Post by dusky on Sept 18, 2017 17:01:29 GMT
Thank you Monica for your reply. Youre such an asset to this forum, I see you replying to so many people.
Guys, did anyone of you went through this? I feel like my mind is permanently changed, Ive forgotten how to think of normal things, everything I think about is related to whats happened to me. Everything is coloured by this experience of birth. When I think of my past, I feel such sadness that I had such a great life, no worries and when I think about future, its full of apprehension about how I will deal with this illness or whatever it is. When we go out and I see mums happily chatting away, I feel so small and lonely and so envious that they dont have to go through what I'm going through and have no idea for how long either.
My mind seems to be very affected by everything, random words come that Ive heard or read, I can have a perfect conversation in my head where I can actually hear all my thoughts. This constant thinking is so tiring and I feel like Im obsessed about myself, my health, how Im feeling. When I say all the time, I really mean all my waking hours except when Im speaking to someone. Has thus ever happened to anyone?
My daughters a healthy 7 month old and I'm a wreck. I probably have had breakfast abt 10 times in 7 months. My stomach is in knots in the morning and the worst part of the day. All my thoughts are about myself, I cannot believe sometimes how Ive changed. Im scared to be alone because I knkw all what Id be thinking of. Initally all I wanted to talk abt was my birth, even though it wasnt traumatic according to my birth notes, to me something had seriously gone wrong. I used to blame the pethidine that the midwife gave me and actually thought the drug had seriously done something to my brain. So for the first few mnths I was just trying to figure what she had done wrong! After reading posts here I realised it is most likely PNI, however Ive not had an official diagnosis by the GP.
My question is, if Im constantly consumed by the same thoughts abt myself and whats happend to my mind, how does counselling help with that? Wouldnt speaking about it aggravaye it?
Also, did anyone try any homeopathic remedies that worked, please please share if it helped. Im based in Birmingham, if anyone knows of an expert PNI counsellor, would really appreciate it.
Guys, did anyone of you went through this? I feel like my mind is permanently changed, Ive forgotten how to think of normal things, everything I think about is related to whats happened to me. Everything is coloured by this experience of birth. When I think of my past, I feel such sadness that I had such a great life, no worries and when I think about future, its full of apprehension about how I will deal with this illness or whatever it is. When we go out and I see mums happily chatting away, I feel so small and lonely and so envious that they dont have to go through what I'm going through and have no idea for how long either.
My mind seems to be very affected by everything, random words come that Ive heard or read, I can have a perfect conversation in my head where I can actually hear all my thoughts. This constant thinking is so tiring and I feel like Im obsessed about myself, my health, how Im feeling. When I say all the time, I really mean all my waking hours except when Im speaking to someone. Has thus ever happened to anyone?
My daughters a healthy 7 month old and I'm a wreck. I probably have had breakfast abt 10 times in 7 months. My stomach is in knots in the morning and the worst part of the day. All my thoughts are about myself, I cannot believe sometimes how Ive changed. Im scared to be alone because I knkw all what Id be thinking of. Initally all I wanted to talk abt was my birth, even though it wasnt traumatic according to my birth notes, to me something had seriously gone wrong. I used to blame the pethidine that the midwife gave me and actually thought the drug had seriously done something to my brain. So for the first few mnths I was just trying to figure what she had done wrong! After reading posts here I realised it is most likely PNI, however Ive not had an official diagnosis by the GP.
My question is, if Im constantly consumed by the same thoughts abt myself and whats happend to my mind, how does counselling help with that? Wouldnt speaking about it aggravaye it?
Also, did anyone try any homeopathic remedies that worked, please please share if it helped. Im based in Birmingham, if anyone knows of an expert PNI counsellor, would really appreciate it.