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Post by sarajay28 on Oct 17, 2014 21:51:44 GMT
I think you are right that your hormones are probably having a big impact on you at the minute, I know how I've been feeling and I've long been recovered from pni. Just go easy on yourself, I know you want to be better and push your boundaries but this will come, I know it's so so frustrating when you feel unable to do the things you want to but try to see this as progress, the fact you actually want to push your own boundaries is a really good sign. Unfortunately pni has no time constraints.... Be kind to yourself, you are going through a lot of changes. Xx
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Post by rochelle121 on Oct 19, 2014 9:29:08 GMT
Thank you Sarah. It's so hard to be easy with myself when I have other children I think are suffering because of this. I see other women who still manage to function with the anxiety and panic attacks and that makes me feel more of a failure too.that I am on mens and still nowhere near free from the depression or the anxiety I just want everything back to how it was for my family...I've always had panic and anxiety since my first child 8yrs ago for postnatal depression that wasn't treated.but in the past 5yrs I wasn't this depressed...I had anxiety but not this big depression too...and now I just think maybe it's too late for me to get better
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Post by sarajay28 on Oct 19, 2014 13:56:56 GMT
Aww it's never too late hun!! My eldest is 18 I was fine after him, my daughter is 15 and I suffered, undiagnosed for nearly 2 years, it was only my first marriage breakdown that made me seek help, and the support of a wonderful hv! It took me a long long time for the anxiety to lift and by the time I fell pregnant with my youngest I still had bouts of anxiety. After he was born 9 yrs ago I suffered really badly, it took a lot of work on myself and I always wanted things to be back to normal! Again the anxiety was the last thing to go and in times of severe stress I still get anxious and due to other factors - mainly relationship issues- I only came off my meds last yr. Don't be disheartened, how you are feeling is typical of a pni sufferer, the worst thing about this illness is there are no time frames for recovery but please be reassured you will get better. I used to feel guilty about being kind to myself but eventually realised that unless I was kinder to myself then my kids would always suffer. I know it's hard to find the time when you have other family but I now see it as a necessity not a luxury. Always here to listen xx
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Post by rochelle121 on Oct 20, 2014 14:20:09 GMT
Thank you for your kind words Sarah. Today I feel soo unbelievably sick. I can't move and I'm struggling to tell myself it's probaby just pregnancy as I'm on the verge of a panic attack thinking it's something more...god why can't this just be over already :/ xx
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Post by rochelle121 on Oct 20, 2014 18:51:57 GMT
Having a low evening. Thinking lots of "whats the point" " I'll never be me again" or "I'll never be happy again" I can see looking back how,much I've just been struggling since my first was born! Wish I'd had help then when I asked for it! Instead of getting to this stage with my newest one xx
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Post by monica on Oct 20, 2014 19:36:39 GMT
Poor u! It's horrible feeling that way. Sounds quite typical of pregnancy though but maybe call Dr for reassurance? Could also b a bug - I always seemed quite prone to these in pregnancy.
Hey you will get better. Having young kids is very challenging but as they get ilder it'll getceadier and u will feel better.. Tell Dr all of this at next appt maybe print off diary entries to show him? X
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Post by rochelle121 on Oct 21, 2014 18:22:52 GMT
Feeling sad tonight like I need a cry have been not too bad during the day,bar the,anxiety.
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Post by monica on Oct 21, 2014 19:49:12 GMT
Hugs sweetie. A cry can b good get rid of the tension and stress. Sounds like the day passed okx
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Post by rochelle121 on Oct 23, 2014 18:59:21 GMT
Hey. I had a better day yesterday, however I can't help getting upset by some of the negative thoughts that I have about how impossible and pointless this all seems...however at times I feel optimistic too:/ I feel soo all over the place... And I'm so scared of these panic attacks. I'm scared to go too far away from home. Especially with my children I feel so,guilty about this too xx
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Post by sarajay28 on Oct 23, 2014 19:21:32 GMT
Oh hun I really sympathise, it could've been me writing that exact post a few years ago! You say you feel all over the place, which is a normal thing with pni but coupled with pregnancy hormones too! Wow! That's alot to take in. Don't be disheartened to be feeling the way you do, it really doesn't last forever. I never used to want to go out either and I had an intense fear of driving my kids to school incase I passed out whilst driving, this caused me massive panic attacks. My hubby was fantastic during that really tough time, he changed his working hours so he could do the school run, he always came to the shop with me incase I needed to leg it. Have you anyone that could help you with the situations you feel anxious and panicky about?? Even just knowing he was with me made all the difference. Glad yesterday was a better day, hugs xxx
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Post by monica on Oct 24, 2014 8:49:51 GMT
Hugs-the symptoms of pni are horrible. Do go back to a Dr probably a different one . Do consider meds. If the Sertraline had started working before rhis is a good sign that the drug is working.
The ups and downs of pni as you described in ur last post can be both extremely draining and confusing. This is normal with pni and will lessen in time.
How R u today ?x
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Post by rochelle121 on Oct 24, 2014 8:58:14 GMT
Hey, I woke up in a panic this morning Also Monica I am on medication. I went back on the doluxetine Wich is like venlafaxine it's an ssnri. It's helping a little I suppose but I'm only on the very lowest dose and with the pregnancy I don't think it's making much difference. I'm 8weeks pregnant now,so I'm really hoping to see things settle down after 12 weeks. Or I dont know what i'll do.xx
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Post by brach24 on Oct 24, 2014 11:19:24 GMT
Hey Rochelle, I'm noticing from the birthboard forum I'm on that everyone is feeling overly emotional just now (around the 6-9 week stage). I'm holding on to the idea that some of my emotions just now are normal pregnancy emotions. I'm sorry I don't know your whole situation but thought it might be worth sharing as we're both in a similar stage of pregnancy. I do hope the day gets better - remember even if you lie on the sofa all day you've had a very productive day - making a new human inside yourself is very amazing!! (Can u tell I'm talking to myself as I lie on the sofa??!!) xx
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Post by sarajay28 on Oct 24, 2014 15:50:17 GMT
Had to have a wee giggle at brach's post (from the sofa!) lol. I agree though I'm now 14 wks and just starting to feel a bit less emotional than I have been in the past 6 weeks. It is really common and is just your body adjusting to this life growing inside it :-D so put your feet up and give yourself a wee break, like brach said it's productive! Xx
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Post by monica on Oct 24, 2014 16:15:05 GMT
Try not to think about the future - take each day as it comes. I'm sorry I'm not that up on meds and doses but I know there are antids deemed safer in pregnancy .
Many ladies find the anxiety worse in the morning . As the others have said hopefully once you go into the second trimester things will be less hormonal and u can relax morex
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