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Post by EC on Dec 17, 2018 11:49:59 GMT
Thanks for or checking on me Monica. I've generally been well over the last few weeks. Occasional anxiety but the physical symptoms had disappeared so I always feel like I return to normal in these periods. Over last few days I've had a cold and period and have felt a few physical symptoms reappear. This always increases my anxiety levels but each time I get a reoccurrence of symptoms I try and remember it has passed before. I do find though that whenever there's something in the news about health it brings the past year up and old anxieties return, particularly of I'm going through a blip, that I have or will get whatever it is. Did u get this with health anxiety? I've heard a few cases recently of others who have developed physical symptoms without being pregnant or post partum. That made me worry that it can't all be hormones. Thank you for your on going support x
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Post by EC on Dec 18, 2018 19:18:43 GMT
It always feels like I'm tempting fate saying I'm ok. Typically I've got a stomach bug and feel completely wiped out. The fatigue rather than the stomach cramps have caused me the most anxiety. Feeling tired is a real trigger, think it's because I feel so helpless and then start worrying about how awful it would be if I felt like this long term. I feel like I can't get any bug without going into panic mode about my health and catastrophising. My husband had the same symptoms as me a few days ago so logically it has to pass but I freak out that I just won't recover, as this is what seemed to happen last summer when I started getting weird symptoms after an illness. I wish I could be like I used to and just be ill and have confidence in myself to recover. Sorry to blabber on. It always seems that whenever I feel like I'm making progress and have felt good for a few weeks, illness hits and then the anxiety starts all over again about my health. Hope you are both enjoying the run up to Xmas xx
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Post by monica on Dec 20, 2018 22:36:37 GMT
Hi
So sorry to hear you’ve got s stomach bug - it does wipe you out ! Everything you feel today is completely normal with PNI. Seemingly simple ‘normal ‘ things like bugs by association can trigger the health anxiety and with it those feelings that it will last forever even though logically you know it won’t . It took me s little time to build up the belief and confidence that what I was going to was simply a blip and would pass. Believe me it won’t be forever .
It does sound like you’ve been doing so well and making progress with recovery which is really a positive sign . How’s work? New house? Baby ? Hope all is going well x
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Post by EC on Dec 24, 2018 22:17:32 GMT
Thanks for your reply and Happy Christmas. Work is good thanks and baby is great, growing up fast. I feel so ungrateful complaining about blips especially as I'm in a much better place than last year. Just feels a bit rubbish to having one over Xmas hols. Felt quite spaced out today and heavy headed. I always feel a bit out of control when I feel weird but it does get easier to remember I felt normal before so hopefully will again. Still health anxiety rears its head when I'm feeling particularly anxious. Anyway, it is what it is and it just has to play out. I hope you have a lovely Christmas and manage to have a rest. Xx
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Post by monica on Dec 30, 2018 20:52:08 GMT
Hi EC
Hope you had a fantastic Xmas and that the horrible I’ll timed blip has now passed - you have every reason to feel short changed and it does make those health anxiety fear return temporarily. It will pass ! Hang on in there ! Glad baby work and himecare all going well- it’s hreat to hear x
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Post by EC on Jan 1, 2019 10:55:14 GMT
Hi we had a great Christmas thanks. How about you? I've felt like the weird head has passed now and don't feel so spaced out when walking but been replaced by achiness and a feeling of exhaustion. Don't know whether his is PNI or a virus. Did you ever feel wiped out with PNI?I don't get this kind of exhaustion with every blip but feel it every so often and it's always a trigger for anxiety. I always jump to the worst case, that I will get worse and won't be able to get out of bed and care for my children. The most frustrating thing is that I've probably had period where I've felt wiped out pre PNI but now have lost all perspective and think think I'll never feel normal again xx
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Post by monica on Jan 5, 2019 12:41:36 GMT
Hope you’re feeling better! I do understand how feeling unwell brings with it thevdoubts you’ll never be free of this. I was EXACTLY the same. It was cruel as I feltvas soon as I’d started to feel Confident about being well I would be floored once again. But it will get better..you’ll manage the blips better and have confidence in recovering x
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Post by EC on Jan 15, 2019 8:01:30 GMT
Thank you again for your kind words. I'm trying to remember I'm in a blip, just have feel so tired and achey at the mo which makes worry there's more to it. Then I think maybe I would have felt like this anyway looking after 2 small children and working but that my health anxiety has made it worse by me focusing on it. It's so hard not knowing what things are legitimate ailments or those caused from PNI. I have thoughts of 'what if I've got chronic fatigue or cancer and end up bed bound''. When you write it down it doesn't seem so scary but it's hard when you don't know why you feel so tired. X
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Post by monica on Jan 17, 2019 13:04:03 GMT
Hi EC
I’m sorry it’s so tough isn’t it! Why don’t you go to Drs - maybe a blood test might rule out causes like anaemia or thyroid that can leave you drained. If it’s something similar it’s relatively easy to rectify . Possibly a few changes in your life might be useful just to get a bit of R&R to help you feel better and get your energy levels up? Just an idea. Keep talking x
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Post by leanneh on Jan 23, 2019 20:58:13 GMT
How are you doing EC? Sorry haven’t been about for a while! I thought of you the other day because I was speaking to someone about Sertraline. A psychiatrist was telling me that 50mg isn’t even a proper dose really - in every other country it starts at 75mg as the minimum dose and often children find it doesn’t even work for them.
