horrific thoughts

[pixiecat]

Everything I see that's dangerous anywhere my brain somehow twists to me hurting my baby with the danger or hurting other children too. I am so scared this will never end and i am getting more and more depressed with it. Anyone else experienced this?

[juppster]

Hi pixiecat
I haven't personally but I know there are some ladies on here who have and hopefully they'll be along to give you some advice. The good thing to remember is that you're very aware of these thoughts and they are horrifying to you, indicating you would never act upon them...have you tried cbt? This can really help to challenge and turn around your thoughts x

[monica]

Hi

I had obsessive thoughts about illnesses and dying. These were all consuming and I coud not rationalize nor get them out my head.

Someone described these thoughts to me as the protective mothering instinct going into overdrive where you see danger from even yourself and this makes sense to me. If you can look at some of the threads on here. Nat, a trustee, suffered from this. You can get through this. Cbt are techniques which are effective at combatting these thought patterns. Maybe look into it?

Monica

[steph]

Hi Pixiecat

I too have had similar horrible scary thoughts about mine and others children but can promise you that they do get easier. It's so frightening as they tap into the things that are most precious to you and make you feel like an awful person when in reality you are the complete opposite - a brilliant mum who loves her child so much and would want any harm to come to them.

When I get these thoughts I try (as hard as it seems when you're in the thick of it) to not let the anxiety get the better if me as that is what makes them worse for you. Instead I just say to myself, this is just a silly anxious thought and as I think anther mum on hear suggested, almost laugh at the thoughts and say 'is that the best you can do, whatever' and try and carry on with whatever it was I was doing. Try your best to just distract yourself as best you can when you get these thoughts, have you tried wearing an elastic band on your wrist or shouting 'stop' in your head when a thought pops up?

Have you considered CBT? Along with meds, that really helped me

Hang on in there things will get better for you xx

[pixiecat]

Thank you for your supportive replies, am gonna speak to my counsellor and see if we can do a bit more CBT
You've given me a light at the end of a very dark tunnel xxxxxx

[Weeble]

Me too pixie cat my psychologist explained it as punishment thoughts. Normal people have random thoughts all the time. However when ill with pni our brains capture the thoughts and because it's so horrific to us we can't forget. Awful awful awful. In mine I thought I wanted to smash my babies head against a wall.

Hope today has been on

Kat

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[monica]

Hi

Just wondering how ur?

Monica