Post by monica on May 12, 2016 6:48:13 GMT
I just wanted to post here to update all those who replied to my posts and to encourage any moms who've been suffering and don't feel like there's light at the end of the tunnel.
It's been a few years now since the onset of my PNI, and I'm happy to say that I hardly ever have the dreaded thoughts. I'm feeling functional, happier than I've been in years and happy as a mom too. If you stay determined you will beat this down. There are some days when I have blips, but instead of every hour on the hour, these happen once every six months or so, and I feel generally down but can identify why and that helps me calm myself and combat it better.
What helped me heal:
- Working on a project (art/writing/whatever you enjoy) that pulls your focus from the darkness
- Challenging every dreaded thought
- CBT
- Exercising (even if it's just going for a walk down the road with a toddler or a baby in a pram and back again)
- This forum (a lot of the people around me didn't grasp what I was going through and made it worse, though this wasn't their fault)
- Talking myself up in the mirror. Telling myself I'm a good mother, that I'm worthy, that everything will be all right. Really looking myself in the eye.
- Meditating (except when I was depersonalized, as this made me feel strange)
- Realizing that I'm not alone in the universe, reading spiritual books
- Taking time for myself (you could even hire a babysitter) and reading a good book, or playing a game on the PC or watching a favorite show
- Cooking
- Chocolates
Please remember that you are never alone!
I hope that someone who's going through a rough time reads this and that it helps. I have been there and there is an end to this!
It's been a few years now since the onset of my PNI, and I'm happy to say that I hardly ever have the dreaded thoughts. I'm feeling functional, happier than I've been in years and happy as a mom too. If you stay determined you will beat this down. There are some days when I have blips, but instead of every hour on the hour, these happen once every six months or so, and I feel generally down but can identify why and that helps me calm myself and combat it better.
What helped me heal:
- Working on a project (art/writing/whatever you enjoy) that pulls your focus from the darkness
- Challenging every dreaded thought
- CBT
- Exercising (even if it's just going for a walk down the road with a toddler or a baby in a pram and back again)
- This forum (a lot of the people around me didn't grasp what I was going through and made it worse, though this wasn't their fault)
- Talking myself up in the mirror. Telling myself I'm a good mother, that I'm worthy, that everything will be all right. Really looking myself in the eye.
- Meditating (except when I was depersonalized, as this made me feel strange)
- Realizing that I'm not alone in the universe, reading spiritual books
- Taking time for myself (you could even hire a babysitter) and reading a good book, or playing a game on the PC or watching a favorite show
- Cooking
- Chocolates
Please remember that you are never alone!
I hope that someone who's going through a rough time reads this and that it helps. I have been there and there is an end to this!
