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Post by katharine87 on Jul 20, 2016 9:51:12 GMT
Hey Kirsty87 - id love to hear more about what youre going through! All ears!! today is going well so far. Seeing the dr again later. Im hoping she dosent suggest to increase the medication to 40mg as im concerned about breastfeeding.. Do you ever get strange vision stuff? Sometimes i feel as if ive looked at the sun and looked away again.. and i get a lot of black floaters.. also i keep getting a annoying little headache. Its not a severe one, but it just hurts every now and then. And a little spaced out at times. its keeping me on edge. Went for a walk earlier and felt a slight panic about the vision and headaches. So have been trying to say to myself its just because im tired and sick. Its not anything more.. but its so tiring how much reassurance i need at the moment. Its strange how my anxiety has zoned in on my health more than anything else..
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Post by Kirsty on Jul 20, 2016 15:12:34 GMT
I used to get strange vision stuff, feeling spaced out etc when I first started taking my meds. It lasted a couple of weeks and then went away! I'm glad your having a good day today! My day is crappy, I feel down on the dumps today and feel that I'm Never going to get over this. Upping your meds should be ok with breatfeeding if he doctor suggests it, have a think about it if you think it could help in the long run! X
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Post by katharine87 on Jul 21, 2016 3:45:51 GMT
Just like the lovely post you sent me.. thousands of women have beaten this, and we will too. Its horrible feeling so low. And i hope youre having a better day today. My lowest is believing that im dying and leaving my children behind. I went to my appointment with the dr and she didnt increase the meds, but My dr suggested that i get a CT scan. To once and for all rule everything out. Even though she believes its pni. So im here waiting to go in. And im absolutely freaking out! Did you get one? I have read on here that a lot of women have had them and theyve come out normal. Im so so scared. Its so stange to be scared to get a scan.. cause its a win win.. if its something then at least i know. And if its not then i can stop obsessing. But its so scary none the less
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Post by Kirsty on Jul 21, 2016 16:52:28 GMT
How did the scan do? Sorry I didn't write sooner. I hope you're feeling ok? I didn't get a scan because my obsession isn't to do with my health it's to do with me as a person and I have intrusive thoughts of hurting my baby which kill me everyday. I'm in CBT and hypnotherapy so I'm hoping soon this will fade away. X
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Post by katharine87 on Jul 22, 2016 3:08:10 GMT
My scan came out clear and i had all my bloods done too. Im perfectly healthy. But suffering physically from pni. Ha. I finally have to believe it. Oh what a journey it all is..
You poor love, having those intrusive thoughts.. i had them too in the beginning of all this. It was so horrible. And just like you they killed me! It was so unstoppable.. and they haunted me ALL THE TIME!! I found the antidepressants worked really well for these, as i only get them very rarely now. Cant wait to start the cbt and get more strategies in place. Are you taking any meds? Part of me wishes i didnt, but they have really helped xxx
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Post by Kirsty on Jul 22, 2016 6:34:33 GMT
That's so good that it All came out clear! I'm so pleased for you. ☺️ Xx
Yeah I'm on 2 different types of meds, like you I didn't want to but I couldn't carry on the way I was going so ended up taking them. CBT will be good for you, it hasn't done a lot for me but I think it's because my OCD is bad. Iv started hypnotherapy which I'm hoping will help me too. I hate these thoughts I feel like a monster 😢 Xxx
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Post by katharine87 on Jul 22, 2016 6:48:57 GMT
You are definitely not a monster!! The fact that you dont like feeling this way and you want it to stop shows that. You will get over this and even though it may take time (feels like bloody forever- i know) day by day things will slowly improve for you. Sounds like you are going through a rough patch right now.. when i was at the start of all this i felt like i didnt love my husband anymore and i wanted to run away from him and the kids. And i really gave myself a hard time about that.. but the best thing you can do is understand that this is an illness and to be kind to yourself xxxx big hugs xxxx
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Post by Kirsty on Jul 22, 2016 16:50:11 GMT
That's how I feel about not loving my husband too. It's awful! Your so confident and that's great that you feel this way! I'm really proud of you. Look at the difference in yourself already! So pleased for you! Xxx
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Post by Kirsty on Jul 27, 2016 11:17:14 GMT
How are you doing? Xx
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Post by katharine87 on Jul 28, 2016 2:39:08 GMT
Hi Kirsty87
I havent been doing too well. So much stress in my life at the moment is really taking its toll. I dont know if its because of pni but i feel like i cant cope. My ex has initiated taking me to court over wanting more access for our son. He was abusive to me in our 10 year relationship and i dont trust him. My now gorgeous husband and i are even contemplating moving interstate if things keep going so badly. Im so overcome with worry about him and my 12 week old that it all seems to take my breath away. The last few days ive been so spaced out i couldnt even focus properly on my babies face
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Post by monica on Jul 28, 2016 7:08:55 GMT
Hi Kat
Poor you- that is very worrying for you and unsurprising you've been feeling so spaced out - a reaction to the stress.
If u don't mind me asking how often does your ex see your hubby? What is their relationship like? Whilst I'm not dismissing your fears in any way often men who are abusive towards their partners are ok with their children. Or do you feel there is a real possibility he could behave this way towards your son. Maybe it's worth seeing a solicitor ?
Big hugs X
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Post by Kirsty on Jul 28, 2016 16:25:26 GMT
Oh no that's awful, I would feel the same too. Poor you. Being spaced out is a reaction to the stress I get the same Thing when I'm stressed. I really hope it improves for you soon xx
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Post by Kirsty on Jul 30, 2016 21:11:33 GMT
Hi Kat, how are you doing!? Xx
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