Post by frogface on Sept 16, 2011 15:27:22 GMT
I had a great pregnancy, unlike my first. Then at 32 weeks my waters broke. I went into hospital. I was embarassed. I thought I had just wet myself but they kept me in and said I couldn't go home until the baby was born. She was a footling breech.
THe first night I couldn't sleep at all for someone snoring. I wanted to go home. A midwife said I couldn't because the cord might come down. I didn't believe her. I was moved to a smaller room.
The next two weeks I stayed in hospital. At first I felt fine, but my ds was quite upset. He would come and visit but hated leaving. In the second week I started to have dizzy turns and palpitations. But they could find nothing wrong with me. I now think these may have been panic attacks. I started having mild contractions, but not strong or regular.
I started leaving the hospital grounds for long walks. I felt very claustrophobic. I even went out to the dentist one day to get a tooth fixed. One morning I was in the toilet and I felt something inside me when I wiped myself. It was the cord. I pulled the emergency cord in the toilet and it wasn't working. I called the person in the next cubicle to pull her cord. It seemed like ages before anyone came. I was very scared.
A midwife came and I said "there's something there"/ SHe said "Is it blood?". But I couldn't explain what it was. When she realised there was a big commotion. I got down on the toilet floor and they brought a trolley. I had to get on it on all fours and stick my bum in the air. Someone shoved their hand up my vagina. THey were holding the baby away from the cord but I didn't know that at the time.
There were lots of people but noone spoke to me. They were running with the trolley and banging into things. EVery time they banged into anything it was painful. I was crying and screaming but noone spoke to me.
At some point I went totally calm and thought "oh, it's THIS baby that will die". I was totally surprised as I had always thought my son would die when I was pregnant with him but never thought that during this pregnancy. I wasn't upset, just totally surprised. All this happened in a very short space of time.
In the theatre they called me by the wrong name. They asked for consent to do a c section under general anaesthetic because there was no time for written consent. I could feel them shaving me before i even answered. I shouted for them to hurry up. They put one of those oxygen masks but i thought they were trying to suffocate me. Tyring to kill me. And I panicked again. I shouted at them they were suffocating me but they held it on. Then eventually i did feel the oxygen coming but it felt like a very long time. The next thing I remember was waking up and she was there in an incubator but the next 48 hours i only remember in bits and pieces. I can't remember what happened when, when they took her away or what happened to me or when I saw her next. Afterwards I kept thinking if it had happened while I was out in town she would not be alive.
She was in special care for 2 weeks and that was another horror story for another time as this has been hard enough.
THe first night I couldn't sleep at all for someone snoring. I wanted to go home. A midwife said I couldn't because the cord might come down. I didn't believe her. I was moved to a smaller room.
The next two weeks I stayed in hospital. At first I felt fine, but my ds was quite upset. He would come and visit but hated leaving. In the second week I started to have dizzy turns and palpitations. But they could find nothing wrong with me. I now think these may have been panic attacks. I started having mild contractions, but not strong or regular.
I started leaving the hospital grounds for long walks. I felt very claustrophobic. I even went out to the dentist one day to get a tooth fixed. One morning I was in the toilet and I felt something inside me when I wiped myself. It was the cord. I pulled the emergency cord in the toilet and it wasn't working. I called the person in the next cubicle to pull her cord. It seemed like ages before anyone came. I was very scared.
A midwife came and I said "there's something there"/ SHe said "Is it blood?". But I couldn't explain what it was. When she realised there was a big commotion. I got down on the toilet floor and they brought a trolley. I had to get on it on all fours and stick my bum in the air. Someone shoved their hand up my vagina. THey were holding the baby away from the cord but I didn't know that at the time.
There were lots of people but noone spoke to me. They were running with the trolley and banging into things. EVery time they banged into anything it was painful. I was crying and screaming but noone spoke to me.
At some point I went totally calm and thought "oh, it's THIS baby that will die". I was totally surprised as I had always thought my son would die when I was pregnant with him but never thought that during this pregnancy. I wasn't upset, just totally surprised. All this happened in a very short space of time.
In the theatre they called me by the wrong name. They asked for consent to do a c section under general anaesthetic because there was no time for written consent. I could feel them shaving me before i even answered. I shouted for them to hurry up. They put one of those oxygen masks but i thought they were trying to suffocate me. Tyring to kill me. And I panicked again. I shouted at them they were suffocating me but they held it on. Then eventually i did feel the oxygen coming but it felt like a very long time. The next thing I remember was waking up and she was there in an incubator but the next 48 hours i only remember in bits and pieces. I can't remember what happened when, when they took her away or what happened to me or when I saw her next. Afterwards I kept thinking if it had happened while I was out in town she would not be alive.
She was in special care for 2 weeks and that was another horror story for another time as this has been hard enough.
