife this week for a good chat, the session was great, they are already putting things in place incase I go down hill again, I feel better knowing Ive got the back up already for once the baby is born. They asked me to go talk to a counciler this week about keeping the baby.... I've decided not to take them up on it as there's no way I can op for anything else other than to keep it.. I felt abit awful that the suggestion was put in my head , but 9they were obviously just trying to look after us and give us all the options. Ellas doing great, she's just turned one this week. This is the 1st day for weeks where I feel that low horrible feeling, I hope its just a bad day as I don't want to go into that black hole again...
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Post by stevensmummy on May 31, 2012 13:05:30 GMT
Hi,
I have never noticed your diary until you posted today. I'm Sarah. Congratulations on your pregnancy. Glad to hear you feel positive toward your pregnancy with the health team already onboard.
Its normal to have bad days. I'm having a bad day too. Try not to read too much into it. Think of it as a bad day which will look better with the rise of the sun again 2moro
S x
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Post by juppster on Jun 6, 2012 18:21:32 GMT
Glad things are sounding a bit more positive...how have you been feeling since your bad day? Remember your hormones will be all over the place too so this will be affecting your mood x
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Post by monica on Jun 14, 2012 17:25:37 GMT
Hi Gail
How are you doing? Huge congrats on your pregnancy. I say forewarned is forearmed and putting things in place shoud you start slipping is brill idea.
I went on to ave a third child following pni with my second. I was very conscious of getting it again and with gp researched Meds etc, had extra a Appointments with gp, hv and consultant.
After aging baby there were times when I dd feel low but that is alo normal or tired, sleep deprived mum, but on the whole I remained pni free. Hope you picked up after your lw dayx
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Post by Weeble on Jun 14, 2012 19:22:37 GMT
Wow just seen the photo of ella and you aren't you both beautiful. Congratulations and like Monica I had a third and stayed on the drugs whilst pregnant xxxx
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Post by juppster on Jul 1, 2012 19:01:52 GMT
Hi Gail, how's the pregnancy going? How are things in general for you hun? x
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Post by xxellaxx on Nov 20, 2012 21:28:09 GMT
:)Hiya all, sorry I haven't been on here for a while I'm doing great off the meds, sometimes I can feel myself slipping back into that dark hole and I used my CBT which has worked really well so far. Baby is Due christmas eve, so only 5 weeks to go now ... I'm abit worried about the PND coming back after the birth, but hopfully I can spot the signs and will get straight to the doctors if it happens, I've got a good health visitor who I am still in contact with since Ella was born so I'm lucky I've got back up Hope you are all doing well x
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Post by monica on Nov 20, 2012 21:36:16 GMT
Great to hear from you and all the best with the birth. Let us know how u get on. Just keep an eye on how u feel and gt help if you need it. I was very worried about getting pni with my third so that's only normal.
Monica
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Post by juppster on Nov 21, 2012 13:22:32 GMT
Great to hear you are doing so well, good luck with the birth. We are here for you any time x
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Post by xxellaxx on Nov 21, 2012 14:18:40 GMT
:DThanks guys
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Post by Weeble on Nov 24, 2012 21:14:22 GMT
How are things now?
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Post by xxellaxx on Dec 13, 2012 16:31:02 GMT
;D ;D Thanks, I'm doing ok, Baby is pretty close to coming now I keep getting contractions and then they stop again. Still worried about after the birth, hoping I have got my head round it though and prepared for the worst if I should get sick again. What I have noticed over the last few months and with the comments I get from my mum and family, is that I've been really over compansating (sp) with Ella, sort of trying to make up for missing out on the 1st few months of her life, I feel guilty if I stay indoors one day, I take her to a play centre/group/somewhere everyday ... who cares .. I am so enjoying being with her. Sometimes I look at her and I could just cry, the guilt still gets to me now. I am driving further a field now, my confidence is coming back, I still cant get on the motorway, but god the freedom from panic attacks is great, I used to get to the end of our street and have to turn back in panic.
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Post by monica on Dec 13, 2012 16:47:08 GMT
Wow u r doing brilliantly ! Getting ur life back iss priceless!
Try not to feel guilty. Yur illness was beyond ur control. Sshe sounds like a happy, bright and well adjusted girl who wasn't scared in anyway by yur experience with pni.
Try nTo read and not worry about what ifs. Easier said than done I know.
All the best for the birthxxx
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Post by xxellaxx on Mar 19, 2013 9:55:14 GMT
Hiya Guys
Thought I would come on and update.
My little baby is now 11 weeks old and everything is fine !! Yipppeeee
I was so worried about the PNI coming back, I went through a few days baby blues and thought OMG here we go again, but they came and went.
I've had a few moments where I thought I was slipping back, you know that really deep black feeling ? I just had to use my CBT etc and kick myself out of it.
I got to week 3 and had a week of all those horrible physical symptoms coming back, I went pretty downhill thinking there was something seriously wrong with me again but I came on here and read back on my posts and realised I had exactly the same symptoms last time.. So thanks to this site and my CBT I have managed to stay clear of PNI this time.
Me Ella and Baby Loxy are all well and we are getting out the house nearly everyday to go to playgroups and different singing sessions etc.
I really enjoy being a mum now, Instead of being terrified to take a step out the house I can't wait to get out the house now . It's so weird when I look back now at how ill I actually was. Even when I see my GP and health worker they say they cannot believe the change, even my expression is different ...
I hope everyone else is doing ok x
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Post by jessibella on Mar 19, 2013 10:36:16 GMT
This is lovely to read. So glad things have been better this time x
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