I hope it might give you some comfort as to why you were finding it wasn’t making such a difference on the low dose. Xx
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Post by EC on Feb 16, 2019 7:41:12 GMT
Thanks ladies for replying. I think I must be going through another blip as I feel so achey and have joint pain. I just had my period and think there must be a link. Was achey during it and still hadn't passed. Aches and pains were a symptom of this illness for me and then didn't have them for a year and a half I worried that there was more to it. I did go to docs for blood test and all came back fine apart from slightly low vit d which I'm now taking tablets for. So I guess must be PNI. Don't understand why this symptom has returned though after such a long time without it. It feels like i have a good period for a month or so and then a new or old symptom returns and I'm back to have thoughts of never recovering, like there has been irreversible damage done to my body. Then I try to remember I've felt like this before and have got through to a good period. I guess I'm just frustrated that my blips aren't longer apart and seem to coincide with my period. Had your PNI symptoms completely gone before you had another child Monica? I forgot to do a few things the other day and my current stress is that I've got early onset dimentia. Got to keep reminding myself it's just anxiety and will pass. Hope you are both doing well x
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Post by EC on Feb 16, 2019 8:35:24 GMT
Argh also feel like I've got aching in my lower back like it's my period (which it's not) Really hope this isn't going to be a symptom now that I've got to put up with on a long term basis. Sorry to drone on xx
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Post by leanneh on Feb 18, 2019 22:02:16 GMT
Please don’t worry! We never think you are droning on! It’s helpful to talk about how you are feeling!
I do find that my periods are so much worse now since having my son and also having pnd. My mood is a lot worse and I literally feel it dip on the day I’m due on and feel really low for a couple of days. I also have much worse period pains now than I ever had before. I tend to just keep reminding myself that my mood is just linked to my period and wait for it to pass. X
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Post by monica on Feb 20, 2019 19:20:09 GMT
Hi EC
I’m sorry the dreaded symptoms have made a come back. It’s just horrible not to mention cruel. Unfortunately I can’t give you a biological explanation but the pattern you’re experiencing is normal. It will ease in time. And my symptoms did go completely. Sometimes the foggyheadedness seems to reappear when tired and I have slight sensitivity to light (I’ve been recovered 12 yrs now).
Re memory it’s probably nappy brain! Tiredness, running around after a young child plus post pregnancy hormones all lead to being forgetful. I know so many women who have this. As for your back could it be from lifting the lo?
You’ve done all the right things by seeing dr. It’s great blood tests are fine and I know from personal experience vit D deficiency can lead to to tiredness and achy joints too so hopefullybones your stores are replenished you’ll feel better x
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Post by ec on Aug 28, 2019 19:18:50 GMT
Hi ladies, I haven't posted in a while. As soon as I feel well I try to forget about my PNI or look upon it with a sense of calmness. I have had a few blips with physical symptoms but have not been that badt over the last 6 months and I try to remember they will pass. We have recently been thinking about another baby which I know seems crazy after everything but I'm not getting any younger and feel time pressure now. I'm trying to reduce my anti depressants at the mo which is slightly worrying me. Also Had a bladder infection recently which made my health anxiety reappear so I'm a bit anxious at the mo but now too bad. I was just in a yoga class and had a bit of dizziness. All those old feelings and emotions came back to me of how I used to feel with PNI and the trauma associated with it. I guess it concerns me that I'm going to get all the physical symptoms back again if I get pregnant with a change in hormones. I learnt so much from the experience of PNI and realised how strong I had been but it scares me how suddenly vulnerable I feel if I have some dizziness or other symptoms. Thank you by the way for all the support when I was in the thick of it about a year ago. This forum was so much support for me. I feel so grateful to have found it x
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