panic attacks

[veritee]

I am a midwife with 4 children [ yes I should know better ] the baby is 7 months. I knew I was going down hill when I started shouting at home and hysterically crying at work. Now its got to the point where i had a bad panic attack on the ward and have become phobic about not liking other peoples babies. I have been on medication for 3-4 months, it has decreased the feeling that if i drive on the wrong side of the road it will all end etc. But I am in a job where emotions are on a rollercoaster ride as it is, yes i do have to work, i have had lots of support from colleagues but I am stuck as in what to do about these panic attacks. On the positve side I do like the baby now, but life is hard.

[Ann Marie]

I have pnd and the thing I find so hard to understand is that I'va always loved the children yet have these horrible feeling towards them. Thats what makes it so hard.
You should give yourself a lot of credit as I can bearly get out of the house let alone go to work.
Well done. ;D