gem1
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Post by gem1 on Oct 19, 2011 13:15:35 GMT
my son was 6 weeks ago, difficult labour and were in hospital for a week after he was born due to suspected GBS. His paternal grandmother, hates me and hasnt even seen our son. I was referred two weeks ago to the crisis team and was diagnosed with post natal depression, I have been starting to think that our son has been sent to hurt me, sometimes when he looks at me it feels funny as though he doesnt like me and he's scowling at me, then when he smiles its because hes smiling at how low ive been and he's creating it. I am also resenting my step son who see's his paternal grandmother, he is 3...I was extremely obsessed about him staying away from our son as I feel he will make our new baby ill after he has come back from his grandmothers.
I am rushing this as I am about to go for an app but if anyone is reading this could you tell me if you think I have as I am very worried about how I am feeling and how each day it gets more and more
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Post by juppster on Oct 19, 2011 18:31:02 GMT
Hey there Gem1 and welcome here. Firstly, congratulations on your baby. So sorry to hear about the difficult labour, this is often a factor which attributes to pni. As for the PP, its a really difficult one. There are ladies on here whom have suffered with it and there is a section a little further up about PP...if you agree I can move your post to this section where you are more likely to get replies from ladies recovering from or recovered from pp. Please feel free to keep getting your thoughts out here, we will do our best to support you through this...just remember that it is totally recoverable and will not last for ever xx
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Post by Weeble on Oct 19, 2011 20:43:14 GMT
Hi gem1
I don't think you have pp, please don't worry. These thoughts are surprisingly common, I was talking to a friend today who was never diagnosed and had no other symptoms of pni but had horrible thoughts of abusing her child. I had horrible thoughts of smashing my child head against a wall, my mother used to get them with me of strangling me. My closest friend wanted to through her kid down the stairs.
These thoughts are cruel but think of them as punishment thoughts your subconsious brain creates they are not actually what you want to do, they are more the worst possible thing your brain can think of. Because we love these little ones so deeply the thoughts can get out of control.
The drs etc won't worry about your thoughts as you have know they are just thoughts and you know you would never act on them. On the little 3 year old, what a nightmare with you partners mother, she clearly has enormous issues, but they are her problem not yours. Some of the other girls here have complex families and I am sure they will understand. Keep talking to us, look around, post where you like and perhaps start a diary
Kat
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gem1
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Post by gem1 on Oct 20, 2011 9:24:45 GMT
Thank you  I went to the doctors yesterday and he said I need to stay on the medication I am on, risperidone and an antidepressant. I was taking the risperidone as I didnt want to feel tired but realise I do need to take it now. My partner also has his own issues (bipolar) so our lives do feel rather complex at the best of times....its very unfortunate that I am now in the state that I am in but after reading some of the stories on here I feel lucky. Yes I dont mind if you re post this subject, the more advice the better. |
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Post by wanagetoverthis on Oct 20, 2011 12:38:54 GMT
Hi Gem Just wanted to offer my support too. My Mum has bi-polar so I can definitely relate, it's not easy at all. Really glad you found this forum, the girls here are amazing Nat xxx |
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I went to the doctors yesterday and he said I need to stay on the medication I am on, risperidone and an antidepressant.
