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Post by rochelle121 on Oct 25, 2014 11:57:12 GMT
Thank you ladies. I appreciate it.
I managed to go out yesterday, I didn't get as far as I'd hoped I would but I did manage to get out Wich is something. I am so tired today though. I could have stayed in bed all day I'm sure! I seem to have nightmares everynight too! I'm not sure if that is the pregnancy or the medication as I never had them before.
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Post by Weeble on Oct 26, 2014 9:04:13 GMT
Hi someone described nightmares to me as our subconscious fears breaking through. well done for getting out the house :-)
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Post by rochelle121 on Oct 26, 2014 12:28:22 GMT
It must be the pregnancy hormones then. It's only since pregnancy it's been happening  I wish it would stop though xx |
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Post by monica on Oct 26, 2014 15:28:16 GMT
Well done on getting out - that is good. Try and do it daily even if it's for a short time. You R challenging ur fears and the more u do it the easier it'll bex
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Post by rochelle121 on Oct 27, 2014 10:48:51 GMT
Thank you Monica.
I managed to go out yesterday too...it was very testing for me but I tried so so hard to keep telling myself "it's just anxiety and anxiety can't hurt me" it help at some,points but there was still points that were very difficult for me.
Xx
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Post by quantumrose on Oct 29, 2014 8:47:24 GMT
Hi Rochelle, how are today? Im sorry you're struggling eith anxiety at the moment. It can be so all consuming but you are doing brilliantly! Going out is a biggy and always made me feel better when I was especially anxious (although I totally appreciate its not at all easy). You're right, your anxiety is not the enemy that can hurt you. Although, I know it's a terrible thing to contend with, it responds well to gentle kindness. Treat it as though it where a frightened child, thats what mine always feels like!
Things will get better, it's hard to remember that sometimes, but it will. Keep doing what you're doing, sounds all positive stuff in the face of this illness xx
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Post by sarajay28 on Oct 29, 2014 20:53:50 GMT
Hey hun, how you feeling today? Better I hope cx
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Post by rochelle121 on Nov 1, 2014 12:40:51 GMT
Hey ladies...
i have not been feeling to good to be honest and ive all but given up.
I'm at the point now where i just don't feel like anything will help anymore.
I litteraly can't take this depression anymore.
The anti depressants im on now are helping my panic attacks. but aren't helping my depression at all... infact i think its worse.Its giving me the most unbearable horrific nightmares about my family etc dying and the only time i get an ok-ish sleep is if i forget to take one(i take it in the morning and have been on it for 5-6weeks now).
ive tried venlafaxine,paroxetine,flouxetine,sertraline and duloxetine and nothing has worked or has had unbearable side effects.
i dont think theres a medication out there will help me. I'm pregnant and stuck with no options left it seems.
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Post by monica on Nov 1, 2014 15:56:03 GMT
Hi
I know u feel incredibly low ATM but there is always a solution out there!
Could u call Dr/specialist in Monday andvtell then these meds appear to have exacerbated the depression. Maybe it's combination of early pregnancy hormones ?
Are all the meds u have tried ssri? I know for bf mums the older tricyclics meds were deemed ok. Perhaps you could try a different type of antid? I'm no expert but I think u need to talk to hcp about this and soon.
Try not to dwell on the future and that this is it for you as this isn't the case. Things will lift honestlyxxx
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Post by rochelle121 on Nov 1, 2014 16:05:15 GMT
Thank you monica i just cant feel that things will ever improve atm.
the doluxetine im on atm is an ssnri and so is venlafaxine..the others were ssri's though...i cannot cope at all on the ssri's wich is strange as in my second pregnancy i took flouxetine fine and in my last pregnancey i took sertraline ok briefly... however it seems since i had my youngest, nothing is helping, i cant believe how unbelievably crippling all this is for me and no doubt my family atm... i cant concentrate and i feel overwhelmed just being around my own children. I feel that im failing them but i cant change it.xx
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Post by Weeble on Nov 2, 2014 8:06:49 GMT
It's really tough being pregnant I really struggled with my third the thing is I got there and you will too it's just so f****** hard work
Hope today is easier
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Post by monica on Nov 22, 2014 15:23:58 GMT
Hi Rochelles
How r u? How have the last few weeks been ? Have u made any decisions re meds? X
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Post by rochelle121 on Dec 9, 2014 23:48:56 GMT
Hi all. I havent been on for a while. well i lost my baby at 12 weeks pregnant,i found out at my scan on 4th november and then had to wait another 11 days to pass the baby.i got no help from the hospital or drs at this time. it was very distressing carrying a dead baby it was the worst experience of my life. i ended up in hospital due to the fact that lost alot of blood passing it. i just makes me think whats the point? it doesn't matter what i do. life will allways kick me in the teeth. im no longer on any medication as the last meds were just making me seriuously depressed. i dont see how i can ever get better. i cant forget how bad things could easily get again. just around the corner could be another breakdown waiting to happen and leave me debilitated sorry to moan. im just fed up with life atm.xx |
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Post by sarajay28 on Dec 10, 2014 0:20:25 GMT
Oh hun I'm so so sorry for your loss. How horrendous that you've had to go through all of that traumatic experience with no support from those that are meant to look after you!! It's no wonder you are feeling the way you do right now! I'm so angry and upset for you.
Keep talking here if you feel able, I know this must be an incredibly difficult and distressing time for you. Huge hugs xxx
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Post by brach24 on Dec 10, 2014 7:13:09 GMT
So sorry to hear your story - all the grief and loss and then the experience of carrying your dead baby. Huge hugs to you.
I hope you get better support soon.
You mentioned feeling a loss of hope for progress not being on meds. Have you been given the option of any talking therapies? Counselling, CbT? Do you see your gp or a local mental health team? I'd continue to ask for help.
I feel for you as you await future with such fear. I struggle with catastrophising the future - my thoughts always jump to thinking that I will have another breakdown after birth - like it's inevitable. I try and use cbt techniques - to recognise that, yes it might happen but it's not inevitable, I may also be ok and look at the evidence for that. Just thought I'd mention it incase it helped.
Hope today is a little easier. Be gentle with yourself - we all need time to grieve xx
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I wish it would stop though xx