Post by lovechild on Jun 10, 2017 9:14:00 GMT
I am new to this you guys, so I'll start off with a brief introduction. I am a 33 year old mother of 3 boys 7,10, and 13 and just recently had the girl I've been waiting for my whole life 7 months ago. My entire pregnancy I was super anxious to meet her, also freaking out because I had a fear she would pass before she was born due to a freak umbilical cord accident, or from me eating lunch meat and being the 10% that caught salminila. Needless to say once she arrived fear, anxiety, panic kicked on full blown.
My typical days consists of me feeling so detached from my body, I feel like a crazy person, sorta like I am outside my body watching my every move. I have a constant fear that I have a chronic medical illness. My fear of being sick is so strong I suffer from panic attacks which makes me admit myself into the ER convinced that I will soon go into cardiac arrest.
Due to these intrusive thoughts I have no appetite and have lost at least 10lbs. When people notice the weight is melting off and mention it to me, it sends me back into panic mode and I believe I have cancer so I google my symptoms and convince myself that I have everything in the book! My fear is not being around for my kids because I lost my parents at a young age.
I really want to be happy and enjoy life. I am also getting married in less than a month. Will I ever be normal again? I have the perfect family and I can't enjoy them because my thoughts, and panic attacks are making it hard for me to even smile let alone enjoy my blessings. I really am afraid of meds I don't even take them when I have a migraine. Has anything else worked for anyone? Is anyone cured? Please say we can overcome this!
My typical days consists of me feeling so detached from my body, I feel like a crazy person, sorta like I am outside my body watching my every move. I have a constant fear that I have a chronic medical illness. My fear of being sick is so strong I suffer from panic attacks which makes me admit myself into the ER convinced that I will soon go into cardiac arrest.
Due to these intrusive thoughts I have no appetite and have lost at least 10lbs. When people notice the weight is melting off and mention it to me, it sends me back into panic mode and I believe I have cancer so I google my symptoms and convince myself that I have everything in the book! My fear is not being around for my kids because I lost my parents at a young age.
I really want to be happy and enjoy life. I am also getting married in less than a month. Will I ever be normal again? I have the perfect family and I can't enjoy them because my thoughts, and panic attacks are making it hard for me to even smile let alone enjoy my blessings. I really am afraid of meds I don't even take them when I have a migraine. Has anything else worked for anyone? Is anyone cured? Please say we can overcome this!
