Going Mad... Part 2

[aura]

Okay, you can see a bit of humor in the thread name, because even I know how silly I am being. I just need a little support here.

So, I'm having the mother of all blips at the moment. I'm doubting everything again. Luckily, no dreaded thoughts about the baby this time. But these absolutely crazy thoughts keep popping into my head:

"What if this isn't your baby/ This isn't you baby"
"You don't know who you really are"

Those are just some examples. I get those like 'one-liners' and visual thoughts too - ones of me being crazy etc. Obviously, they scare the living crap out of me, because my biggest fear is actually going crazy and forgetting my son etc. Are these thoughts a variation of the dreaded thoughts? Like my anxieties' way of torturing me? Or am I actually going batpoop crazy?

Oh and I'm having some severe depersonalization and derealization. Can't concentrate, in a fog, words come out jumbled because I'm not concentrating on what I'm saying. Is this all part of the stress or am I really just starting to lose it this time? I'm despairing here. Anyone PLEASE answer and help!!!

[juppster]

They are just your anxieties honey, my biggest fear was going mad too..this has totally gone away now but it's horrid when they happen. If you're worrying that much about them can you talk to your gp for some extra support. They will get less and less intense honey and will start to happen less often over the weeks/months/years...take it from someone who knows xx

[frogface]

I have had those horrible questions and one liners like thoughts being sent into your brain. But they are your worst fears, they are a way of you checking and testing yourself, and prove just how much you care about your child. When someone told me that I couldn't see it for a long time but it is true.

When you think "that's not your baby" your brain is really thinking "oh god imagine if one day I didn't recognise my baby, that would be awful" so you are testing yourself to prove that you do know the baby is yours and that you CARE either way. They won't last forever. You are not going mad. I thought I was too many times.

[monica]

It ssounds like a nasty blip. They are a variation of the original thoughts which are popping into your head. The 'fog' was a biggie problem for me too especially when blipping. How are you doing?

[aura]

Okay, so I was drifting off to sleep and just starting to dream when in my head I heard the words 'kill him'. I quickly opened my eyes and started freaking out. Tried to get back to sleep and this time I heard the words 'drugs'. Please help guys. I'm so scared. Am I finally losing it???

[aura]

Just read on the net that when you fall asleep sometimes your brain jumbles your worst fears into like a word or sentence etc. Could this be what that is??

[aura]

Okay, I feel better now. I spoke to my parents and they've had similar stuff. It was basically while I was asleep and it was definitely in my head, so it wasn't like I was hearing voices. But it really freaked me out. :/

[Weeble]

It has happened to me to. When I was sleepy. I would hear things too.

Kat

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